Wilted Love / Look At Me
Title: Wilted Love / Look At Me
Author: VanillaIcex3Genre: Romance, Smut, Drama?, Violence, Angst
Rated: R, NC-17 for most parts
Length: Mini series
Disclaimer: This plot is mine :), if I owned Yunjae I won't have to write fics about them, picture is from google!
Part 1 ; Present and The Past
Yunho pressed the doorbell over and over again. He was so depressed at the moment, he wanted someone to comfort him and tell him that everything is going to be fine. He couldn’t believe that his girlfriend for two years cheated behind his back! He loved her so much that he didn’t want to hurt his girlfriend. He didn’t have sex with her at all because he didn’t want to risk their relationship.
She broke up with him because she was already cheating on him on the first year. Saying how her current boyfriend is so good in bed and spoils her with presents.
“Yun? … I heard what happened.” Jaejoong was surprised at Yunho’s disheveled state and how worn out he looked like. He didn’t expect Yunho to come over to him, he sighed and held Yunho’s hand. He led him into the dining room and sat him down.
“Do you want to eat first or take a shower first?” Jaejoong asked and went to the fridge to get more veggies and meat for the stew. The pot was already boiling with hot chilli soup and he just slowly put the meat inside first. He almost dropped the bowl when he felt Yunho’s arms snaking around his waist and had Yunho’s clothed crotch against his butt.
“Joongie, I want you to shower with me.” Yunho desperately wanted comfort from Jaejoong because he always made him feel better. No matter how depressed or sad he was, Jaejoong could make him forget everything.
“Kay, wait for the meat to cook thoroughly and I’ll go with you.” Jaejoong let Yunho sway his body side to side when they both watched the meat turned color. He turned off the stove and covered it with a lid.
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Yunho aggressively took off my clothes in the bathroom and kissed me roughly. He angrily cried while he proceeded down to kiss his favorite part of my body. He always liked to lick my inner thighs and nibbled near my penis. He hugged my legs tightly against him and sobbed.
My heart broke at the sight of a broken Yunho and I swear I’m going to get revenge for Yunho.
“Yunnie-ah, don’t cry. You’ll always have me. Always.” I kneeled down and kissed Yunho’s tears away. I took off Yunho’s clothing and let Yunho bear hug me to the shower.
When we were rinsing all the bubbles out from their hair and body, Yunho looked at me intensely with need and he wrapped his arms around my waist. We tilted our heads and kissed slowly.
I knew Yunho was crying under the shower, when his shoulders are so tense to my touch. I cupped his cheek with one hand to caress it and my other stroked his back.
I haven’t been in touch with Yunho for more than a year. I was sad to know that Yunho stopped talking to me this year. Before, Yunho used to drop by once a week and kiss me senseless till the sun rose again. I knew that Yunho loved his girlfriend so much that he would do anything for her. One of things was to tell him to stop hanging out with me.
I like to let Yunho do whatever to me, because I’ve always loved him so much. I really do, he was the person who always cared for me when I needed someone to be with. I realized how much I loved him when he told me that he had a girlfriend. I’ve always known that Yunho was interested in girls, he always told me about the girls in our school.
I was jealous of them, yet I know Yunho would be happy if he had one. So I’ve always tried to make myself that matches Yunho’s ideal girl. Since I know that Yunho will never look at me the same way I look at him, I always let him have his way with me. I would always pretend that he actually loves me.
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Yunho turned off the showers and grabbed the towel from the rack, he dried Jaejoong off first and then himself. They both got out of the shower naked and Jaejoong was bear hugged again from behind.
“Yun-ah, are you hungry?” Jaejoong whispered softly and leaned his body against him. He heard childish no and he was pushed to his bed.
“Yun… please let out your anger, it breaks me when I see you like this.” Jaejoong cooed Yunho who was nuzzling his nipples with his nose and trying not to cry. He pulled up the blankets so they won’t get cold.
“What did I do wrong, Joongie? Why did she say that? I loved her so much! She cheated behind my back, damn it. All I’ve wanted is to impress her and not let sex be the only thing that we have. I wanted love only…” Yunho sniffed and hid his face in his best friend’s nape.
“Yunnie… you didn’t do anything wrong. She’s going to try to get you back when she realizes who she gave up on. Yun-ah, you can always tell me how angry you feel. Hmm?” Jaejoong stroked Yunho’s hair lovingly and smiled at him when he looked up.
“Yun-ah, it’s not good to keep it inside… show me how angry you were when you found out that she was cheating on you.” Jaejoong really hated to see a depressed Yunho, he wrapped his legs around Yunho’s body lazily. Yunho ran his hands all over Jaejoong’s back and he kissed Jaejoong’s collarbone.
“Are you sure Joongie? … what if I hurt you?” Yunho liked resting his head against Jaejoong’s chest and listening to his heartbeat.
“I know you won’t hurt me, Yunnie. You won’t let me get hurt.” Jaejoong whispered softly and pressed himself as close to Yunho as possible. He smiled when Yunho pushed him down on his back and had this glint of anger in his eyes.
“You think you’re so good? Huh? Do you? I tried to be the best boyfriend to you and this is what I get?” Yunho growled and he gripped Jaejoong’s wrists above his head.
“Fuck you, slut. I’ve always wondered why you are always busy after school. Just because I’m nice doesn’t mean that you could play with me like that! I fucking hate you.” Yunho was leaving hickeys all over Jaejoong’s body and they were both getting aroused.
“I’ve always bought what you liked, what you wanted and I even buy your friend’s birthday present.” Yunho bit Jaejoong’s nipple piercing, he tugged and pulled it with his teeth. Jaejoong got the piercing for Yunho’s birthday.
“Yun-yunnie…”
“Stop calling me that! You whore, I hate you! I hate you for playing with me.” Yunho growled and he just forced his erection inside Jaejoong without any preparation.
Jaejoong screamed in pain and his tears rolled down his cheeks. Even though he was in pain, he knew that Yunho would be fine by tomorrow.
“Scream in pain, you deserve it bitch! You crying makes me feel so much better. Fuck you!” Yunho pushed his penis raw in and out, he was so out of it, he placed his hands around Jaejoong’s neck.
“I wish you’d die, die! My heart hurts so much because of your selfishness! It fucking hurts, I want you to know how much it hurts…” Yunho tightened his hands around Jaejoong’s throat and closed his eyes, he felt himself getting close to reaching his orgasm.
“Yu-Yun!” Jaejoong was struggling for air, he tried pushing Yunho’s hands away but his hold was too tight.
“Nng… Yun!” Jaejoong was trying to get oxygen in his lungs but he could feel bruises forming on his throat.
“Yun.. ho…” Jaejoong weakly called out and hoped Yunho would let go. His tears kept falling and he didn’t want Yunho to feel bad if he blacked out.
“Fucking bitch, take that! Ugh.” Yunho shot his load inside Jaejoong and lets go of Jaejoong’s throat.
“Y-Yunnie…” Jaejoong pulled Yunho’s hands away and hugged him tightly.
“J-jae… Oh my god! I’m so sorry. Joongie. Are you okay? Joongie! Oh my god. I… I didn’t know, I’m sorry. Does it hurt? Can you breathe properly? Joongie…” Yunho realized that he almost killed Jaejoong. He pushed Jaejoong’s body away gently and looked at what he had done.
“I-it’s okay… I’m fine. See? Nothing foundation can’t cover!” Jaejoong gave an assuring smile and coughed.
“Jae! Oh my god, I’m so sorry.” Yunho touched the red marks that he made on Jaejoong’s neck and leaned down to kiss it.
“Joongie… I’m such an asshole, I’m sorry. I nev-“ Yunho was cut off with Jaejoong’s kiss.
“Yun-ah, it’s okay. I’m not mad, I’m fine. Stop saying sorry, hmm?” Jaejoong softly giggled when Yunho gave him small little pecks everywhere around his neck. He moaned when Yunho started licking his neck and nibbled on it.
“Yun-ah… show me what you have really wanted to do with her and you never got the chance to.” Jaejoong leaned his head to the left side and gave better access for Yunho. He forgot that Yunho was still inside him and wiggled his butt gently to stretch out his limbs.
He winced at the pain coming from his lower back and whined. His heart soared in delight when he heard Yunho’s chuckle right against his ear.
“It’s not funny.” Jaejoong stuck his tongue out at Yunho and pinched his back gently.
“Mmmhm.” Yunho was nibbling Jaejoong’s chin and starting to move in and out of Jaejoong again. He kissed Jaejoong with passion and love, he was imagining making love to his girlfriend. He was feeling happy inside because he indirectly fulfilled his wish.
This was Jaejoong’s first time feeling such gentleness from Yunho, he only wished that Yunho was thinking of him instead of her. He mentally hit himself from thinking these thoughts and chanted to himself that Yunho was making love to him. His hand was stroking Yunho’s broad back and feeling all the well developed muscles. His other hand was pumping himself to hardness because he could feel Yunho stretching his hole again.
“Mmm… you’re so naughty… touching yourself like that.” Yunho grabbed Jaejoong’s hand and kissed it. He used his tongue to nudge open Jaejoong’s lips again so he could kiss him more deeply, showing his love.
“Bleeh.” Jaejoong childishly stuck his tongue out again and wanted to close his mouth but Yunho was fast enough to kiss him. They both tried to suck on each other’s tongues and moaned into their kiss when their bodies started to feel that heat running through.
“Yun-ah, you feel so good.” Jaejoong wrapped his legs around Yunho’s waist and rocked to Yunho’s rhythm. He gasped when Yunho licked his pierced nipple and started sucking on it. Ever since he got it pierced, it got so sensitive to everything.
“You’re so beautiful, ugh…” Yunho moaned when he felt Jaejoong clenching around him. He picked up his pace a bit because he wanted to feel that again.
“Ahhn, Yun-ah. Yunnie, faster… deeper…” Jaejoong’s muscles tensed and dug his nails onto Yunho’s back.
“There! OH god. Yunnie, yes. There!” Jaejoong screamed at the pleasure when Yunho hit his sweet spot. He always managed to hit it right on every time they had sex.
“F-fuck, you’re so tight.” Yunho felt himself close to climax and he lifted Jaejoong’s legs up to his shoulder.
“Nng… Haah. Yunnie! Yun!” Jaejoong’s drool leaked from his mouth when Yunho hit his prostate deeper. He shot his heavy load onto Yunho’s chest and panted.
“Eunnie!” Yunho came inside of Jaejoong the second time and rode out his orgasm. He slid out of Jaejoong and rolled beside him. He gathered Jaejoong in his arms and kissed him on the lips and cheeks gently.
“I’m tired… Sleep.” Yunho covered both of them and he quickly slept.
Jaejoong felt his heart break a little when he heard Yunho call out his ex-girlfriend’s name when he came into him. He knew Yunho never called his name when they were having sex because Yunho knows that this relationship will not escalate to another level other than this. Though, Yunho never called out any names until now. He rubbed his eyes to prevent himself from tearing up.
“Yunnie, you know… I really love you. Can you not see that? … can I be selfish and claim you as mine for once? I want you… to be with me. It hurts me to know when you love someone else so deeply when I could be so much better than them… Yunnie-yah, can you look at me once? It hurts.” Jaejoong hugged Yunho tightly and spoke so softly to the deep in slumber best friend.
“But it’s okay… as long as you’re happy and I’m still your best friend. No matter what happens, I’ll always be here for you. Always.” Jaejoong pressed a kiss on Yunho’s lips and snuggled into his warm embrace. He smiled because he knew no one else can share this kind of relationship with Yunho.
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When their first time happened, they were only fifteen. Yunho was the one who wasn’t really that popular but a lot of girls had crushes on him. He went through puberty faster than Jaejoong, so he’s a head taller than him and manlier. Jaejoong was Yunho’s best friend, he was always there for him no matter what happened. Though, Yunho had another circle of friends, and he had a girlfriend.
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Just one night, Jaejoong thought, that Yunho will say his name in his husky voice. One night is enough for him. He had known that Yunho already watched porn because someone dared him to do it and he knows that Yunho never had sex before. He wants to give his own virginity to the person he loved the most, which is Yunho. He snuck on Yunho in the library before and he saw that Yunho really liked girls in different outfits.
Jaejoong had planned this for a really long time, all he wanted was for Yunho to look at him and tell him that he’s the most beautiful and important person to him. He had loved Yunho since he was a child but he knew Yunho always only liked girls. He was only his best friend who would always be there for him, always.
So he finally gathers up his courage to ask Yunho to go to his house to have a sleepover.
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“Yunho-yah!” Jaejoong tapped on Yunho’s shoulder and smiled. He felt a piercing glare staring at him, he always knew Yunho’s girlfriend didn’t like him.
“Hey, Joongie. What’s up?” Yunho gave his girlfriend’s forehead a kiss and waved her goodbye.
“Uhmm… S-since we haven’t been hanging out as much… you know. You’re busy and I-I’m busy too… Y-you don’t have anything planned tonight right? B-because I really missed having you coming over to my house and have sleepovers…” Jaejoong nervously asked and looked at Yunho.
“Oh, perfect! JiEun has something planned tonight with her family. I’ll come over around five!” Yunho smiled.
Jaejoong smiled brightly and hugged Yunho tightly while inhaling his sweet yet intoxicating smell.
“Jae… I’m gonna go now, I’ll see you later.” Yunho patted Jaejoong’s mop of raven hair.
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Jaejoong smiled brightly when he walked back home, he changed into a tanktop and some shorts. He started preparing the ingredients for Yunho’s favorite dishes. He always wished that he was a girl, so Yunho would notice him and love him. He knew Yunho was a sweetheart to his girlfriend because he would always protect her from harm and always gave her the most attention.
Jaejoong always tried to be perfect for Yunho…
Ding dong!
Jaejoong snapped out of his trance and opened the door revealing a dashing Yunho with his duffel bag on his shoulder.
“Ah! You’re here early, just go sit on the couch and watch some tv. Dinner’s gonna take a while.” Jaejoong smiled and took the duffel bag off Yunho’s shoulder and disappeared up the stairs.
“Okay! I’m really hungry though… So hurry, Joongie~” Yunho whined and took off his shoes. He plopped onto the sofa and turned on the tv.
“It’s done!” Jaejoong called for Yunho around six something and they started eating.
“You know Joongie, I really missed your cooking.” Yunho mumbled with his food inside his mouth. Jaejoong smiled with content.
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“Yunnie” Jaejoong sultrily whispered into Yunho’s ear and slid his hand down to his chest.
“U-uh… yes?” Yunho cocked his eyebrow and wondered why Jaejoong is using such a weird voice at him.
“Let’s try having sex.” Jaejoong continued his path from Yunho’s chest and dangerously low to his crotch.
Vanilla's Words: Hello, o-o, this is the creepy fic I've been talking about if anyone stalks my comments LOL. and yes I've got a couple of pages down so ... yeah :). you'll be reading this for like 2-3 parts until I have to write more on it >_<, my summer school started today. It's sooooooooooooo boring. and like =_=. WHY DOES NO ONE BRING THEIR DAMN ASS LAPTOP? WHY? -_- now I can't write my fics . stupid. people. I hate chu all ;__;. & to :(, sorry bb, I accidentally deleted your comment on Ch.6 of Cupcake promise because I was deleting the comments I replied to you cause I wanted to retype the comment and tell you guys that ch.7 was up :(. Sorrrry. D:!
I'll update ch.8 of cupcake promise tmr, hopefully :D~ and I will be locking this after 3 days because it's too rated. and sorry for those who can't read it because I will be putting on the adult content warnings. Thank you ^^! NO, I AM NOT ACCEPTING FRIEND REQUESTS, sorry. Most of my fics are open anyways :), feel free to read those even though i might be locking them soon. :/. PLEASE DO NOT REDISTRIBUTE MY FANWORKS ANYWHERE, OR SAVE A COPY OF THEM OR TRANSLATE THEM (because every time someone asks me to give them permission, I can never load their sites. Sorry.)
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