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I wanted to call him today...but I knew I couldn't...if he wanted to talk to me he'd phone me.
It's stupid, but the relationship caused a lot of me to revert into my Lethbridge state. How is that possible? I don't know. I think Andrew reminds me a lot how I used to be. I see a lot of potential in him to be the relationship that was Patrick and I...we were best friends before we started dating it was the best relationship I had ever been in. But I'm not sure...I don't trust him to have the strength that Patrick had. Actually my trust in him is shot...the way he let me walk away...it hurt it really fucking hurt....because I believed so strongly that he meant what he said when he said he wouldn't let me go. I really did trust Andrew. What's worse is that I really was falling in love with him.
If he ever wants me back it's going to take a fuck of a lot of effort. I let him get me too easily last time and I knew it. Well I got asked on a date for Friday, but I really don't want to go.
I'm puking still every fucking morning...I hate it....*sighs* I wish he'd call me...
It's stupid, but the relationship caused a lot of me to revert into my Lethbridge state. How is that possible? I don't know. I think Andrew reminds me a lot how I used to be. I see a lot of potential in him to be the relationship that was Patrick and I...we were best friends before we started dating it was the best relationship I had ever been in. But I'm not sure...I don't trust him to have the strength that Patrick had. Actually my trust in him is shot...the way he let me walk away...it hurt it really fucking hurt....because I believed so strongly that he meant what he said when he said he wouldn't let me go. I really did trust Andrew. What's worse is that I really was falling in love with him.
If he ever wants me back it's going to take a fuck of a lot of effort. I let him get me too easily last time and I knew it. Well I got asked on a date for Friday, but I really don't want to go.
I'm puking still every fucking morning...I hate it....*sighs* I wish he'd call me...