Walking on Broken Glass - Part One
title: Walking on Broken Glass - Part One
words: 1,769
disclaimer: love them, don't own them etc...
this is going to be pretty long when it's done, there will be LOTS MORE in the future!
KJ wanted fic so I'm posting part 1 tonight
about: Joe is bored one night and discovers...Joick fanfiction...
Click, click, clickity clack went the keys on the laptop as tanned fingers hit them with apparent ease. The twenty-year old was on the group’s twitter page replying to a few random people just because. Also, he liked to keep up with certain friends so he had Demi’s Twitter up in another tab along with some others he wished he saw more and, of course, OceanUp. He knew he shouldn’t be reading JJ, or Perez Hilton - or OceanUp for that matter, but he was bored and neither of his brothers was available at the moment, anyway. Kevin was on his honeymoon with Danielle and Nick was asleep, passed out in the guest room of the apartment Joe shared with Garbo and Jack, who were both out at some party Joe and Nick had opted not to go to.
He’d just finished sorting through any and all interesting tweets on Demi’s page, sent Nick a rather obscene Direct Message just because he could, and skimmed over all the other backup member’s sites and a few other random ones before finally settling on OceanUp’s twitter account. He was curious as to what had leaked about the wedding, so he made that his priority as he began his search. He was surprised that not much that they hadn’t wanted released hadn’t been and all that was up there were the approved information and images. “Huh…” he let out thoughtfully before scrolling down to see more tweets. He laughed as he read certain things about people he knew. Things he knew were definitely not true, and others he was surprised to see there because they were true, and there were others still he wasn’t sure about and preferred to skip over.
Then there was a link that said ‘Caption Contest - Joick,’ and he clicked curiously only to find a picture of…himself and Nick. This wasn’t unusual in the slightest; it was a screenshot from the live chat they’d done where Joe had tackle-hugged Nick, forcing Kevin off the couch. He smiled at the memory and then read some of the comments and slowly his lips parted in shock.
Joe is soooo hotttt
Nick has the best smile on his face!
OMG THEY ARE SO IN LOVE!
Joe - Nickyyy we just made out on this couch like five minutes before the chat started, stop squirming… Nick - Not in front of the other people, Joe.
They are yummy, I want them for Christmas!
Uhhhh can I get in the middle of that? SO HOT!
U just KNOW what they’re doin later! ;]
He opened a new tab, hands clammy with sweat as he typed in ‘Joick’ just to see what happened. If this was widespread it could really hurt their image, especially if people thought he and Nick were too close. Incest was wrong on just so many levels, and it was something Joe hadn’t thought about in a really long time. He’d once been crushing on Nick, and pretty hard, too. But that was a long time ago. He hit the first few links and they opened in new tabs, and he followed the first to Urban Dictionary (ignoring the pictures for now). There was only one definition and it made his breath catch in his throat.
1: Joick
The word used to label Joe Jonas/Nick Jonas pairing in jonascest fanfiction.
“Oh God…” he whispered. Jonas. Incest. He could pretty much figure out the word on his own but he still went up to the search bar in Urban Dictionary just to make sure.
1: Jonascest
"Jonascest," is the term used for fanfiction concerning members of the band, the Jonas Brothers, in homosexual relationships with each other.
As the members of the band are all brothers, these relationships are also incestuous.
The term, "Jonascest," comes from the combining of their last name, Jonas, with the word, "Incest."
“Oh my God…” he said again, and read the example, his face burning with a mixture of emotions he couldn’t name. Joe kissed Nick roughly and pressed him against the cold shower tile. He couldn't wait for the hot, hardcore sex they would have later. He went back to Google, unable to tear his eyes away. There were fansites, an entire Facebook page devoted to ‘Team Joick,’ and then fanfiction. There were names for him and Kevin, and Kevin and Nick, but he felt strangely jealous when he thought of the latter - everyone knew Nick was closer to him. He shook his head; he knew Kevin would have a shit fit if he knew any of this existed and he was half tempted to send him the links, but he didn’t want to ruin his brother’s honeymoon.
He hadn’t read any yet, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to. He’d started to read one and cringed at what Nick had been eating. Didn’t their fans know Nick was Diabetic? There was no way Nick would eat that. He laughed, but the sound was scary, desperate. Out of everything wrong about this whole situation and he could only get angry about something like that? He clicked on a few more links and found a ‘TeamJoick’ community on LiveJournal. He logged into his account, a secret he’d kept from almost everyone. Actually, the only people who knew about it were Demi, who was also signed up under a false name, and a few others. He was pretty much only signed up because she did blog sometimes, and she’d post poetry and lyrics Disney probably wouldn’t find appropriate but that she needed to write, anyway. He was always supportive of her; she was his friend, after all.
He did the unthinkable. He knew he shouldn’t, but he just had to know. He joined the community. Alright, he could always leave later if he wanted to, right? And of course he would want to; he just wanted to see just how far people took this. It didn’t take him long to realize it was further than he had imagined.
~*~*~
An hour later, Joe scrolled quickly through his fifth fic of varying rating, most of them seemed to have explicit content, though. He’d actually gone through ten fics, but he closed out the tabs if they were too unrealistic in any sense of the word. He’d read scenarios on the tour bus, at their house, in almost every possible way - even on stage. “Is that even possible?” he muttered, annoyed that it was all turning him on so much.
“Is what possible?” he heard and jumped, the laptop falling half off his legs and onto the bed next to him as his knees came up to hide his arousal. It was Nick, of course, and Joe had to groan at his ‘impeccable timing.’
“Uh, nothing,” he said rather quickly, all too aware of how flushed his face must be. “What’s up?” he asked, moving the laptop to the night table and closing the screen before lacing his fingers atop his knees to keep them from fidgeting.
Nick shrugged and came in, uninvited as usual which normally wouldn’t bother Joe, and he felt added weight on the bed. “Can’t sleep…” There were a few minutes of silence before Nick spoke once more. “Can I sleep in here tonight?”
“Of course,” Joe said as he always did when Nick wanted to sleep in his room. He felt the tension drop out of Nick a notch and it only made Joe a little more worried. There had been a time when he used to jerk off thinking about Nick; there’d been a time when he used to want Nick so badly it ached. He didn’t know what he would have done if Nick had ever shown that kind of interest in return, probably what some of those fics mentioned, actually. But it hadn’t happened and for the sake of his mental health he’d had to move on, find other objects for his desire.
It had all came back now, though.
“Do you ever think it’s weird that we still prefer sleeping in the same room?” he asked, trying to be casual about it. “I mean, even if it means sleeping in the same bed?” Nick shrugged which was basically the most noncommittal answer he could have given, and Joe sighed. “Our fans know…”
“Yeah, we never really made it a secret that we shared a room at home…”
“No, they know we sleep in the same bed sometimes…you let it slip in an interview in London.” And I hadn’t noticed until I read it in a fanfic and then looked for the article myself…
“Oh…so?” Joe snorted and relaxed a little, his hard-on was almost gone, thankfully, and the whole conversation just felt weird.
“I don’t know. They know I moved out.” There was more silence and then, “Some of our fans weren’t exactly, ah, happy about it.”
“Neither was I…” His breath caught at Nick’s admission, Oh… “I miss this every night.”
“I moved out so we could do it more frequently and not have mom and dad giving us those looks…” Joe answered with his own admission, gut twisting in guilt as he realized it was true. He hadn’t realized until that moment that that really had been his ulterior motive. “But you haven’t been around all that much.”
“I had interviews, and I had that solo tour, Joe…and I didn’t,” Nick’s voice caught but he cleared his throat. “I didn’t know I was that welcome. I thought maybe…you wanted to get away from me or something.”
He gasped and turned to face Nick, pulling him into a tight embrace. “What? How could you ever think that?” Nick just looked away and Joe pulled him even closer, pressing a kiss to one of those soft, warm cheeks. They stayed like that for a few moments before Nick finally pulled away first and Joe said, “I’m gonna take a shower…” and Nick nodded, curling under the covers since he was already in his sweatpants.
“In case I’m asleep when you get back, love you…” Nick said softly, obviously close to sleep.
“Love you, too, baby boy…” he replied, guilt a very hot substance eating him up inside because of what he knew he was about to do. Once he was in the shower and settled under the running water, he let himself think of that last fic he’d been reading when Nick walked in, wondering how it ended as he took himself in his hand. And, whether that position was possible or not, he still found the mental image incredibly hot as he imagined it happening with Nick.
words: 1,769
disclaimer: love them, don't own them etc...
this is going to be pretty long when it's done, there will be LOTS MORE in the future!
KJ wanted fic so I'm posting part 1 tonight
about: Joe is bored one night and discovers...Joick fanfiction...
Click, click, clickity clack went the keys on the laptop as tanned fingers hit them with apparent ease. The twenty-year old was on the group’s twitter page replying to a few random people just because. Also, he liked to keep up with certain friends so he had Demi’s Twitter up in another tab along with some others he wished he saw more and, of course, OceanUp. He knew he shouldn’t be reading JJ, or Perez Hilton - or OceanUp for that matter, but he was bored and neither of his brothers was available at the moment, anyway. Kevin was on his honeymoon with Danielle and Nick was asleep, passed out in the guest room of the apartment Joe shared with Garbo and Jack, who were both out at some party Joe and Nick had opted not to go to.
He’d just finished sorting through any and all interesting tweets on Demi’s page, sent Nick a rather obscene Direct Message just because he could, and skimmed over all the other backup member’s sites and a few other random ones before finally settling on OceanUp’s twitter account. He was curious as to what had leaked about the wedding, so he made that his priority as he began his search. He was surprised that not much that they hadn’t wanted released hadn’t been and all that was up there were the approved information and images. “Huh…” he let out thoughtfully before scrolling down to see more tweets. He laughed as he read certain things about people he knew. Things he knew were definitely not true, and others he was surprised to see there because they were true, and there were others still he wasn’t sure about and preferred to skip over.
Then there was a link that said ‘Caption Contest - Joick,’ and he clicked curiously only to find a picture of…himself and Nick. This wasn’t unusual in the slightest; it was a screenshot from the live chat they’d done where Joe had tackle-hugged Nick, forcing Kevin off the couch. He smiled at the memory and then read some of the comments and slowly his lips parted in shock.
Joe is soooo hotttt
Nick has the best smile on his face!
OMG THEY ARE SO IN LOVE!
Joe - Nickyyy we just made out on this couch like five minutes before the chat started, stop squirming… Nick - Not in front of the other people, Joe.
They are yummy, I want them for Christmas!
Uhhhh can I get in the middle of that? SO HOT!
U just KNOW what they’re doin later! ;]
He opened a new tab, hands clammy with sweat as he typed in ‘Joick’ just to see what happened. If this was widespread it could really hurt their image, especially if people thought he and Nick were too close. Incest was wrong on just so many levels, and it was something Joe hadn’t thought about in a really long time. He’d once been crushing on Nick, and pretty hard, too. But that was a long time ago. He hit the first few links and they opened in new tabs, and he followed the first to Urban Dictionary (ignoring the pictures for now). There was only one definition and it made his breath catch in his throat.
1: Joick
The word used to label Joe Jonas/Nick Jonas pairing in jonascest fanfiction.
“Oh God…” he whispered. Jonas. Incest. He could pretty much figure out the word on his own but he still went up to the search bar in Urban Dictionary just to make sure.
1: Jonascest
"Jonascest," is the term used for fanfiction concerning members of the band, the Jonas Brothers, in homosexual relationships with each other.
As the members of the band are all brothers, these relationships are also incestuous.
The term, "Jonascest," comes from the combining of their last name, Jonas, with the word, "Incest."
“Oh my God…” he said again, and read the example, his face burning with a mixture of emotions he couldn’t name. Joe kissed Nick roughly and pressed him against the cold shower tile. He couldn't wait for the hot, hardcore sex they would have later. He went back to Google, unable to tear his eyes away. There were fansites, an entire Facebook page devoted to ‘Team Joick,’ and then fanfiction. There were names for him and Kevin, and Kevin and Nick, but he felt strangely jealous when he thought of the latter - everyone knew Nick was closer to him. He shook his head; he knew Kevin would have a shit fit if he knew any of this existed and he was half tempted to send him the links, but he didn’t want to ruin his brother’s honeymoon.
He hadn’t read any yet, and he wasn’t sure he wanted to. He’d started to read one and cringed at what Nick had been eating. Didn’t their fans know Nick was Diabetic? There was no way Nick would eat that. He laughed, but the sound was scary, desperate. Out of everything wrong about this whole situation and he could only get angry about something like that? He clicked on a few more links and found a ‘TeamJoick’ community on LiveJournal. He logged into his account, a secret he’d kept from almost everyone. Actually, the only people who knew about it were Demi, who was also signed up under a false name, and a few others. He was pretty much only signed up because she did blog sometimes, and she’d post poetry and lyrics Disney probably wouldn’t find appropriate but that she needed to write, anyway. He was always supportive of her; she was his friend, after all.
He did the unthinkable. He knew he shouldn’t, but he just had to know. He joined the community. Alright, he could always leave later if he wanted to, right? And of course he would want to; he just wanted to see just how far people took this. It didn’t take him long to realize it was further than he had imagined.
~*~*~
An hour later, Joe scrolled quickly through his fifth fic of varying rating, most of them seemed to have explicit content, though. He’d actually gone through ten fics, but he closed out the tabs if they were too unrealistic in any sense of the word. He’d read scenarios on the tour bus, at their house, in almost every possible way - even on stage. “Is that even possible?” he muttered, annoyed that it was all turning him on so much.
“Is what possible?” he heard and jumped, the laptop falling half off his legs and onto the bed next to him as his knees came up to hide his arousal. It was Nick, of course, and Joe had to groan at his ‘impeccable timing.’
“Uh, nothing,” he said rather quickly, all too aware of how flushed his face must be. “What’s up?” he asked, moving the laptop to the night table and closing the screen before lacing his fingers atop his knees to keep them from fidgeting.
Nick shrugged and came in, uninvited as usual which normally wouldn’t bother Joe, and he felt added weight on the bed. “Can’t sleep…” There were a few minutes of silence before Nick spoke once more. “Can I sleep in here tonight?”
“Of course,” Joe said as he always did when Nick wanted to sleep in his room. He felt the tension drop out of Nick a notch and it only made Joe a little more worried. There had been a time when he used to jerk off thinking about Nick; there’d been a time when he used to want Nick so badly it ached. He didn’t know what he would have done if Nick had ever shown that kind of interest in return, probably what some of those fics mentioned, actually. But it hadn’t happened and for the sake of his mental health he’d had to move on, find other objects for his desire.
It had all came back now, though.
“Do you ever think it’s weird that we still prefer sleeping in the same room?” he asked, trying to be casual about it. “I mean, even if it means sleeping in the same bed?” Nick shrugged which was basically the most noncommittal answer he could have given, and Joe sighed. “Our fans know…”
“Yeah, we never really made it a secret that we shared a room at home…”
“No, they know we sleep in the same bed sometimes…you let it slip in an interview in London.” And I hadn’t noticed until I read it in a fanfic and then looked for the article myself…
“Oh…so?” Joe snorted and relaxed a little, his hard-on was almost gone, thankfully, and the whole conversation just felt weird.
“I don’t know. They know I moved out.” There was more silence and then, “Some of our fans weren’t exactly, ah, happy about it.”
“Neither was I…” His breath caught at Nick’s admission, Oh… “I miss this every night.”
“I moved out so we could do it more frequently and not have mom and dad giving us those looks…” Joe answered with his own admission, gut twisting in guilt as he realized it was true. He hadn’t realized until that moment that that really had been his ulterior motive. “But you haven’t been around all that much.”
“I had interviews, and I had that solo tour, Joe…and I didn’t,” Nick’s voice caught but he cleared his throat. “I didn’t know I was that welcome. I thought maybe…you wanted to get away from me or something.”
He gasped and turned to face Nick, pulling him into a tight embrace. “What? How could you ever think that?” Nick just looked away and Joe pulled him even closer, pressing a kiss to one of those soft, warm cheeks. They stayed like that for a few moments before Nick finally pulled away first and Joe said, “I’m gonna take a shower…” and Nick nodded, curling under the covers since he was already in his sweatpants.
“In case I’m asleep when you get back, love you…” Nick said softly, obviously close to sleep.
“Love you, too, baby boy…” he replied, guilt a very hot substance eating him up inside because of what he knew he was about to do. Once he was in the shower and settled under the running water, he let himself think of that last fic he’d been reading when Nick walked in, wondering how it ended as he took himself in his hand. And, whether that position was possible or not, he still found the mental image incredibly hot as he imagined it happening with Nick.