i knew that something was gonna happen between you and jenny, you and lasette, and you and christina. thats why i never wanted you to hang out with them. i TOLD you that. i guess i DO have good discernment...
dont tell me that its not true because you know it is. i never felt comfortable with the idea of you hanging out with them when we were going out. i guess you lied too, saying you had no interest in any of them. i hope everyone realizes that. have fun with christina. youll make a wonderful couple( im not being sarcastic).
Re: wow...vanishinghopeJanuary 26 2007, 21:03:12 UTC
hahahaha!! wow...the difference is that when we were dating i had the self-control to not do anything. something you obviously didnt have-thus your cheating.
and Settie doesnt exactly know how it felt seeing as how the whole time we were hooking up i was telling her we wouldnt be dating.
and wow if you are honestly proud of yourself and your "wonderful" discernment-its only because youve gotten so goddamn good at lying. i hooked up with two girls. but...
YOU HAD SEX
alright looks like you win haha! you knew a guy for 3 days and already fucked him. NUMEROUS TIMES
look at yourself. getting sent home from winter camp cuz you cant go 3 fucking days without smoking...what the hell happened to you?? just look at what you are.
Re: wow...midnite_blackJanuary 28 2007, 17:14:00 UTC
Well she obviously DID think you were going to be dating...she told me she thought so. Because you both liked each other.
And make that 3 girls. You hooked up with christina too. while you were hooking up with lasette *applause* even i couldnt do that!!! Good job.
And yeah i didnt have sex. You ever hear of rumors Ethan? Im still a virgin. Just like the rumors of me having sex with Cordale. And the guy in question is my friend Branddon. And ive known him for 3 months. So there you go. Proving it's a rumor. And hes also 23. So yeah dont believe everything you hear.
I just hate this Ethan. Im smoking because I cant handle all of this anymore. Its the only thing that I have left. I know thats no excuse...
I keep having re-occuring dreams of us talking, but, I know it will never happen. Not even to explain all thats going on. Not even to explain everything that has been happening.
And I just cant handle the thought of everyone at my school thinking Im not a virgin. I am. I at least want YOU to know that if everyone else doesnt.
Re: wow...vanishinghopeJanuary 29 2007, 21:33:50 UTC
hold your applause because i never hooked up with Christina. she has yet to have her first kiss. the first time we hung out her dad asked if we kissed right when i left so i gave her a hersheys kiss the next time so she could tell her dad yes. she left that comment on my myspace and everyone went crazy lol i havent asked her out yet and im not kissing her until were dating
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Re: wow...midnite_blackJanuary 31 2007, 00:45:46 UTC
well i never did have sex with branddon. i have yet to lose my virginity to someone. and i dont plan to lose it until i get married. i told you that numerous times.
and i only hang out with kim. and she is most definitely NOT a whore. shes only had sex with ONE person:tim. her boyfriend for a year and a couple months now. and they werent smoking at winter camp. that was me and someone else who was in that room with me. but i took the blame because im a good friend to that particular person.
and if you ever truly loved me then you wouldnt be talking to me like you are now. this isnt you and it never was...
Re: wow...vanishinghopeJanuary 31 2007, 03:24:45 UTC
what a great friend...covering up addictions for each other...ive gotta hand it to you...you continue to surprise me...hahaha!
yeah you were such a great friend to so many people...oh wait...you ended up screwing all of them over in the end...silly me and my bad memory...
and is the last part a fucked up joke? cuz i was definately laughing...lets name some things that youve done within the past 3 months that would be proof that you never loved me at all...and guess what-this is me-you just never took the time to understand it. to know how id react to all the shit you did to me.
i just wish id known what and who you really were before i let you leech off of me for a full year...id like to thank my blissful denial...
Re: wow...midnite_blackJanuary 31 2007, 20:59:50 UTC
I didn't screw anyone over. If you remember everyone ditched me for you, which I would have done too. But, I never screwed anyone of them over. I never said a mean word to any of them except if they did and I just happened to snap
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Re: wow...vanishinghopeJanuary 31 2007, 22:08:27 UTC
well if any of that is true i thank you for your honesty. im not sure if i believe it and its painful to realize that your "love" for me was peer-pressured into non-existance by your "friends" and mom. and honestly if your mom told you you should date jon to comfort you with your decision to abandon me than i have lost what little respect for her i had left. thats possibly the worst advice she couldve given...i guess the strategy of using people runs in the family
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Re: wow...midnite_blackFebruary 2 2007, 00:33:00 UTC
I never used you Ethan. And if it felt that way I am utterly sorry for that.
I always knew that I could never have you back if I broke it up. At least I realized that at the end of the first week. And I know that relationships are about thinking about the other person. I've always been taught the opposite and I thought about other people other than myself, but no one ever agreed upon that. My mom thought that it was putting too much stress on me...
That wasn't funny.
And I do want you back, but now that I realize we can't be together I guess...you know...I just have to deal. And I think from the first time I would learn from my mistakes... I think we were meant for each other Ethan. You were the only person I ever felt truly connected with. The only person I truly fell in love with. With you I knew myself. Now I'm not even sure of who this is...
Do you think it would ever be possible for us to talk again?
Re: wow...vanishinghopeFebruary 3 2007, 00:33:07 UTC
no it wouldnt be. this already pushing it too far. (haha funny number two!! wee! im on a role! maybe you can laugh at this one...pushing deeper...haha
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Re: wow...midnite_blackFebruary 6 2007, 18:20:50 UTC
None of that is funny.And you know that.
I do STILL care about you. And I still care about everyone who still chose to be my friends. That would be Allison, Michael, Jackie, and Lauren. And I care about my new friends too.
God does let things get pulled away. If it's his will, and if he thinks they at least need to take a break until things get straightened out.
I didn't take you for granted. I told you the reasons why this happened.
I do want you back...and that's because I know what a huge mistake I made listening to everyone else.
I love you Ethan. You were my first love. The one I know I truly ever felt those feelings for.
And yeah, I DO want you back. You told me that maybe in a year or so that could happen...What changed???
Re: wow...vanishinghopeFebruary 7 2007, 20:40:16 UTC
you havent changed a bit. youve in fact gotten much worse. why would you possibly think that after you getting sent home from camp cuz your smoking addiction, finding out (and having it verified by michael) that you fucked a guy after knowing him 3 days, and then the fact that you come up to me and yell at me at winter camp about shit. honestly youre not trying too hard anyway. after what you did you cant possibly be thinking im stupid enough to let you do it to me again. because we both know you would. youd feed off me for awhile, maybe even a year or two (since we didnt even last one year this time) but then when you get bored youll do it again. thats who you are. thats not who i fell in love with...but its who you are. and denial of that fact wont get you anywhere.
Re: wow...midnite_blackFebruary 8 2007, 01:54:28 UTC
1.Again the guy in question that I apparently screwed is 23 and I've known him for about 4-5 months. I would never screw someone that much older than me and I don't plan on screwing anyone until I am married. 2. It was "verified" by many people that I screwed Cordale twice. Once 2 weeks ago. Proves to show you rumors are just that-rumors. I've been grounded for the past month and a half. There's no way I would have been able to get out of my house to have sex with ANYONE! 3. I didn't yell at you. I asked you as politely as I could to stop making up rumors about me. I'm sick of my reputation being fucked over by everyone. Sure some of it is my fault....but I DID NOT have sex. 4. It's not who I am...it's what rumors have made me. It's not something I'm proud of. 5. You think I feed off the drama...I HATE it.
Re: wow...vanishinghopeFebruary 9 2007, 22:33:56 UTC
no. its what youve made yourself. if you hadnt made the choices you did youd still be a respected girl who was dating me. but your choices did show me your true insides because your actions obviously speak MUCH louder than your words now.
it doesnt matter what i think about the situation-i wouldnt put it past you to have fucked cordale and the 23 year old (and you were overheard to have been all pissed off at the school for not letting you bring him...or was that a 25 year old? i cant remember...) the point is-youre different now. whether or not you were different while we were dating or this is just a new development i dont know.
but the only thing youve said in the past few month i agree with was your last statement.
i knew that something was gonna happen between you and jenny, you and lasette, and you and christina. thats why i never wanted you to hang out with them. i TOLD you that. i guess i DO have good discernment...
dont tell me that its not true because you know it is. i never felt comfortable with the idea of you hanging out with them when we were going out. i guess you lied too, saying you had no interest in any of them. i hope everyone realizes that. have fun with christina. youll make a wonderful couple( im not being sarcastic).
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and Settie doesnt exactly know how it felt seeing as how the whole time we were hooking up i was telling her we wouldnt be dating.
and wow if you are honestly proud of yourself and your "wonderful" discernment-its only because youve gotten so goddamn good at lying. i hooked up with two girls. but...
YOU HAD SEX
alright looks like you win haha! you knew a guy for 3 days and already fucked him. NUMEROUS TIMES
look at yourself. getting sent home from winter camp cuz you cant go 3 fucking days without smoking...what the hell happened to you?? just look at what you are.
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And make that 3 girls. You hooked up with christina too. while you were hooking up with lasette *applause* even i couldnt do that!!! Good job.
And yeah i didnt have sex. You ever hear of rumors Ethan? Im still a virgin. Just like the rumors of me having sex with Cordale. And the guy in question is my friend Branddon. And ive known him for 3 months. So there you go. Proving it's a rumor. And hes also 23. So yeah dont believe everything you hear.
I just hate this Ethan. Im smoking because I cant handle all of this anymore. Its the only thing that I have left. I know thats no excuse...
I keep having re-occuring dreams of us talking, but, I know it will never happen. Not even to explain all thats going on. Not even to explain everything that has been happening.
And I just cant handle the thought of everyone at my school thinking Im not a virgin. I am. I at least want YOU to know that if everyone else doesnt.
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and i only hang out with kim. and she is most definitely NOT a whore. shes only had sex with ONE person:tim. her boyfriend for a year and a couple months now. and they werent smoking at winter camp. that was me and someone else who was in that room with me. but i took the blame because im a good friend to that particular person.
and if you ever truly loved me then you wouldnt be talking to me like you are now. this isnt you and it never was...
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yeah you were such a great friend to so many people...oh wait...you ended up screwing all of them over in the end...silly me and my bad memory...
and is the last part a fucked up joke? cuz i was definately laughing...lets name some things that youve done within the past 3 months that would be proof that you never loved me at all...and guess what-this is me-you just never took the time to understand it. to know how id react to all the shit you did to me.
i just wish id known what and who you really were before i let you leech off of me for a full year...id like to thank my blissful denial...
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I always knew that I could never have you back if I broke it up. At least I realized that at the end of the first week. And I know that relationships are about thinking about the other person. I've always been taught the opposite and I thought about other people other than myself, but no one ever agreed upon that. My mom thought that it was putting too much stress on me...
That wasn't funny.
And I do want you back, but now that I realize we can't be together I guess...you know...I just have to deal. And I think from the first time I would learn from my mistakes... I think we were meant for each other Ethan. You were the only person I ever felt truly connected with. The only person I truly fell in love with. With you I knew myself. Now I'm not even sure of who this is...
Do you think it would ever be possible for us to talk again?
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I do STILL care about you. And I still care about everyone who still chose to be my friends. That would be Allison, Michael, Jackie, and Lauren. And I care about my new friends too.
God does let things get pulled away. If it's his will, and if he thinks they at least need to take a break until things get straightened out.
I didn't take you for granted. I told you the reasons why this happened.
I do want you back...and that's because I know what a huge mistake I made listening to everyone else.
I love you Ethan. You were my first love. The one I know I truly ever felt those feelings for.
And yeah, I DO want you back. You told me that maybe in a year or so that could happen...What changed???
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That means its completely over?
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2. It was "verified" by many people that I screwed Cordale twice. Once 2 weeks ago. Proves to show you rumors are just that-rumors. I've been grounded for the past month and a half. There's no way I would have been able to get out of my house to have sex with ANYONE!
3. I didn't yell at you. I asked you as politely as I could to stop making up rumors about me. I'm sick of my reputation being fucked over by everyone. Sure some of it is my fault....but I DID NOT have sex.
4. It's not who I am...it's what rumors have made me. It's not something I'm proud of.
5. You think I feed off the drama...I HATE it.
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it doesnt matter what i think about the situation-i wouldnt put it past you to have fucked cordale and the 23 year old (and you were overheard to have been all pissed off at the school for not letting you bring him...or was that a 25 year old? i cant remember...) the point is-youre different now. whether or not you were different while we were dating or this is just a new development i dont know.
but the only thing youve said in the past few month i agree with was your last statement.
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