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so school has started again...and i have senoritis so bad i cant believe i've made it out of bed and dragged my ass to school for eight days AND COUNTING...im quite an amazing girl. but the problem with this year, on top of it being my LAST YEAR AT HEREFORD!!!!!!!!!!!! (which btw, is no problem for me)...is that i seem to be falling back into old habits and such when i promised myself that i would be stronger, more dedicated, more organized, less crazy n the like this year because i am getting older and in some ways i have to grow up. ill never stop being random or impulisive or wild...but i do have to grow up. especially when it comes to boys and such. i allow myself to fall back into the stupid, immature dating rituals i blindly raced through at teh beginning of last year. im allowing people to walk all over me and treat me whatever way they see is fit that day and then the next day acting completely different. and all i do is smile n make little jokes so that they'll smile and stick around to talk to me for a few more minutes. its sad but im not going to change because i love too hard and too easily and for way WAY too long. but thats me! ill never change but i guess its ok because i mean i cant be around the same people forever which means that eventually life and fate will force me to move on and be happy with someone else who doesnt treat me like a plaything...cant wait!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT IM GRADUATING THIS YEAR!!!!! i could pee myself right now jus by thinking about it....but i wont bc that would mean that id have to shower and shave my legs...work work work its all i do...im done being gross. peace out mother fuckers!!!!!!!! love love love.