And if I need a rhythm, itll be my heart I listen, If I don't get me too far wrong...
Could a body close the mind out
Stitch a seam across the eye?
If you can be good, you'll live forever
If you're bad, you'll die when you die...
I hate only updating this thing like once every 2 months. But I suppose its better because I avoid a lot of emotionally charged angry entries and super excited and naive ones. And I realize the whole point of writing day by day is to capture what you're feeling at that very moment, but at the same time I'm starting to hate it because I'm ambivalent and over analytical and indecisive and tired.
I guess my major lesson I've learned is to not stray so far from the things I really love. I started hanging out with people and doing things I don't usually do because I thought I would find something that I was missing in it. And even though there were people telling me the opposite, it's one of those things you have to do and fall on your ass and pay for it before you're like "K you're right." And if you're smart you won't do it again. And if you're not you'll be like me.
I guess I'm at a good place right now. Everything is in balance, Halloween is coming up, I'm doing better in Geology than I expected, and I think I'm changing my long term career plans. But everytime I stray away from Special ED I always wind up going back to it. I don't know if it's really because it's my passion or if I'm just too scared to pursue something else. I guess we'll see.
I've had some crazy weird dreams lately. About my family, about things catching on fire and old flames. It puts me in such a weird mood when I wake up.
But I made pumpkin cookies this morning, and that automatically wrecks the shit of any negative crap that'll come my way this weekend.
See Exhibit A:
One of these things, is not like the other!
He's me and Ben's Leatherface pumpkin. :D
That's really it. Since my birthday I've started school, been through crazy ups and downs with people, lost some stuff, got some stuff and things are fine again. Weeeeeeeeeird.
But um, I'm going to unhinge my jaw like a python and stuff my face full of delicious pseudo-italian food.
Hearing only one true note
On the one and only sound
Unzip my body
Take my heart out
'Cause I need a beat to give this tune.
You have a great day now!
Stitch a seam across the eye?
If you can be good, you'll live forever
If you're bad, you'll die when you die...
I hate only updating this thing like once every 2 months. But I suppose its better because I avoid a lot of emotionally charged angry entries and super excited and naive ones. And I realize the whole point of writing day by day is to capture what you're feeling at that very moment, but at the same time I'm starting to hate it because I'm ambivalent and over analytical and indecisive and tired.
I guess my major lesson I've learned is to not stray so far from the things I really love. I started hanging out with people and doing things I don't usually do because I thought I would find something that I was missing in it. And even though there were people telling me the opposite, it's one of those things you have to do and fall on your ass and pay for it before you're like "K you're right." And if you're smart you won't do it again. And if you're not you'll be like me.
I guess I'm at a good place right now. Everything is in balance, Halloween is coming up, I'm doing better in Geology than I expected, and I think I'm changing my long term career plans. But everytime I stray away from Special ED I always wind up going back to it. I don't know if it's really because it's my passion or if I'm just too scared to pursue something else. I guess we'll see.
I've had some crazy weird dreams lately. About my family, about things catching on fire and old flames. It puts me in such a weird mood when I wake up.
But I made pumpkin cookies this morning, and that automatically wrecks the shit of any negative crap that'll come my way this weekend.
See Exhibit A:
One of these things, is not like the other!
He's me and Ben's Leatherface pumpkin. :D
That's really it. Since my birthday I've started school, been through crazy ups and downs with people, lost some stuff, got some stuff and things are fine again. Weeeeeeeeeird.
But um, I'm going to unhinge my jaw like a python and stuff my face full of delicious pseudo-italian food.
Hearing only one true note
On the one and only sound
Unzip my body
Take my heart out
'Cause I need a beat to give this tune.
You have a great day now!