I've been staying up way too late lately...
☁ LJ: You suck. Just saying. FB seems to be having issues as well. The latter I don't care so much about, but LJ being down for two days is a giant pain in the ass. Grrr.
☁ My hands have been a bit dry the last week or so, which isn't normal for me. I think it's the heat, which finally broke, but it's been SO terribly hot here- pushing 100 (that's 37.8 for you celcius using folks). I know that's not that much for this time of year in some places, but in upstate NY, that's INSANELY HOT. The heat's supposed to come back later this week though, yaaaaaay. -_- At any rate, I grabbed a little tube of cocoa butter, so hopefully that will help. And hopefully I can ignore the fact that the smell of the stuff reminds me of a bad summer job I had right after high school. Whoops.
☁ I seem to have lost my keys. I have my spare set, so it's not like I'm locked out of anything, but it's still not good. When I came home from work yesterday I realized I didn't have them, but I can't find them at work, either. I hope I didn't drop them somewhere, but that's looking more and more likely. UGH. >_<
☁ For anybody that didn't hear, Borders is closing ALL of their stores now. I can't say that it's a surprise at this point, but it DOES suck. I mean... that's half the reason to go to the mall by me- and it's the only bookstore there. So much for my entertainment while Kelly spends ages in Victoria Secret. Boo. On that note, though, I should probably try to get over there tomorrow (*cough* later today *cough*) to see what they have left as far as clearance stuff... may be able to score some deals. If not, well, at least I tried. Might check out jewelry because I'm CONSTANTLY losing earrings or having them fall apart on me. There's also a new store that had some really cool looking dreamcatchers. The only potential problem there is. Um. Reaching them. Because I'm a midget.
☁ Had a song ping me, so I'm writing a little bit again. It sucks, but it's something. Also I finished making up the rest of the 101 in 1001 list that starts on the 30th. Hopefully this time I'll do more of the list. ^_^;;;
☁ On Monday, I had one of my regular customers that I haven't seen in a while go, "Wow, you look great!" I just blinked at her in surprise at first- I've gained a little weight, not lost any. I'm not doing anything different as far as my skin or hair or anything. Then she went "Amazing!" and that kind of kicked me into smile-and-say-thank-you mode. I'm not very good about that mode. It very rarely activates when it should. Usually I'm left either gaping like a moron or feeling embarrassed and brushing off the praise. So it's good that it went off this time. :D And hey, it's nice to hear things like that, even if they ARE embarrassing or outright not true. ^_^;
This in addition to the fact that both Kelly and Mary have said recently that I'm not fat (*glances at the scale, which disagrees STRONGLY*) makes me wonder if maybe there's more of a disconnect than I thought between what I see in the mirror and what everyone else sees. I think everyone has it to some degree or other, where your brain imagines things are fatter or scrawnier than they actually are. Trans people and anorexics/bulemics have it the worst, I'm sure, but people who have lost a significant amount of weight are probably a solid third. When I look in the mirror, I typically don't think, "Hey, I'm looking pretty good these days! :D". I see FAT. I see a few minor differences, but all in all, it's the same body that I had at the start. I see all of this extra weight that I still have to lose. I don't see how far I've come, only the miles and miles ahead. Which is kind of depressing, considering how much weight I still have to lose to be normal. (I'm still obese, despite losing about 50 pounds. The bathroom scale puts me at a roughly 36 BMI. So basically I need to lose another 50 pounds or gain 15 inches.) Still, though. I mean... when your (male) boss says to you, "You're just wasting away, aren't you?", you know you must look significantly different. I'm just not at a point where I can see it yet, I guess.
☁ Suikoden:
-Georg looks so much older than 41- but I guess considering some of the things he's been through, that's not much of a surprise if you think about it.
-Making scrolls doesn't seem to want to work no matter what I do. There's an open space in each of my character's random equipped items, there's spaces in my party items, there's space in the fucking storage place. I even tried taking a rune off of Flik's hand. It still says that "all hands are full." And yet again, my google-fu fails me. What the fuck?
-It's starting to piss me off how often they kick Tir out of my party. Really? Getting to Gregminster isn't terribly difficult, but it's ANNOYING AS ALL HELL and they insist on making me do it constantly. ARGH. I'm this close to just going "screw it" and not bothering putting him back in next time.
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This has been crossposted to my DW account. You are free to comment either here or there, if you'd like to comment. Preferably here, but it doesn't really matter. Whichever one works for you. :D
☁ My hands have been a bit dry the last week or so, which isn't normal for me. I think it's the heat, which finally broke, but it's been SO terribly hot here- pushing 100 (that's 37.8 for you celcius using folks). I know that's not that much for this time of year in some places, but in upstate NY, that's INSANELY HOT. The heat's supposed to come back later this week though, yaaaaaay. -_- At any rate, I grabbed a little tube of cocoa butter, so hopefully that will help. And hopefully I can ignore the fact that the smell of the stuff reminds me of a bad summer job I had right after high school. Whoops.
☁ I seem to have lost my keys. I have my spare set, so it's not like I'm locked out of anything, but it's still not good. When I came home from work yesterday I realized I didn't have them, but I can't find them at work, either. I hope I didn't drop them somewhere, but that's looking more and more likely. UGH. >_<
☁ For anybody that didn't hear, Borders is closing ALL of their stores now. I can't say that it's a surprise at this point, but it DOES suck. I mean... that's half the reason to go to the mall by me- and it's the only bookstore there. So much for my entertainment while Kelly spends ages in Victoria Secret. Boo. On that note, though, I should probably try to get over there tomorrow (*cough* later today *cough*) to see what they have left as far as clearance stuff... may be able to score some deals. If not, well, at least I tried. Might check out jewelry because I'm CONSTANTLY losing earrings or having them fall apart on me. There's also a new store that had some really cool looking dreamcatchers. The only potential problem there is. Um. Reaching them. Because I'm a midget.
☁ Had a song ping me, so I'm writing a little bit again. It sucks, but it's something. Also I finished making up the rest of the 101 in 1001 list that starts on the 30th. Hopefully this time I'll do more of the list. ^_^;;;
☁ On Monday, I had one of my regular customers that I haven't seen in a while go, "Wow, you look great!" I just blinked at her in surprise at first- I've gained a little weight, not lost any. I'm not doing anything different as far as my skin or hair or anything. Then she went "Amazing!" and that kind of kicked me into smile-and-say-thank-you mode. I'm not very good about that mode. It very rarely activates when it should. Usually I'm left either gaping like a moron or feeling embarrassed and brushing off the praise. So it's good that it went off this time. :D And hey, it's nice to hear things like that, even if they ARE embarrassing or outright not true. ^_^;
This in addition to the fact that both Kelly and Mary have said recently that I'm not fat (*glances at the scale, which disagrees STRONGLY*) makes me wonder if maybe there's more of a disconnect than I thought between what I see in the mirror and what everyone else sees. I think everyone has it to some degree or other, where your brain imagines things are fatter or scrawnier than they actually are. Trans people and anorexics/bulemics have it the worst, I'm sure, but people who have lost a significant amount of weight are probably a solid third. When I look in the mirror, I typically don't think, "Hey, I'm looking pretty good these days! :D". I see FAT. I see a few minor differences, but all in all, it's the same body that I had at the start. I see all of this extra weight that I still have to lose. I don't see how far I've come, only the miles and miles ahead. Which is kind of depressing, considering how much weight I still have to lose to be normal. (I'm still obese, despite losing about 50 pounds. The bathroom scale puts me at a roughly 36 BMI. So basically I need to lose another 50 pounds or gain 15 inches.) Still, though. I mean... when your (male) boss says to you, "You're just wasting away, aren't you?", you know you must look significantly different. I'm just not at a point where I can see it yet, I guess.
☁ Suikoden:
-Georg looks so much older than 41- but I guess considering some of the things he's been through, that's not much of a surprise if you think about it.
-Making scrolls doesn't seem to want to work no matter what I do. There's an open space in each of my character's random equipped items, there's spaces in my party items, there's space in the fucking storage place. I even tried taking a rune off of Flik's hand. It still says that "all hands are full." And yet again, my google-fu fails me. What the fuck?
-It's starting to piss me off how often they kick Tir out of my party. Really? Getting to Gregminster isn't terribly difficult, but it's ANNOYING AS ALL HELL and they insist on making me do it constantly. ARGH. I'm this close to just going "screw it" and not bothering putting him back in next time.
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This has been crossposted to my DW account. You are free to comment either here or there, if you'd like to comment. Preferably here, but it doesn't really matter. Whichever one works for you. :D