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It's fine. I can't expect it to be easy. It never has been. I'm not that type of girl.
I don't do romance and relationships and promises. I can't commit my life or even much of my time to someone. I just love myself and I can't love a man as much as I love me. Sorry but that's the truth.
I always used to try to picture my wedding day because we're raised to think that's what we're supposed to want. Honestly. I'm not that girl. I don't WANT to be a bride. I don't want to be a wife. I want to be me, Jenn. Joseph's mom. I'm free and my time is mine and I can do whatever the hell I want with it. Why would I give that up? Even if I COULD ever find a man that I would have a sane, normal NON dysfunctional relationship with I wouldn't ruin it by marrying him! That's just me. I'm not that type of girl.
Shit is over with K. No more. He was at a party I went to Sunday and I barely even spoke to him. When he first got there he wrapped his arms around me and said hi. I didn't even move. Not even a half a hug for him. He got nothing and he got the fucking hint. K isn't a stupid man. Just insensitive.
I'm too fucking good for him anyway. Honestly if a man could have someone who genuinely CARES about what's best for him and doesn't try to get him to do heroin but he passes on it because he wants to sleep with every loud, obnoxious drunk chick at the bar then that is NOT my issue and I certainly shouldn't lose sleep over it. So I won't anymore. I'm not that girl.
I know what I'm worth and it's a hell of a lot more than I've been getting...but I'm still free and nobody is gonna chain me down and tell me what to do. I still have my spirit and it's beautiful.
I don't do romance and relationships and promises. I can't commit my life or even much of my time to someone. I just love myself and I can't love a man as much as I love me. Sorry but that's the truth.
I always used to try to picture my wedding day because we're raised to think that's what we're supposed to want. Honestly. I'm not that girl. I don't WANT to be a bride. I don't want to be a wife. I want to be me, Jenn. Joseph's mom. I'm free and my time is mine and I can do whatever the hell I want with it. Why would I give that up? Even if I COULD ever find a man that I would have a sane, normal NON dysfunctional relationship with I wouldn't ruin it by marrying him! That's just me. I'm not that type of girl.
Shit is over with K. No more. He was at a party I went to Sunday and I barely even spoke to him. When he first got there he wrapped his arms around me and said hi. I didn't even move. Not even a half a hug for him. He got nothing and he got the fucking hint. K isn't a stupid man. Just insensitive.
I'm too fucking good for him anyway. Honestly if a man could have someone who genuinely CARES about what's best for him and doesn't try to get him to do heroin but he passes on it because he wants to sleep with every loud, obnoxious drunk chick at the bar then that is NOT my issue and I certainly shouldn't lose sleep over it. So I won't anymore. I'm not that girl.
I know what I'm worth and it's a hell of a lot more than I've been getting...but I'm still free and nobody is gonna chain me down and tell me what to do. I still have my spirit and it's beautiful.