Of mop buckets and whinging
Is everyone getting more hacking attempts on thier computers lately or is it just me? I had two blocked just TODAY. I'm going shopping with my grandparents and my cousin Michele first thing in the morning. I need to buy a few hoodies, some new t-shirts, a robe, sneakers, slippers and casual stuff that can double as pajamas. We're going to Target, I just love it there. I put on weight again, I hope my grandmother doesn't give me the speech again.
Honestly, the thought of being thin scares me on some level. I am quite accumstomed to people (read=strangers) ignoring my presence utterly and I just don't know what I would do if I was a more normal weight. I know that I use it as a crutch excuse for many things in my life. But my knees are hurting like hell so I guess it's time to stop gorging myself. Heh, I just can't see it happening though. Maybe my doctor is right and I should get a gastric bypass to start getting the weight off and keep me from binging since my food addiction is hella bad (seriously, I was kind of hooked on prescription speed for a bit but my inner food junkie is so much worse).
I have to go clean the house some more, I've been doing that all day. I just mopped the floor with clothes detergent, which seems weird to me but that was what my mom told me to do. She bought one of those huge bright yellow mop bucket/mop squeezer things that you see oh, idustiral janitors using. She never does anything halfway, I'll give her that; but I feel like an ass using this thing in my little rowhouse kitchen.
Honestly, the thought of being thin scares me on some level. I am quite accumstomed to people (read=strangers) ignoring my presence utterly and I just don't know what I would do if I was a more normal weight. I know that I use it as a crutch excuse for many things in my life. But my knees are hurting like hell so I guess it's time to stop gorging myself. Heh, I just can't see it happening though. Maybe my doctor is right and I should get a gastric bypass to start getting the weight off and keep me from binging since my food addiction is hella bad (seriously, I was kind of hooked on prescription speed for a bit but my inner food junkie is so much worse).
I have to go clean the house some more, I've been doing that all day. I just mopped the floor with clothes detergent, which seems weird to me but that was what my mom told me to do. She bought one of those huge bright yellow mop bucket/mop squeezer things that you see oh, idustiral janitors using. She never does anything halfway, I'll give her that; but I feel like an ass using this thing in my little rowhouse kitchen.