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well doesnt look like i'm going to be getting any outside help for this. i went to the eating disorder clinic today and it was the gayest thing ever. pretty much the lady was old, ugly, fat, hippy=ish and patronizing. she kept telling me all this useless stuff i already knew and making everything over dramatic. she talked in a very patronizing tone and kept trying to TELL me what i 'needed' to do. so i told her what i was lookingfor and she said that the services dont usually deal with people in my 'mental state' and level of openness to treatment but that if i was interested i could meet with her as a follow up and meet the nutritionist. i just told her that thank you but i did not feel that their services catered to what i was looking for. pretty much i didnt like her and i didnt like what that organization wanted to do. I had hoped that it would be a young personable woman who could help me deal with my mental state as opposed to my physical. too bad. i guess i'll have to go back to plan one and save up money to go to CEDRIC. she did tell me one thing that made me very happy. apparently my tests werent 'ok' as i had assumed apparently i am on the cusp of and suffering from quite a few mineral deficiencies. this makes me happy in a very sick way. also, when she asked what they should tell my dad if he called, i told them to tell him that i had terminated my services with the organization. there! problem solved. maybe he'll think that i went to treatment and that they didnt find anything wrong with me adn hell stop thinking that i'm going to drop dead any second. I dont think mr. butt or my doctor are going to be too happy about this...