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ok here are some lame things:
1. snow
2. people who have NO BACK BONES and just go with the flow all the time... which most of the time is good, but when you realize that youre second best to just about ANYONE to these people--because you realize that whenever ANYONE new comes into this persons life, you are automatically put on the backburner... well that = LAME --especially when you really thought SHE had reformed, and had finally had become the person you always thought was there.
I guess the bigger part of all this is that you actually grew to really appreciate this persons time, but it seems that theyre at an unprecedented level of 'fakeness' i suppose... because the truth is, you dont know who they are
you dont know what theyre like... because everything theyve done up to this point is behave exactly like you--like me. Because they dont even kow who they are, all they do is borrow--pretend like theyre so great, when theyre just a shadow of something, some prophecy that has not yet been fulfilled. A shell that just hasnt been filled yet.
and it kills you, just kills you to hear about this great individuality that thrives within this person, because you know the truth, because you know theyre just a big lyer who doesnt know what they want, and because you tried SO hard to keep things good, you tried so hard to just let it go...
LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME
it is all lame-- and ive got to understand that i should not care more about the people who dont care about me even half as much, and who see my time with them just an alternative to being alone.
and its just not something that can be spoken-- because it is so easily denied.
and thats all on that
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other things:
i miss hanging out with emily
i miss hanging out with michelle
i miss hanging out with ashley... whom i seriously havent hung out with since... early NOVEMBER. thats a month. = lame.
i wana go out in the snow. but its too cold. and well, snowy
i wana go to the mall. but its too dangerous (hah)
i went to get my senior portraits done. They came out so bad lol.. i saw them on the little computer screen. yuck-- i dont even want any! i just want ONE for the yearbook. THATS IT.
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i need to find me a man. Ill keep you guys posted on the recent findings
TIME FOR SOME BOY SCOUTING.
1. snow
2. people who have NO BACK BONES and just go with the flow all the time... which most of the time is good, but when you realize that youre second best to just about ANYONE to these people--because you realize that whenever ANYONE new comes into this persons life, you are automatically put on the backburner... well that = LAME --especially when you really thought SHE had reformed, and had finally had become the person you always thought was there.
I guess the bigger part of all this is that you actually grew to really appreciate this persons time, but it seems that theyre at an unprecedented level of 'fakeness' i suppose... because the truth is, you dont know who they are
you dont know what theyre like... because everything theyve done up to this point is behave exactly like you--like me. Because they dont even kow who they are, all they do is borrow--pretend like theyre so great, when theyre just a shadow of something, some prophecy that has not yet been fulfilled. A shell that just hasnt been filled yet.
and it kills you, just kills you to hear about this great individuality that thrives within this person, because you know the truth, because you know theyre just a big lyer who doesnt know what they want, and because you tried SO hard to keep things good, you tried so hard to just let it go...
LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME
it is all lame-- and ive got to understand that i should not care more about the people who dont care about me even half as much, and who see my time with them just an alternative to being alone.
and its just not something that can be spoken-- because it is so easily denied.
and thats all on that
___________________________________________________________________________
other things:
i miss hanging out with emily
i miss hanging out with michelle
i miss hanging out with ashley... whom i seriously havent hung out with since... early NOVEMBER. thats a month. = lame.
i wana go out in the snow. but its too cold. and well, snowy
i wana go to the mall. but its too dangerous (hah)
i went to get my senior portraits done. They came out so bad lol.. i saw them on the little computer screen. yuck-- i dont even want any! i just want ONE for the yearbook. THATS IT.
___________________________________________________________________________
i need to find me a man. Ill keep you guys posted on the recent findings
TIME FOR SOME BOY SCOUTING.