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It feels like everything in my life is just falling apart.. piece by piece. I sit back and watch it all happen and do nothing about it. What can I do? What options do I have now? Even now I feel like people don't understand one bit. I wish there was someone out there that did. I wish there was someone out there that could sit with me for awhile and watch tears fall down my face and know exactly what was going through my mind. I don't even think I can save myself at this point. Everything is blurry. My dream job. My future. My happiness. Just one big blur just mushed together and it seems so far away. Like there's no way to ever get any of that back. I don't know what to do with myself. I have no choices. I haven't had choices in so long. I wish people wouldn't take things for granted. I want good parents. The kind of parents that help no matter what. The understanding parents that listen and try to understand. The kind of parents that never give up. I want those. I miss feeling like I wasn't alone. I want to be able to go to school. I wish I could focus on the things that mattered but I've got so many roadblocks. So many problems that are in my way. How is anybody supposed to keep getting back off when they're so used to falling down? I wish there was somebody who truly understood. Anybody at all...