This Shit is Outta Control (And I Don't Care What Is Happeneing?)
School's started, that's about the biggest thing that's happened of late I guess. O and James is gone til December. This isn't really meant to be an update post though, it's mainly to vent. I'm not upset now, I'm mostly sad at how all my friends have kind of dispersed and I don't really see as much of them as I'd like to. Like Katie, you gots your own new group of friends, and that's totally cool, I'm happy for you, I just wish we could all hang out more often. And Heather/Marc, which is pretty much the same person these days. Neither of them reads this, but I just wish they wouldn't leave us out of so many things. Even if it seems like we wouldn't be interested, it'd still be nice to have an invite. I just kinda feel like I could fall off the face of the earth and they wouldn't notice for a few weeks. And all these retarded arguements that happen, is it really that huge that my friend Courtney doesn't like Marc? I mean, she never sees him, why does he care and why did we have to get into a huge arguement about it? It's so stupid. I don't know, I think it's partially my fault cuz I kinda gave up on trying to call people and hang out and now I just don't because I get disappointed when people say no, as they seem to do so often. I feel like I really did try there for a while. I guess I'll go back to trying, but if it doesn't work out this time, I don't know what else to do to salvage the future of this friendship. I think they don't really see it this way though, like they don't realize how much it upsets me. It's not like I can really say anything though, cuz that will probably result in an arguement as well.