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haha
i just got off the phone with my mom and i was making sure i could go
up to mels tonite, and shes like well what time do u think ur gunna go.
and im like well i think im gunna go up with dev, and she has to have a
family dinner first, so probably around 8:30 or something. and then
shes like O, we should have a dinner too! then we both just started
laughing. yeah right. :D but on a sadder note, my grandma on my dads
side called me earlier, she was scared, she was calling to make sure
that billy wasnt on that plane that crashed in europe somewhere. i
could tell that she was about to cry, i hate that we are all still
scared all the time, worrying constantly. i mean, hell it was hard to
have my dad die, but mothers arnt suposed to lose their children. the
children are suposed to bury their parents, not the other way around.
that much have been so hard to have happen, and now she cant help but
worry she will lose another of us, i mean we already almost lost jenny,
i feel so bad for her. she was so happy when i told her he's fine as of
yesterday, the 3rd time he wrote since he's been gone, and he is in
prague doing fine. i dont think theres a single one of us in this
family that isnt somewhat scared when he's gone.