[ shot ] nothing to prove
nothing to prove - dee - dbdbyeah
eunhyuk / junsu / yoochun, onesided!hyuksu - angst... just a bit - PG - 610 words a/n: the product of watching too much EHB. lol
original post: 01.08.08
(Yoochun got the ball first.)
We've been best friends forever, we've been through so much, and we’ve held each other longer in each other's hearts. So why did it have to be like this? Was it really that difficult for you to love me? Some days I wished we never grew this close. It made me think that maybe if you didn't know me so well, you'd have taken me seriously.
Because even if I already spent my life giving you my all... Meeting him was all it took for you to give him yours.
(Then Eunhyuk got hit.)
It used to kill me to be away from you. That day, when you were sent to pursue your dreams first, I wanted to die. I felt like a huge part of my life was being taken away from me and I wanted to rebel. If it wasn't for your sweet words of I'll come back for you and I’ll be rooting for you and I love you, I wouldn't have been able to keep at it alone.
That's how I felt without you, you know that?
But then Yoosu happened.
The closeness and the silliness, I knew it wasn't all fan service. I knew there was something more behind all the smiles and the laughs you two shared. I was envious for a while because I thought he was taking my spot. I was so angry because I thought I saw us in the two of you. But I was wrong.
He was different.
(And Eunhyuk kept losing his grip.)
I tried, I did. I wanted to show him that we had something better. I wanted to rub it in his face - I was your best friend, I knew you first, I knew you better, and I had you. I kept flaunting it, not even trying to be shy about how much I loved you and appreciated all that we've been through before all the fame.
I wanted to show Yoochun that I had a better hold of you than he ever could.
But I failed.
I only found out that I didn't, after all.
(And Junsu laughed.)
I told you I loved you, and you just laughed. I know… was all I got from you that day. Along with a normal hug - that came with a normal tap on the shoulder, a normal I love you too with a painful you're my best friend - followed by a normal kiss on the cheek, and ending with a normal goodbye as you went on your way back to his side.
(And Yoochun laughed.)
That happiness was supposed to be mine.
(And Yoochun won.)
...
-
I went back to my place in line, playfully shrugging my shoulders with a grin still plastered on my face. I didn't care if my cheeks felt stiff enough to be broken. I just wanted everything to get done without people noticing just how pissed off I was for making myself look like an absolute fool.
You probably think I'm stupid.
Just then, I felt a hand on my shoulder, gently calling me to attention. When I looked up, I was met with a set of sparkling hazel eyes that I knew all too well. "Su..."
"You'll catch the ball next time." You said with a smile (- that happy smile of yours,) before lovingly smoothing your hand over the surface of my back, and leaving my side just as fast as you came.
Will I really? Will I really get the chance to have you too, Su?
I thought, as I tried to make the feel of your fingertips linger longer on my aching heart.
eunhyuk / junsu / yoochun, onesided!hyuksu - angst... just a bit - PG - 610 words a/n: the product of watching too much EHB. lol
original post: 01.08.08
(Yoochun got the ball first.)
We've been best friends forever, we've been through so much, and we’ve held each other longer in each other's hearts. So why did it have to be like this? Was it really that difficult for you to love me? Some days I wished we never grew this close. It made me think that maybe if you didn't know me so well, you'd have taken me seriously.
Because even if I already spent my life giving you my all... Meeting him was all it took for you to give him yours.
(Then Eunhyuk got hit.)
It used to kill me to be away from you. That day, when you were sent to pursue your dreams first, I wanted to die. I felt like a huge part of my life was being taken away from me and I wanted to rebel. If it wasn't for your sweet words of I'll come back for you and I’ll be rooting for you and I love you, I wouldn't have been able to keep at it alone.
That's how I felt without you, you know that?
But then Yoosu happened.
The closeness and the silliness, I knew it wasn't all fan service. I knew there was something more behind all the smiles and the laughs you two shared. I was envious for a while because I thought he was taking my spot. I was so angry because I thought I saw us in the two of you. But I was wrong.
He was different.
(And Eunhyuk kept losing his grip.)
I tried, I did. I wanted to show him that we had something better. I wanted to rub it in his face - I was your best friend, I knew you first, I knew you better, and I had you. I kept flaunting it, not even trying to be shy about how much I loved you and appreciated all that we've been through before all the fame.
I wanted to show Yoochun that I had a better hold of you than he ever could.
But I failed.
I only found out that I didn't, after all.
(And Junsu laughed.)
I told you I loved you, and you just laughed. I know… was all I got from you that day. Along with a normal hug - that came with a normal tap on the shoulder, a normal I love you too with a painful you're my best friend - followed by a normal kiss on the cheek, and ending with a normal goodbye as you went on your way back to his side.
(And Yoochun laughed.)
That happiness was supposed to be mine.
(And Yoochun won.)
...
-
I went back to my place in line, playfully shrugging my shoulders with a grin still plastered on my face. I didn't care if my cheeks felt stiff enough to be broken. I just wanted everything to get done without people noticing just how pissed off I was for making myself look like an absolute fool.
You probably think I'm stupid.
Just then, I felt a hand on my shoulder, gently calling me to attention. When I looked up, I was met with a set of sparkling hazel eyes that I knew all too well. "Su..."
"You'll catch the ball next time." You said with a smile (- that happy smile of yours,) before lovingly smoothing your hand over the surface of my back, and leaving my side just as fast as you came.
Will I really? Will I really get the chance to have you too, Su?
I thought, as I tried to make the feel of your fingertips linger longer on my aching heart.