Help
I'm stuck in this tug of war between substance and living a healthy life
my body is doomed if i keep doing it, my body is doomed if i stop
the agitated twitching uncomfortable withdrawal is almost as bad as
the feeling of complete destruction that my brain has to take everytime i do it
sometimes while i'm on the bus i suddenly realize i have been sitting there for half an hour and not a simple thought has gone through my brain. not a single memory has been relived.
that scares me so much that i am trying, trying TRYING so hard to quit. i need help. i neeed change. i neeeeeeeeed support or something...I Can't even think of what i need!!! fuck
iam so stupid now
i'm done for
my body is doomed if i keep doing it, my body is doomed if i stop
the agitated twitching uncomfortable withdrawal is almost as bad as
the feeling of complete destruction that my brain has to take everytime i do it
sometimes while i'm on the bus i suddenly realize i have been sitting there for half an hour and not a simple thought has gone through my brain. not a single memory has been relived.
that scares me so much that i am trying, trying TRYING so hard to quit. i need help. i neeed change. i neeeeeeeeed support or something...I Can't even think of what i need!!! fuck
iam so stupid now
i'm done for