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hehe i'm in web mastering. bobby's gay and allen's a retard! just thought i'd let you guys know. pretty bored, nothing to do.
prom is tomorrow. i'm excited, but then again i'm not. because once again i have fucked up. i seem to like to fuck up friendships, not intentionally of course, but i still manage to do it. it's kind of like we broke up almost. and i wish that we hadn't. i hope one day she can forgive me because i love her and she's my best friend. but under the circumstance i felt that was the best choice. there is a lot more to it than what anyone knows, including her. so we just need to have a heart-to-heart and duke it out. we were both wrong and i understand that. i still want to be her friend and i hope that she wants to be mine. because i don't know what i'm going to do without her. she's always been there for me and things just won't be the same. maybe if we get through this it'll make us stronger, but with how much she hates me right now, i don't think she'll allow herself to forgive me. i just don't want it to start any bullshit. soooo i'll keep my mouth shut about it and i'll hope that she does the same because i don't need anyone else hating me. it's bad enough as it is...
hopefully i can still have a good time tomorrow, but i know it's constantly going to be in the back of my head. blugh.
prom is tomorrow. i'm excited, but then again i'm not. because once again i have fucked up. i seem to like to fuck up friendships, not intentionally of course, but i still manage to do it. it's kind of like we broke up almost. and i wish that we hadn't. i hope one day she can forgive me because i love her and she's my best friend. but under the circumstance i felt that was the best choice. there is a lot more to it than what anyone knows, including her. so we just need to have a heart-to-heart and duke it out. we were both wrong and i understand that. i still want to be her friend and i hope that she wants to be mine. because i don't know what i'm going to do without her. she's always been there for me and things just won't be the same. maybe if we get through this it'll make us stronger, but with how much she hates me right now, i don't think she'll allow herself to forgive me. i just don't want it to start any bullshit. soooo i'll keep my mouth shut about it and i'll hope that she does the same because i don't need anyone else hating me. it's bad enough as it is...
hopefully i can still have a good time tomorrow, but i know it's constantly going to be in the back of my head. blugh.