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This morning I did the traditional "walk of shame" from a strange house. Actually it wasn't a "walk of shame" because I didn't cheat on Andrew, I was so fucking proud of myself for it. Someone really betrayed me last night..especially when I said to them, "if this is a hook-up party then I'm just going home because, I already have someone and I'm not about to cheat on them" and they assured me it wasn't so I went to their friends place....five minutes in she disappears into a room with this guy and doesn't come back. Here I am stuck in this strange house with people I don't know and I have never felt so angry and betrayed...I knew this friend only wanted me there as a back-up ride home in case things didn't work out with the boy she hooked up with. Ya "just friends" my fucking ass! Everyone there told me what a shitty thing they thought she had done to me especially since my last words before getting into the cab onto the way to the party were, "I'm taking a fucking leap of faith for you, don't let me down". I always give her all these chances...and just as it seems that things have changed...she does this to me. I know she probably didn't mean to do what she did...wait no I'm doing it again...she has to learn. I'm fucking disgusted with her right now...I couldn't even bring myself to talk to her the next morning so I just left...just like that...I put on my coat and walked outside with out knowing where I was. By pure miracle I figured out where I was and managed to make me way home.