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Well my first few days home have been quite interesting.
Got back just in time to go down and watch my sister walk in to prom.
She made the entire dress, tux, purse, and shoes from around 30 rolls of duct tape.
I guess there is a scholarship that she is eligible for, $2500 each and the school gets some money too...
I think it looks really great. She designed the dress herself... and it only cost about $100 for everything. Cheaper than the real deal.
The thing is... she doesn't like being anyone's girlfriend. I dont know what her issues are... but i hung out with her tonight... and she is the biggest player...
She went to prom with this kid Austin, nice boy... who has been stalking her (sort of) since like 8th grade. So tonight...he gets pissed off cuz she is "flirting" with his hockey friends. They all hang out all the time...and i guess she considers herself one of the guys.
So we go to Charlies house after...and she ends up cuddling with him.
But the kicker is... she still openenly fawns over her ex, Kurt... and longingly looks at his house every time we drive by.
She doesnt realize (or maybe she does) that every single guy is continuously flirting with her, and trying to push the limits of what they can get away with. Example.... picking her up over their shoulders and slapping her ass... or saying she is really hot because she is wearing goalie pads... or whatever. Thing is... she pretends not to notice that it is flirting. She knows her limits...and will just brush them off if they start to get too close for her comfort. She could kick all of thier asses at once...and they all know it, so they dont ever try anything.
She really has the entire school whipped... it kinda pisses me off cuz i know she is breaking their hearts.
Ok, enough of that. I went for a cruise with my brother in the dune buggy today...and we stopped off and playing in the woods in a stream for a bit...and took pictures of funny stuff we saw... made a dam and had a great time. It was real fun.
Almost made me forget that i turn 21 tommorow (or today now i guess)... and the entire redneck townie population of people i graduated with who just stick around and drink all the time is gonna want to take me out. Not because they are happy its my birthday... but because its an excuse for them to get entirely shitfaced.
My mom keeps talking to me like "what are you gonna do when they come around, because they are gonna realize you turn 21. What is going to be your excuse?"
Like I should run and hide because the Nazi's are coming...
I dont really feel like going out... but i dont think i should be ashamed to either. Just because my dad is turning into a lazy alcoholic...
ah...fuggit. im not getting into that.
I really miss jess already... its only been two days. She is seriously the first of anyone i have been with who i believe truly cares about me...
She is not anything that i have ever looked for...which is the best thing that could have happened to me. Every time i went after my "usual type"... they were entirely selfish, clingy, screwed up in the head, and the ended up using me.
Jess is so genuine though...She is so amazing... it makes me want to give her the world... she is exactly what i need.
I only hope that I can be what she has always wanted, and that I can return every one of the favors that she has done for me.
I love you.
Ok... its like 6 in the morning...and i have a ton of stuff to do today... so i should get some sleep.
I will update to tell you how running from the rednecks goes...
Got back just in time to go down and watch my sister walk in to prom.
She made the entire dress, tux, purse, and shoes from around 30 rolls of duct tape.
I guess there is a scholarship that she is eligible for, $2500 each and the school gets some money too...
I think it looks really great. She designed the dress herself... and it only cost about $100 for everything. Cheaper than the real deal.
The thing is... she doesn't like being anyone's girlfriend. I dont know what her issues are... but i hung out with her tonight... and she is the biggest player...
She went to prom with this kid Austin, nice boy... who has been stalking her (sort of) since like 8th grade. So tonight...he gets pissed off cuz she is "flirting" with his hockey friends. They all hang out all the time...and i guess she considers herself one of the guys.
So we go to Charlies house after...and she ends up cuddling with him.
But the kicker is... she still openenly fawns over her ex, Kurt... and longingly looks at his house every time we drive by.
She doesnt realize (or maybe she does) that every single guy is continuously flirting with her, and trying to push the limits of what they can get away with. Example.... picking her up over their shoulders and slapping her ass... or saying she is really hot because she is wearing goalie pads... or whatever. Thing is... she pretends not to notice that it is flirting. She knows her limits...and will just brush them off if they start to get too close for her comfort. She could kick all of thier asses at once...and they all know it, so they dont ever try anything.
She really has the entire school whipped... it kinda pisses me off cuz i know she is breaking their hearts.
Ok, enough of that. I went for a cruise with my brother in the dune buggy today...and we stopped off and playing in the woods in a stream for a bit...and took pictures of funny stuff we saw... made a dam and had a great time. It was real fun.
Almost made me forget that i turn 21 tommorow (or today now i guess)... and the entire redneck townie population of people i graduated with who just stick around and drink all the time is gonna want to take me out. Not because they are happy its my birthday... but because its an excuse for them to get entirely shitfaced.
My mom keeps talking to me like "what are you gonna do when they come around, because they are gonna realize you turn 21. What is going to be your excuse?"
Like I should run and hide because the Nazi's are coming...
I dont really feel like going out... but i dont think i should be ashamed to either. Just because my dad is turning into a lazy alcoholic...
ah...fuggit. im not getting into that.
I really miss jess already... its only been two days. She is seriously the first of anyone i have been with who i believe truly cares about me...
She is not anything that i have ever looked for...which is the best thing that could have happened to me. Every time i went after my "usual type"... they were entirely selfish, clingy, screwed up in the head, and the ended up using me.
Jess is so genuine though...She is so amazing... it makes me want to give her the world... she is exactly what i need.
I only hope that I can be what she has always wanted, and that I can return every one of the favors that she has done for me.
I love you.
Ok... its like 6 in the morning...and i have a ton of stuff to do today... so i should get some sleep.
I will update to tell you how running from the rednecks goes...