Sitting Still Talking About Jets....
So... things seemed to be getting worse until today. I think the stress is finally starting to dwindle. At least I hope so. I've gotten a lot done today, and hopefully tomorrow I will get more done. I thought I was gonna go crazy yesterday. I hate worrying about all this stuff....school, a place to live, money.... And it seems like it's all come up at once. I don't feel like I'm enjoying the summer like I should. It hasn't really felt like summer. Maybe July will be better. Traveling, working, and hopefully a lot less stress.
Shannon left yesterday. Sad stuff. I always thought that the scene in movies where the train drives away and everyone is upset....well, I thought it was just cheesy Hollywood stuff until yesterday. It really is a somber moment. Those guys are pretty right on with that scene. And I think maybe the worst part about Shannon leaving is that he's leaving Wendy. They are such a great couple. Perfect for each other. What a sad way to end things. And man, do I know what she's going through. But I really think they'll end up back together. Shannon actually called her like half an hour after he left. (He was in Jeffersonville by then.) And he was crying his poor little eyes out. I give him a week to realize what he's missing out on with her. In the meantime, she's doing really well, but I don't think it's hit her yet. I think it's kinda a group goal to keep her busy.
And I've put a lot more thought into going to Burning Man. The closer it gets and the more I hear about it the more compelled I feel to go. And then Steve was totally encouraging me the other night. So, I don't know. I want to go, but I don't know if it's a good ides. Then again, I don't know if I would really regret not going. I'm still trying to figure out what I really want to do. And if Steve took the bus!! How much fun would that be? Oh temptation!!!
Everyone else is doing really well, but I think they are all dealing with some stress of their own. Lauren and Nick are hanging out a lot. I got to talk to him for awhile last night at Jerry's. He's an amazing kid. I had so much fun with him. I really hope something blossoms between those two. I think it would be a really good situation. There are very few guys that I think are good enough for my Lauren. And Nick is a total rock star.
Peter is still nonexistent. I tried calling him yesterday. The first time since he's been back. Of course, he didn't answer or call back. I didn't really expect him too. But it would be nice to talk to him. See what the hell is going on in that head of his. I know it always helps me to talk to the person I have a problem with. I hope he's not just being stubborn about this. But I do think he's avoiding his problems instead of dealing with them. Which is really bad for him. Alcohol and seclusion are not the best methods of dealing with things. But I guess we all do it our own way. Maybe this is his way. I just hope he's getting better. Feeling better.
That's about all on my mind right now......
Shannon left yesterday. Sad stuff. I always thought that the scene in movies where the train drives away and everyone is upset....well, I thought it was just cheesy Hollywood stuff until yesterday. It really is a somber moment. Those guys are pretty right on with that scene. And I think maybe the worst part about Shannon leaving is that he's leaving Wendy. They are such a great couple. Perfect for each other. What a sad way to end things. And man, do I know what she's going through. But I really think they'll end up back together. Shannon actually called her like half an hour after he left. (He was in Jeffersonville by then.) And he was crying his poor little eyes out. I give him a week to realize what he's missing out on with her. In the meantime, she's doing really well, but I don't think it's hit her yet. I think it's kinda a group goal to keep her busy.
And I've put a lot more thought into going to Burning Man. The closer it gets and the more I hear about it the more compelled I feel to go. And then Steve was totally encouraging me the other night. So, I don't know. I want to go, but I don't know if it's a good ides. Then again, I don't know if I would really regret not going. I'm still trying to figure out what I really want to do. And if Steve took the bus!! How much fun would that be? Oh temptation!!!
Everyone else is doing really well, but I think they are all dealing with some stress of their own. Lauren and Nick are hanging out a lot. I got to talk to him for awhile last night at Jerry's. He's an amazing kid. I had so much fun with him. I really hope something blossoms between those two. I think it would be a really good situation. There are very few guys that I think are good enough for my Lauren. And Nick is a total rock star.
Peter is still nonexistent. I tried calling him yesterday. The first time since he's been back. Of course, he didn't answer or call back. I didn't really expect him too. But it would be nice to talk to him. See what the hell is going on in that head of his. I know it always helps me to talk to the person I have a problem with. I hope he's not just being stubborn about this. But I do think he's avoiding his problems instead of dealing with them. Which is really bad for him. Alcohol and seclusion are not the best methods of dealing with things. But I guess we all do it our own way. Maybe this is his way. I just hope he's getting better. Feeling better.
That's about all on my mind right now......