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why is it that i have no trouble getting a hold of people when i'm fine, but when i really need to talk to them, they have things to do?
i understand that i can't expect everyone to be there for me every second of the day. they have lives, careers, families. but i don't think they understand how alone and displaced i feel right now.
i would do anything to be the normal girl who can actually come home when the school year ends, but i've been here a day and i am so sad.
(and i can tell myself that i want to live in the apartment with my friends, but that isn't going to stop the loneliness...)
i wish i had the guts to just call and say, "I NEED TO TALK TO YOU. IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT." but i'm too afraid to, and it's eating me up inside.
someone i trust once told me that everything in life happens for a reason. but that doesn't make the heartache go away.
i understand that i can't expect everyone to be there for me every second of the day. they have lives, careers, families. but i don't think they understand how alone and displaced i feel right now.
i would do anything to be the normal girl who can actually come home when the school year ends, but i've been here a day and i am so sad.
(and i can tell myself that i want to live in the apartment with my friends, but that isn't going to stop the loneliness...)
i wish i had the guts to just call and say, "I NEED TO TALK TO YOU. IT'S REALLY IMPORTANT." but i'm too afraid to, and it's eating me up inside.
someone i trust once told me that everything in life happens for a reason. but that doesn't make the heartache go away.