Growing up - Chapter 5
Summary: Naruto is a young boy who tragically loses his parents and as a result has to move in with his new adoptive family - the Uchiha family. How will his relationship with young Sasuke develop as they grow up? AU, multi-chapter.
Author’s note: Hey, my beloved readers. Strangely, the title of this chapter coincides with the moments I did most of the writing for it. Enjoy!
Warning: This is a yaoi fanfiction. If you are offended by that or if you are not the proper age, don’t read.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Naruto and I don’t make any profits from this work.
Chapter 5: Late at night
Naruto was nearly sleepwalking on the way to the kitchen. He was already dressed for school and was heading downstairs to get some breakfast. He would have traded anything for another hour of sleep. Ever since he started having insomnias and used the night to skinny dip rather than sleep, he had been a zombie at school, especially in the early classes. He yawned and stretched his back before sitting down in front of a streaming cup of coffee. He rubbed his eyes as he stuffed his mouth with cereals. He wasn’t even hungry, the lack of sleep was making him nauseous but he ate despite of this, because he didn’t want to invite unwanted questions regarding his lack of appetite. He was startled by the sudden appearance of the boy who hunted his every waking moment…and not only. Almost every night he would dream about Sasuke, every morning waking up sweaty and frustrated and the front of his boxers stained. He felt like he was going through hell, but he didn’t quite know what to do about it.
“Morning.” said the brunet as he sat down, bowl of cereals in front of him.
“Ihm…”, Naruto looked briefly at the other and then averted his gaze. Sometimes, after a particularly graphic erotic dream he couldn’t even look Sasuke in the eye, fearing he would be able to read his mind.
They ate in silence for a while, before Sasuke dragged in a loud breath as if preparing to say something important. Naruto looked at him expecting to hear what he had to say. However nothing came out of the pale lips. They just looked each other in the eye. Naruto thought Sasuke looked very weird. Something was up, but he couldn’t quite figure out what was wrong with the other boy. The brunet looked like he was about to say something important, but he just couldn’t bring himself to utter it. Also his stare was so intense so…inquisitive, yet Naruto couldn’t guess what he was thinking. The stare stretched over an entire minute and things were getting awkward when Naruto started losing his patience.
“What?!”
“Hm?”
“What’s wrong? Why are you staring at me like that?”
“Who’s starring, dobe?”
“YOU! You are staring! What do you want? Speak up!”
Naruto was a little harsher than he would have wanted, but this weirdness from Sasuke was the last thing he needed right now. It was enough that his whole life seemed to be about the other boy, now he didn’t need him to start acting like a weirdo.
“Calm yourself dobe…I got nothing to say.”
“Temeeee! Don’t tell me to calm down. You have been staring at me like a creep for half an hour. You obviously got something on your mind. What is it?”
“Hm,” Sasuke snorted while smirking and returning his eyes to his spoon. “Nothing, you are imagining things.”
Naruto sighed in defeat. Even though he knew Sasuke was lying he didn’t have the necessary energy to push the matter. He just wanted to finish his breakfast, go to school where he could possibly doze off for a few minutes during class, and just see and talk to other people that weren’t Sasuke. His infatuation with the brunet was starting to get to him and was tiring him out. Some days he felt like he didn’t have the strength to keep loving the other boy from afar hoping that maybe someday he would feel the same way about him. Today was one of those days when he felt defeated and hopeless.
The rest of the meal went on uneventful without any of the boys speaking. They were both lost deep in thought about each other, but neither voicing anything out.
*
Itachi was having his lunch break and as he usually did, he ate a sandwich alone in his office. As he took another bite he was thinking about how empty he felt. He started working for his dad’s company after he graduated from university, and he was not far from a management position. His father told him that in one or two years he would be ready to occupy such a function. Even though the plan was for Itachi to eventually become the CEO and heir of Uchiha Corporation, his father thought it was best if he first went through the proper steps that would allow him to gradually ascend on the company hierarchy. In this way, by the time he would become CEO he would know everything there was to know about the business and the people that were part of it.
Although he maybe should have been exhilarated at the career opportunity fate had presented to him the moment he was born an Uchiha, the young man could not feel any fouler. He felt like his whole life had been a string of duties he had to accomplish for his father, for his family, for the Uchiha name. He had never been able to make his own choices, to have his own preferences or opinion. He felt like he was put on this earth to please other people, and especially the great Uchiha Fugaku. In the back of his mind he knew that his father only wanted to offer him a brilliant future and an amazing life, however Itachi would have liked for his father to actually ask him for once what he wanted. Instead the old man had always presented him with what he thought his son wanted, without ever asking if this was the life he desired.
A part of the young man always felt guilty when he thought about this. The sense of responsibility and loyalty he felt towards his father always kicked in when thoughts like this occurred. He felt bad that he didn’t appreciate everything that was given to him, thinking of other people who would probably give anything to be in his stead. However, no matter how much he tried to like his life and be enthusiastic about his job, he always ended up feeling empty and dissatisfied. He hated his job, hated the Uchiha Company, hated being the first born, hated his car, and his house and his girlfriend and his friends. He just wanted to get away from it all. He felt like there was something boiling deep inside him, just screaming to get out, but he didn’t know what it was. It was like a desire to express himself, to yell and tell the world something…something…a truth, an ultimate truth. However, the young man was not sure what that truth was, he just knew it was there, residing inside his very core, patently waiting for its release. Unfortunately Itachi didn’t know how, when or where to release it. So he just waited for a sign from anywhere…something that would point him in the direction his life was supposed to take from the very beginning. But he kept waiting and waiting and nothing came. So for now he just went through the motions, hoping that one day he would find a way. He just got up every morning, got into his car, came to work where he usually stayed for about 10 - 11 hours. Then he went back to his house, ate, showered, fucked his girlfriend, whom he didn’t love, shower again and went to sleep. And the next day he would start again from the top. He didn’t love Yuki, his girlfriend. However they have been together since university and it was a comfortable routine between them. They didn’t have much in common and their conversations resumed to daily facts. But his father frequently pointed out that a man in a position of power needed to have a woman by his side. Fugaku seemed to like Yuki, so Itachi took that as a sign to continue the relationship with the girl. He hadn’t loved anyone since Konan. She was his girlfriend in high school. He had loved her with all his being and was ready to sacrifice anything for their happiness. He never felt more complete, more alive than when he was in her arms. However they weren’t able to be together for a very long time because life had taken Konan from him. She died in a drowning accident when he was 16. He was never the same again. He was never able to love another girl after her and his whole life became a sequence of days and events that brought him neither happiness nor fulfillment. The only thing that still shed some light over his life was his brother Sasuke.
However, lately Sasuke was another subject that worried the older brother. He had always noticed Sasuke’s desire to prove himself to their father and to gain his affection. He also found out quite recently that his younger brother would have actually liked to take over the Uchiha Company. Therefore, he was pained that he had to take away his brother’s ambition and dream, especially when he didn’t even want it. Also, another thing that troubled Itachi when thinking about his brother, was Sasuke’s love life. The boy told him a few years back that he preferred boys instead of girls, which had not come as a huge shock to Itachi. The problem however was that Sasuke still hadn’t told their parents about his preferences, and what was more, he never heard Sasuke mention any boyfriend. He was worried that his younger brother was heartbroken over some guy, and that he wasn’t happy. All he ever wanted was for Sasuke to be happy. It didn’t matter to him if the boy liked men or women or if he was good in school or not. He just wanted his kid brother to be happy and have the freedom he never had. That was why he was supportive when he found out about his brother’s sexual preferences, and he told himself he would also be supportive of whatever boy Sasuke would choose as long as that boy would make him happy.
*
It was night again and Sasuke stood at his window once more watching Naruto swim. This morning during breakfast he almost asked the blonde out. He came down to have breakfast where he already found the other boy. He remembered the decision he took the previous night about taking action concerning his relationship with Naruto, and he wanted to do something…he really did. As they were eating breakfast he just wanted to ask Naruto if he wanted to go out on a date with him. Just like that, bluntly, in his face. He got ready to speak the words, because in theory it seemed so simple. Just ask the guy out, no regrets, no remorse, no fear, just go for it. However, Sasuke couldn’t do it. He just…it was too difficult in real life compared with theory. So he just stood there with his breath drawn in without saying anything. Of course that got a pretty bad reaction from Naruto, who wanted to know what was happening. The brunet of course denied it, which caused the blonde to avoid him for the rest of the day.
And now it was night and it seemed that Naruto couldn’t sleep again, so he was out in the swimming pool. As Sasuke was watching him he decided that this time he was not going to think about it. He discovered that when he wanted to do something dangerous or risky it was better to just go ahead and do it without thinking about it too much. That is because, the longer he thought about it, the problem became more terrifying, which usually caused him to back down…as it happened this morning. As such, he told himself “you are going downstairs right now and talk to him. Don’t think about what you are going to say, just go with your gut.”
Sasuke approached the swimming pool, suddenly aware that he might startle Naruto. The boy was lost in his swimming and didn’t notice the brunet until he stopped after finishing a lap to catch his breath. He noticed Sasuke casually sitting on a sun chair next to the swimming pool.
“OH MY FUCKING GOD! Jesus, you bastard, you scared the living hell out of me!”
Sasuke simply snorted without making any move to get up or do anything.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Naruto asked still in shock and momentarily unaware of his nudity.
“I might ask you the same thing.” Sasuke replied leisurely.
“Wha-…I-…I asked first, teme.”
“I saw you swimming naked and I thought I’d come and see what you were up to.”
Naruto blushed furiously as he suddenly became very much aware that he was wearing nothing. Trying to hide his body, although impossibly, he replied,
“You saw me? H-how?”
“From my room, just up there,” Sasuke said pointing to his window. “I see you every night.”
“…”
Naruto was speechless. His mouth literally hung open as he couldn’t find any words in his daze. He couldn’t believe that all this time he had been swimming naked, thinking he had absolute privacy when in fact Sasuke has been spying on him every night.
“You watch me every night…” in all his stupor Naruto could only repeat what the other had said.
“Yep. What are you doing here swimming in the middle of the night anyway? And why are you naked?”
“Naked-” for the second time Naruto realized just how exposed he was. The shock provoked by him learning that Sasuke has been watching him this entire time somehow dulled his awkwardness of being naked. However, it was brought back now.
“I-I thought I was alone; I thought no one was watching so I saw no point in wearing a swim suit.”
Naruto’s answer was plausible enough and it seemed to satisfy the other boy, because instead of pressing the matter further he preferred to repeat his first question,
“But why are you here in the middle of the night?”
“I have trouble sleeping.”
“Hm…what could be keeping you awake at night…every night?”
“Well….I-, there is some stuff…” Naruto couldn’t hold the eye contact any further, lowering his gaze. He was still in the water, arms supporting him against the edge of the pool.
“Some stuff…”, Sasuke said as he got up from the chair and moved closer to the blushing figure in the swimming pool.
“Ihm…” was all Naruto could utter.
“Stuff like…what?” Sasuke was right next to the pool and he crouched down looking more closely at Naruto who was still avoiding eye contact.
“Well, you know…school and stuff…”
“Come on Naruto, I know you are dumb and suck in school, but that wouldn’t prevent you from sleeping…you have been like that your entire live, so why would the insomnias only start now?”
That remark definitely got Naruto’s attention as he turned around scowling at Sasuke. However Naruto didn’t have time to retort because the other boy continued,
“I think you have something else on your mind. I think something else is keeping you awake.”
“Yeah, like what?” Naruto asked, smug expression on his face.
“I think maybe you can’t sleep because you are thinking of me.”
Sasuke’s answer left the blonde in awe for a few seconds. He didn’t say anything, just starring at the brunet. After that he blushed horribly and moved to get out of the pool while trying to laugh, very awkwardly.
“Hahah, well, I-…huh man, you got some vivid imagination Sasuke. I mean, hah, why would thinking of you keep me up at night? Or why would I think about you in the first place?”
As Naruto was laughing, a touch of hysteria could be sensed in his voice. He wrapped a towel around his waist and faced Sasuke, trying his hardest to meet the brunet’s eyes.
“I dunno…the same reason you get hard at judo, almost every time when we are practicing together.” Sasuke simply said nonchalantly.
That made Naruto’s eyes widen as he felt terror seeping in his bones. Sasuke knew…he couldn’t believe Sasuke knew. And now, he thought, for sure he would be kicked out of the Uchiha house, or made fun of, or ridiculed. He had to deny it. It was the only thing he could think of.
“I-I really d-don’t know w-what you a-are talking about, S-Sasuke…”
“You don’t, huh?”
“N-no.”
Sasuke suspected Naruto wasn’t going to break, but he had to try. The brunet thought he would just have to proceed with his plan now that there was no way of coaxing Naruto to admit his feelings.
“That’s interesting…well I guess I’ve been wrong. I guess school work does make you feel the need to bathe naked under the moonlight.”
At that something snapped in Naruto’s head,
“Hey, why do you watch me swim every night, anyway?” indignation could be heard in Naruto’s voice.
“Hmmm…I dunno, I guess I like to.”
“Y-you like to watch me swim?”
“Ihm…” a small smiled appeared on the brunet’s face at the affirmation.
“But…but I’m naked…”
“Yeah, I know. I like seeing you naked.”
Saying that also stretched a wide smile on Sasuke’s face. Naruto however looked like he had been dropped on his head as a child. The expression on his face was that of a man’s who discovers that everything he ever knew was a lie, and has the epiphany of a lifetime. He stood frozen in his spot, not moving a muscle, just staring at the other boy. Naruto felt like, at the same time his mind was both blank, and running with the speed of light thinking about a million things. The silence between them stretched over long seconds. Finally Naruto spoke,
“Why?”
“Because,” Sasuke took a step closer, “I kinda,” he said taking another step, which brought him inches apart from Naruto, “like you.”
“You like me?”
“Yes.”
“But, how? Wh-”
Naruto couldn’t finish his question because he saw the dark grey eyes coming closer and closer and then he felt a warm breath ghosting over his lips. Even thought he had traveled this far, Sasuke stopped allowing Naruto to decide whether he wanted to take the final step, or walk away. The blonde took a few moments to react, but then he tentatively pressed his lips to pale pink ones. He had always somehow imagined Sasuke’s lips cold - maybe because of their pallor. He was pleasantly surprised that they weren’t cold even in the slightest. He felt Sasuke move his lips caressing his. Naruto also tried to keep up even though a wave of shame washed over him when he realized he was very inexperienced and he would probably give off a bad impression. Sasuke however, didn’t seem to think so as he pressed harder into the kiss. After only a few seconds, they pulled apart, faces still very close, looking at each other. They both waited for the other to speak or start kissing again.
“What about you, Naruto? Do you like me?”, while saying this Sasuke’s lips brushed against Naruto’s their breath mingling. His voice was a low seductive purr and Naruto felt his knees growing weak.
The blonde didn’t answer, instead pressing his lips against the other pair. This time the kiss was impatient, frantic. Sasuke licked the boy’s lips waiting for them to part, which they soon did, allowing the brunet’s tongue to explore the other’s hot mouth. They kissed like a couple of teenagers, which in essence, they actually were - wild, passionate, messy, sloppy, anxious. Then Sasuke pulled back again.
“Naruto, tell me. Do you like me?”
The blonde didn’t answer, choosing to resume the kiss. He was afraid to say anything, because he thought that if he did the spell would break and this magical occurrence which he had dreamed of for so long, would disappear. The kiss made him lightheaded and Sasuke’s smell and feel drove him wild. He tangled his hands in soft, jet black threads, pulling softly. The gesture earned him a groan from the other boy, while he felt long arms wrap around his waist. Naruto felt his blood boil and Sasuke’s groan only excited him further. Now their bodies were flush together and he did his best not to grind against Sasuke’s lean form. However, the brunet pulled back once more.
“Naruto, you have to tell me…say it…do you like me?” while saying this Sasuke moved one of his thighs between Naruto’s naked legs, rubbing it against the towel covered crotch.
“Ahh…” Naruto threw his head back and snapped his hips forward.
“Tell me…”
He moved his leg again extracting another moan from the blonde.
“Say it, Naruto!”
“YES! Yes, I fucking like you…I like you very, very much.” Naruto lost control over his voice and his body as he started humping the brunet’s leg.
“That’s all I wanted to hear.” Sasuke said with a shit-eating-grin of his face. He didn’t waste any more time and leaned in to capture the other’s lips.
Their kiss was hot and intense. All the while Naruto had one of his hands in Sasuke’s hair and the other around his neck. Sasuke’s hands were roaming all over the other’s naked, wet body, feeling everything, teasing nipples, caressing his back. They kissed and sucked each other’s tongues as if they were born for his moment. Naruto’s moves against Sasuke’s thigh became erratic. All the years of longing for the moment he would be able to do this left their mark on Naruto’s body. He felt his mind was clouded and all his restraints were out the window.
Sasuke noticed the other boy was slowly losing control and he knew what would come next. However, it didn’t bother him, because he realized that Naruto must have gone through the same hell and frustration as he had. He knew that denying your body what it wanted for so long, and then suddenly giving in, would probably be cause for an embarrassing moment. And he knew he was right, when he felt Naruto speed the movements of his hips and then freeze for a few seconds, his whole body tensing. Sasuke stood still, letting the other boy ride out his pleasure.
“Oh my god! I…I’m so sorry, Sasuke. Oh, dear lord!”
Naruto backed away, his face and neck red as fire. He couldn’t look the other boy in the eye. It had felt so good to be kissing and touching Sasuke like that. It had felt too good, and his poor unsatisfied body couldn’t handle the pleasure. Still, he couldn’t believe he just came. He was certain Sasuke would freak out. For sure, the brunet was going to think he was a creepy pervert and walk out with a disgusted look on his face. He couldn’t even lift his eyes to see his expression. He was too afraid of what he would find. He couldn’t believe the thing he craved for, for so long was going to end like this.
Sasuke stood at a small distance from the other boy, watching him freak out. He could read the shame and the panic on his face. God only knew what Naruto was thinking, but the expression he had was wearing looked terrified. The boy took a step and placed his hand on a trembling, bare shoulder.
“Naruto…hey, it’s ok. Look at me.” He lifted the blonde’s chin so that their eyes would meet. “It’s fine. It’s…understandable. Don’t be upset about it.”
Naruto’s eyes widened in surprise.
“You are not freaked out and disgusted by me?” he asked, not being able to believe Sasuke was still there.
“No, why would I be? Seeing you like that…was damn hot!”
That seemed to calm Naruto down, his face lighting up with a smile. Sasuke’s hand moved to his face and he leaned in for a short kiss. After they pulled apart Sasuke said,
“Come on, let’s get inside. You must be freezing.”
They walked side by side until they reached Naruto’s room. Stopping in front of the door they looked each other in the eye intensely.
“So, what does this mean?” Even thought he was terribly embarrassed about sounding like a girl, Naruto had to ask.
“I don’t know, dobe. What do you want it to mean?”
“I dunno…I liked it. I mean…I…”
“Yeah, me too. So I guess it means we should do it again and see what happens, right?”
“Hmm, I suppose so…” Naruto replied.
“Good night dumb-ass. See you in the morning.”
“’Night, teme.”
They smiled while stealing one last, quick kiss before Naruto entered his room and Sasuke walked towards his. Tomorrow was going to be interesting. They couldn’t wait for it.
*
5:00 AM
The cell phone that belonged to Uchiha Fugaku rang in the large bathroom, sounding much louder than it actually was. The black haired man was currently shaving when he looked at the caller ID on his phone before answering.
“Good morning, Uchiha-sama. I’m terribly sorry to disturb you at this hour. I hope I didn’t wake you up.”
“You didn’t. What’s the problem?”
“Dono, I have some very delicate news to say to you…I would rather not do it over the phone.”
“Well, I’m afraid you’ll have to because my schedule is packed for the day.”
“Dono…I…”
“Speak up now!”
“Uchiha-sama, it concerns Namikaze Minato and Uzumaki Kushina.”
There was a moment of silence and then,
“Very well, meet me in the office in half an hour.”
“Thank you, Uchiha-sama. Good bye.”
Ending note: Let me know what you think about the boys’ confessions and about adding a second plan to this story. Reviews are very much appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read.
Author’s note: Hey, my beloved readers. Strangely, the title of this chapter coincides with the moments I did most of the writing for it. Enjoy!
Warning: This is a yaoi fanfiction. If you are offended by that or if you are not the proper age, don’t read.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Naruto and I don’t make any profits from this work.
Chapter 5: Late at night
Naruto was nearly sleepwalking on the way to the kitchen. He was already dressed for school and was heading downstairs to get some breakfast. He would have traded anything for another hour of sleep. Ever since he started having insomnias and used the night to skinny dip rather than sleep, he had been a zombie at school, especially in the early classes. He yawned and stretched his back before sitting down in front of a streaming cup of coffee. He rubbed his eyes as he stuffed his mouth with cereals. He wasn’t even hungry, the lack of sleep was making him nauseous but he ate despite of this, because he didn’t want to invite unwanted questions regarding his lack of appetite. He was startled by the sudden appearance of the boy who hunted his every waking moment…and not only. Almost every night he would dream about Sasuke, every morning waking up sweaty and frustrated and the front of his boxers stained. He felt like he was going through hell, but he didn’t quite know what to do about it.
“Morning.” said the brunet as he sat down, bowl of cereals in front of him.
“Ihm…”, Naruto looked briefly at the other and then averted his gaze. Sometimes, after a particularly graphic erotic dream he couldn’t even look Sasuke in the eye, fearing he would be able to read his mind.
They ate in silence for a while, before Sasuke dragged in a loud breath as if preparing to say something important. Naruto looked at him expecting to hear what he had to say. However nothing came out of the pale lips. They just looked each other in the eye. Naruto thought Sasuke looked very weird. Something was up, but he couldn’t quite figure out what was wrong with the other boy. The brunet looked like he was about to say something important, but he just couldn’t bring himself to utter it. Also his stare was so intense so…inquisitive, yet Naruto couldn’t guess what he was thinking. The stare stretched over an entire minute and things were getting awkward when Naruto started losing his patience.
“What?!”
“Hm?”
“What’s wrong? Why are you staring at me like that?”
“Who’s starring, dobe?”
“YOU! You are staring! What do you want? Speak up!”
Naruto was a little harsher than he would have wanted, but this weirdness from Sasuke was the last thing he needed right now. It was enough that his whole life seemed to be about the other boy, now he didn’t need him to start acting like a weirdo.
“Calm yourself dobe…I got nothing to say.”
“Temeeee! Don’t tell me to calm down. You have been staring at me like a creep for half an hour. You obviously got something on your mind. What is it?”
“Hm,” Sasuke snorted while smirking and returning his eyes to his spoon. “Nothing, you are imagining things.”
Naruto sighed in defeat. Even though he knew Sasuke was lying he didn’t have the necessary energy to push the matter. He just wanted to finish his breakfast, go to school where he could possibly doze off for a few minutes during class, and just see and talk to other people that weren’t Sasuke. His infatuation with the brunet was starting to get to him and was tiring him out. Some days he felt like he didn’t have the strength to keep loving the other boy from afar hoping that maybe someday he would feel the same way about him. Today was one of those days when he felt defeated and hopeless.
The rest of the meal went on uneventful without any of the boys speaking. They were both lost deep in thought about each other, but neither voicing anything out.
*
Itachi was having his lunch break and as he usually did, he ate a sandwich alone in his office. As he took another bite he was thinking about how empty he felt. He started working for his dad’s company after he graduated from university, and he was not far from a management position. His father told him that in one or two years he would be ready to occupy such a function. Even though the plan was for Itachi to eventually become the CEO and heir of Uchiha Corporation, his father thought it was best if he first went through the proper steps that would allow him to gradually ascend on the company hierarchy. In this way, by the time he would become CEO he would know everything there was to know about the business and the people that were part of it.
Although he maybe should have been exhilarated at the career opportunity fate had presented to him the moment he was born an Uchiha, the young man could not feel any fouler. He felt like his whole life had been a string of duties he had to accomplish for his father, for his family, for the Uchiha name. He had never been able to make his own choices, to have his own preferences or opinion. He felt like he was put on this earth to please other people, and especially the great Uchiha Fugaku. In the back of his mind he knew that his father only wanted to offer him a brilliant future and an amazing life, however Itachi would have liked for his father to actually ask him for once what he wanted. Instead the old man had always presented him with what he thought his son wanted, without ever asking if this was the life he desired.
A part of the young man always felt guilty when he thought about this. The sense of responsibility and loyalty he felt towards his father always kicked in when thoughts like this occurred. He felt bad that he didn’t appreciate everything that was given to him, thinking of other people who would probably give anything to be in his stead. However, no matter how much he tried to like his life and be enthusiastic about his job, he always ended up feeling empty and dissatisfied. He hated his job, hated the Uchiha Company, hated being the first born, hated his car, and his house and his girlfriend and his friends. He just wanted to get away from it all. He felt like there was something boiling deep inside him, just screaming to get out, but he didn’t know what it was. It was like a desire to express himself, to yell and tell the world something…something…a truth, an ultimate truth. However, the young man was not sure what that truth was, he just knew it was there, residing inside his very core, patently waiting for its release. Unfortunately Itachi didn’t know how, when or where to release it. So he just waited for a sign from anywhere…something that would point him in the direction his life was supposed to take from the very beginning. But he kept waiting and waiting and nothing came. So for now he just went through the motions, hoping that one day he would find a way. He just got up every morning, got into his car, came to work where he usually stayed for about 10 - 11 hours. Then he went back to his house, ate, showered, fucked his girlfriend, whom he didn’t love, shower again and went to sleep. And the next day he would start again from the top. He didn’t love Yuki, his girlfriend. However they have been together since university and it was a comfortable routine between them. They didn’t have much in common and their conversations resumed to daily facts. But his father frequently pointed out that a man in a position of power needed to have a woman by his side. Fugaku seemed to like Yuki, so Itachi took that as a sign to continue the relationship with the girl. He hadn’t loved anyone since Konan. She was his girlfriend in high school. He had loved her with all his being and was ready to sacrifice anything for their happiness. He never felt more complete, more alive than when he was in her arms. However they weren’t able to be together for a very long time because life had taken Konan from him. She died in a drowning accident when he was 16. He was never the same again. He was never able to love another girl after her and his whole life became a sequence of days and events that brought him neither happiness nor fulfillment. The only thing that still shed some light over his life was his brother Sasuke.
However, lately Sasuke was another subject that worried the older brother. He had always noticed Sasuke’s desire to prove himself to their father and to gain his affection. He also found out quite recently that his younger brother would have actually liked to take over the Uchiha Company. Therefore, he was pained that he had to take away his brother’s ambition and dream, especially when he didn’t even want it. Also, another thing that troubled Itachi when thinking about his brother, was Sasuke’s love life. The boy told him a few years back that he preferred boys instead of girls, which had not come as a huge shock to Itachi. The problem however was that Sasuke still hadn’t told their parents about his preferences, and what was more, he never heard Sasuke mention any boyfriend. He was worried that his younger brother was heartbroken over some guy, and that he wasn’t happy. All he ever wanted was for Sasuke to be happy. It didn’t matter to him if the boy liked men or women or if he was good in school or not. He just wanted his kid brother to be happy and have the freedom he never had. That was why he was supportive when he found out about his brother’s sexual preferences, and he told himself he would also be supportive of whatever boy Sasuke would choose as long as that boy would make him happy.
*
It was night again and Sasuke stood at his window once more watching Naruto swim. This morning during breakfast he almost asked the blonde out. He came down to have breakfast where he already found the other boy. He remembered the decision he took the previous night about taking action concerning his relationship with Naruto, and he wanted to do something…he really did. As they were eating breakfast he just wanted to ask Naruto if he wanted to go out on a date with him. Just like that, bluntly, in his face. He got ready to speak the words, because in theory it seemed so simple. Just ask the guy out, no regrets, no remorse, no fear, just go for it. However, Sasuke couldn’t do it. He just…it was too difficult in real life compared with theory. So he just stood there with his breath drawn in without saying anything. Of course that got a pretty bad reaction from Naruto, who wanted to know what was happening. The brunet of course denied it, which caused the blonde to avoid him for the rest of the day.
And now it was night and it seemed that Naruto couldn’t sleep again, so he was out in the swimming pool. As Sasuke was watching him he decided that this time he was not going to think about it. He discovered that when he wanted to do something dangerous or risky it was better to just go ahead and do it without thinking about it too much. That is because, the longer he thought about it, the problem became more terrifying, which usually caused him to back down…as it happened this morning. As such, he told himself “you are going downstairs right now and talk to him. Don’t think about what you are going to say, just go with your gut.”
Sasuke approached the swimming pool, suddenly aware that he might startle Naruto. The boy was lost in his swimming and didn’t notice the brunet until he stopped after finishing a lap to catch his breath. He noticed Sasuke casually sitting on a sun chair next to the swimming pool.
“OH MY FUCKING GOD! Jesus, you bastard, you scared the living hell out of me!”
Sasuke simply snorted without making any move to get up or do anything.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Naruto asked still in shock and momentarily unaware of his nudity.
“I might ask you the same thing.” Sasuke replied leisurely.
“Wha-…I-…I asked first, teme.”
“I saw you swimming naked and I thought I’d come and see what you were up to.”
Naruto blushed furiously as he suddenly became very much aware that he was wearing nothing. Trying to hide his body, although impossibly, he replied,
“You saw me? H-how?”
“From my room, just up there,” Sasuke said pointing to his window. “I see you every night.”
“…”
Naruto was speechless. His mouth literally hung open as he couldn’t find any words in his daze. He couldn’t believe that all this time he had been swimming naked, thinking he had absolute privacy when in fact Sasuke has been spying on him every night.
“You watch me every night…” in all his stupor Naruto could only repeat what the other had said.
“Yep. What are you doing here swimming in the middle of the night anyway? And why are you naked?”
“Naked-” for the second time Naruto realized just how exposed he was. The shock provoked by him learning that Sasuke has been watching him this entire time somehow dulled his awkwardness of being naked. However, it was brought back now.
“I-I thought I was alone; I thought no one was watching so I saw no point in wearing a swim suit.”
Naruto’s answer was plausible enough and it seemed to satisfy the other boy, because instead of pressing the matter further he preferred to repeat his first question,
“But why are you here in the middle of the night?”
“I have trouble sleeping.”
“Hm…what could be keeping you awake at night…every night?”
“Well….I-, there is some stuff…” Naruto couldn’t hold the eye contact any further, lowering his gaze. He was still in the water, arms supporting him against the edge of the pool.
“Some stuff…”, Sasuke said as he got up from the chair and moved closer to the blushing figure in the swimming pool.
“Ihm…” was all Naruto could utter.
“Stuff like…what?” Sasuke was right next to the pool and he crouched down looking more closely at Naruto who was still avoiding eye contact.
“Well, you know…school and stuff…”
“Come on Naruto, I know you are dumb and suck in school, but that wouldn’t prevent you from sleeping…you have been like that your entire live, so why would the insomnias only start now?”
That remark definitely got Naruto’s attention as he turned around scowling at Sasuke. However Naruto didn’t have time to retort because the other boy continued,
“I think you have something else on your mind. I think something else is keeping you awake.”
“Yeah, like what?” Naruto asked, smug expression on his face.
“I think maybe you can’t sleep because you are thinking of me.”
Sasuke’s answer left the blonde in awe for a few seconds. He didn’t say anything, just starring at the brunet. After that he blushed horribly and moved to get out of the pool while trying to laugh, very awkwardly.
“Hahah, well, I-…huh man, you got some vivid imagination Sasuke. I mean, hah, why would thinking of you keep me up at night? Or why would I think about you in the first place?”
As Naruto was laughing, a touch of hysteria could be sensed in his voice. He wrapped a towel around his waist and faced Sasuke, trying his hardest to meet the brunet’s eyes.
“I dunno…the same reason you get hard at judo, almost every time when we are practicing together.” Sasuke simply said nonchalantly.
That made Naruto’s eyes widen as he felt terror seeping in his bones. Sasuke knew…he couldn’t believe Sasuke knew. And now, he thought, for sure he would be kicked out of the Uchiha house, or made fun of, or ridiculed. He had to deny it. It was the only thing he could think of.
“I-I really d-don’t know w-what you a-are talking about, S-Sasuke…”
“You don’t, huh?”
“N-no.”
Sasuke suspected Naruto wasn’t going to break, but he had to try. The brunet thought he would just have to proceed with his plan now that there was no way of coaxing Naruto to admit his feelings.
“That’s interesting…well I guess I’ve been wrong. I guess school work does make you feel the need to bathe naked under the moonlight.”
At that something snapped in Naruto’s head,
“Hey, why do you watch me swim every night, anyway?” indignation could be heard in Naruto’s voice.
“Hmmm…I dunno, I guess I like to.”
“Y-you like to watch me swim?”
“Ihm…” a small smiled appeared on the brunet’s face at the affirmation.
“But…but I’m naked…”
“Yeah, I know. I like seeing you naked.”
Saying that also stretched a wide smile on Sasuke’s face. Naruto however looked like he had been dropped on his head as a child. The expression on his face was that of a man’s who discovers that everything he ever knew was a lie, and has the epiphany of a lifetime. He stood frozen in his spot, not moving a muscle, just staring at the other boy. Naruto felt like, at the same time his mind was both blank, and running with the speed of light thinking about a million things. The silence between them stretched over long seconds. Finally Naruto spoke,
“Why?”
“Because,” Sasuke took a step closer, “I kinda,” he said taking another step, which brought him inches apart from Naruto, “like you.”
“You like me?”
“Yes.”
“But, how? Wh-”
Naruto couldn’t finish his question because he saw the dark grey eyes coming closer and closer and then he felt a warm breath ghosting over his lips. Even thought he had traveled this far, Sasuke stopped allowing Naruto to decide whether he wanted to take the final step, or walk away. The blonde took a few moments to react, but then he tentatively pressed his lips to pale pink ones. He had always somehow imagined Sasuke’s lips cold - maybe because of their pallor. He was pleasantly surprised that they weren’t cold even in the slightest. He felt Sasuke move his lips caressing his. Naruto also tried to keep up even though a wave of shame washed over him when he realized he was very inexperienced and he would probably give off a bad impression. Sasuke however, didn’t seem to think so as he pressed harder into the kiss. After only a few seconds, they pulled apart, faces still very close, looking at each other. They both waited for the other to speak or start kissing again.
“What about you, Naruto? Do you like me?”, while saying this Sasuke’s lips brushed against Naruto’s their breath mingling. His voice was a low seductive purr and Naruto felt his knees growing weak.
The blonde didn’t answer, instead pressing his lips against the other pair. This time the kiss was impatient, frantic. Sasuke licked the boy’s lips waiting for them to part, which they soon did, allowing the brunet’s tongue to explore the other’s hot mouth. They kissed like a couple of teenagers, which in essence, they actually were - wild, passionate, messy, sloppy, anxious. Then Sasuke pulled back again.
“Naruto, tell me. Do you like me?”
The blonde didn’t answer, choosing to resume the kiss. He was afraid to say anything, because he thought that if he did the spell would break and this magical occurrence which he had dreamed of for so long, would disappear. The kiss made him lightheaded and Sasuke’s smell and feel drove him wild. He tangled his hands in soft, jet black threads, pulling softly. The gesture earned him a groan from the other boy, while he felt long arms wrap around his waist. Naruto felt his blood boil and Sasuke’s groan only excited him further. Now their bodies were flush together and he did his best not to grind against Sasuke’s lean form. However, the brunet pulled back once more.
“Naruto, you have to tell me…say it…do you like me?” while saying this Sasuke moved one of his thighs between Naruto’s naked legs, rubbing it against the towel covered crotch.
“Ahh…” Naruto threw his head back and snapped his hips forward.
“Tell me…”
He moved his leg again extracting another moan from the blonde.
“Say it, Naruto!”
“YES! Yes, I fucking like you…I like you very, very much.” Naruto lost control over his voice and his body as he started humping the brunet’s leg.
“That’s all I wanted to hear.” Sasuke said with a shit-eating-grin of his face. He didn’t waste any more time and leaned in to capture the other’s lips.
Their kiss was hot and intense. All the while Naruto had one of his hands in Sasuke’s hair and the other around his neck. Sasuke’s hands were roaming all over the other’s naked, wet body, feeling everything, teasing nipples, caressing his back. They kissed and sucked each other’s tongues as if they were born for his moment. Naruto’s moves against Sasuke’s thigh became erratic. All the years of longing for the moment he would be able to do this left their mark on Naruto’s body. He felt his mind was clouded and all his restraints were out the window.
Sasuke noticed the other boy was slowly losing control and he knew what would come next. However, it didn’t bother him, because he realized that Naruto must have gone through the same hell and frustration as he had. He knew that denying your body what it wanted for so long, and then suddenly giving in, would probably be cause for an embarrassing moment. And he knew he was right, when he felt Naruto speed the movements of his hips and then freeze for a few seconds, his whole body tensing. Sasuke stood still, letting the other boy ride out his pleasure.
“Oh my god! I…I’m so sorry, Sasuke. Oh, dear lord!”
Naruto backed away, his face and neck red as fire. He couldn’t look the other boy in the eye. It had felt so good to be kissing and touching Sasuke like that. It had felt too good, and his poor unsatisfied body couldn’t handle the pleasure. Still, he couldn’t believe he just came. He was certain Sasuke would freak out. For sure, the brunet was going to think he was a creepy pervert and walk out with a disgusted look on his face. He couldn’t even lift his eyes to see his expression. He was too afraid of what he would find. He couldn’t believe the thing he craved for, for so long was going to end like this.
Sasuke stood at a small distance from the other boy, watching him freak out. He could read the shame and the panic on his face. God only knew what Naruto was thinking, but the expression he had was wearing looked terrified. The boy took a step and placed his hand on a trembling, bare shoulder.
“Naruto…hey, it’s ok. Look at me.” He lifted the blonde’s chin so that their eyes would meet. “It’s fine. It’s…understandable. Don’t be upset about it.”
Naruto’s eyes widened in surprise.
“You are not freaked out and disgusted by me?” he asked, not being able to believe Sasuke was still there.
“No, why would I be? Seeing you like that…was damn hot!”
That seemed to calm Naruto down, his face lighting up with a smile. Sasuke’s hand moved to his face and he leaned in for a short kiss. After they pulled apart Sasuke said,
“Come on, let’s get inside. You must be freezing.”
They walked side by side until they reached Naruto’s room. Stopping in front of the door they looked each other in the eye intensely.
“So, what does this mean?” Even thought he was terribly embarrassed about sounding like a girl, Naruto had to ask.
“I don’t know, dobe. What do you want it to mean?”
“I dunno…I liked it. I mean…I…”
“Yeah, me too. So I guess it means we should do it again and see what happens, right?”
“Hmm, I suppose so…” Naruto replied.
“Good night dumb-ass. See you in the morning.”
“’Night, teme.”
They smiled while stealing one last, quick kiss before Naruto entered his room and Sasuke walked towards his. Tomorrow was going to be interesting. They couldn’t wait for it.
*
5:00 AM
The cell phone that belonged to Uchiha Fugaku rang in the large bathroom, sounding much louder than it actually was. The black haired man was currently shaving when he looked at the caller ID on his phone before answering.
“Good morning, Uchiha-sama. I’m terribly sorry to disturb you at this hour. I hope I didn’t wake you up.”
“You didn’t. What’s the problem?”
“Dono, I have some very delicate news to say to you…I would rather not do it over the phone.”
“Well, I’m afraid you’ll have to because my schedule is packed for the day.”
“Dono…I…”
“Speak up now!”
“Uchiha-sama, it concerns Namikaze Minato and Uzumaki Kushina.”
There was a moment of silence and then,
“Very well, meet me in the office in half an hour.”
“Thank you, Uchiha-sama. Good bye.”
Ending note: Let me know what you think about the boys’ confessions and about adding a second plan to this story. Reviews are very much appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read.