Dec 13, 2004 14:16
I've been thinking often lately of the gastric bypass (laproscopic RNY) surgery I hope to have in the near future. I got a referral from my doctor to the Bariatric Surgery section of Johns Hopkins, but like always Johns Hopkins is a wench to deal with. If they weren't consistently voted the best hospital on earth, I wouldn't deal with them (the fact that they are the "best" scares me as they truly aren't that fabulous). A few things worry me:
I don't eat that many sources of protein, you need to eat lots of protein after the surgery for life. I don't eat eggs, poultry, fish or meat. I eat soy products, dairy, the occasional shrimp or crab, legumes and I can learn to cook with tofu I suppose. Dairy can be a problem after RNY and that will probably be the hardest thing for me to give up (along with Coke and Chocolate which I eat like twice a day).
I worry what I will replace food with, it will have to be something and hopefully it will end up being something productive like art, exercise or great sex as opposed to heroin or the Home Shopping Network.
I don't want to explain to people I barely know for the rest of my life about the surgery, I guess I could just say I wasn't very hungry and am diabetic to solve most of that.
Life without sugar (brings a whole new meaning to Like Water for Chocolate, which is a movie I need to see again soon.)
I'm worried I could be passing the most horrible gas known to man on a regular basis, being healthy sized but stinky doesn't seem much fun. I have this mental image of sitting in class by myself with the rest of the lecture sized class huddled together in desks on the opposite side of the room. In reality it would probably be triggered by certain foods which I can learn to avoid and I need to stop fixating.
I'm not overly concerned about dying mid surgery, but catching an infection while I stay at the hospital for a few days freaks me out. My grandfather died from the infections he caught during his hospital stay recently. I have no control over that, and my immune system is young and strong so I guess I shouldn't be TOO worried.
I still think it's the only chance I have for my morbid obesity not to kill me, but I don't expect it to be a walk in the park.