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I think the most important thing is he comes when I call.
He calls me at 1-2 in the morning and I don't answer.
But when I want him I will answer.
He put me through enough bullshit over the past 8 years that I think I deserve to be in the driver's seat for a while.
I have no problem making him happy....but it'll be on my terms and if he doesn't satisfy me I'm not going to fake it and I'm not going to let it slide anymore.
No more onesided bullshit. I don't have the time or energy for emotions to get the best of me
but I'm not able to seperate sex and love yet either. So we'll see what happens.
Like I said before though at least now I KNOW what's going on and if I get attatched I have nobody to blame but myself.
(but I won't get attatched because I'm still resentful and sort of repulsed by him. I guess you have something with someone for as many years as K and I have had and it all just sort of falls into a rythm. Like a habit. Christ I know people who haven't even been married for as long as K and I have been tied...how do you sever that?)
He calls me at 1-2 in the morning and I don't answer.
But when I want him I will answer.
He put me through enough bullshit over the past 8 years that I think I deserve to be in the driver's seat for a while.
I have no problem making him happy....but it'll be on my terms and if he doesn't satisfy me I'm not going to fake it and I'm not going to let it slide anymore.
No more onesided bullshit. I don't have the time or energy for emotions to get the best of me
but I'm not able to seperate sex and love yet either. So we'll see what happens.
Like I said before though at least now I KNOW what's going on and if I get attatched I have nobody to blame but myself.
(but I won't get attatched because I'm still resentful and sort of repulsed by him. I guess you have something with someone for as many years as K and I have had and it all just sort of falls into a rythm. Like a habit. Christ I know people who haven't even been married for as long as K and I have been tied...how do you sever that?)