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im a kind of lonlynessfobic person. i mean i like it, being one-on-one with myself, but i need to feel somebody next to me every minute
not literally next to me, but i need to feel it
i used to think it was impossible
that half a year proved me wrong
that half a year was impossible, fast, lovefull, sexfull, and needfull...
maybe it was wrong, but it was the way i felt
you know, the true happiness is to live like you feel and to do whatever you want to
so thats what i did
and that's why there were lots of minutes when i wanted to shout that life is f@@g beautiful
lots of minutes when i wanted to sing- and i did
and none told me to shut up- no, they sang along with me or were just listening
lots of minutes, when i thought that i'm just 22 but i found my place
lots of minutes when i thought that now is forever
i never felt it that way
i never did it that way
i always dreamed of it but i never dreamed it can be real
since the very first minute till now- the same feeling
i cant say that now its gone
everything is still very fine
i just donnow why im crying
maybe its just tiredness
maybe its just a fear that something can change
i like when its global changings
but i guess it concerns everything except that "next to me" feeling
actually , with no this feeling life's senceless
emotionless
maybe even better, in freetime and structure meaning, but emotionless
not literally next to me, but i need to feel it
i used to think it was impossible
that half a year proved me wrong
that half a year was impossible, fast, lovefull, sexfull, and needfull...
maybe it was wrong, but it was the way i felt
you know, the true happiness is to live like you feel and to do whatever you want to
so thats what i did
and that's why there were lots of minutes when i wanted to shout that life is f@@g beautiful
lots of minutes when i wanted to sing- and i did
and none told me to shut up- no, they sang along with me or were just listening
lots of minutes, when i thought that i'm just 22 but i found my place
lots of minutes when i thought that now is forever
i never felt it that way
i never did it that way
i always dreamed of it but i never dreamed it can be real
since the very first minute till now- the same feeling
i cant say that now its gone
everything is still very fine
i just donnow why im crying
maybe its just tiredness
maybe its just a fear that something can change
i like when its global changings
but i guess it concerns everything except that "next to me" feeling
actually , with no this feeling life's senceless
emotionless
maybe even better, in freetime and structure meaning, but emotionless