Look who it is.....

[vaneladork]

Blah... So I'm taking my daily nap and guess who calls after almost four months? My dad! So I've been through two hurricanes, I started college, and he finally decided to call. WTF? Yeah, I'm pissed and no I'm not doing my usual "hi, good, how about you, ok, bye" 2 min talk with him. He makes me so angry. he tells me he thinks of me everyday, that's just the biggest lie! If you think of me everyday, you have to be a very heartless person! How can you think of me everyday and not wonder "Ummm, I don't send her any money. I wonder how she's living" AHHHHHHHHHHHHH But now, he has the nerve to say he thinks of me everyday because I look like his son! Oh, you mean the son I never met?! the son who doesn't know I exist?! This is the first time EVER that he mentions him to me! So I bring up the fact that he didn't tell me about them and he has the the nerve, again, to say "well, why did I have to tell you? I was already separated from you guys" and I tell him because I have the right to know and he just says "well, there's many rights we don't get" GRRRRRR What the hell is he's problem? He makes me so angry. Then he says he's coming to visit, how many times have I heard that one? Well, I got to call him irrisponsible. Then he said he's not. How are you not irrisponsible if you have two kids you totally don't take care of?! Now I really think he'll forget me for good. He's very heartless. I just want him to feel the pain I have to put up with everyday. But how can he feel pain when there's not heart. Well, if he ever does call and apologize for the RIGHT things, then I'll know he's not heartless. I don't need an apology for not calling me often as much as I need an apology for not being a dad, lying to me, and not supporting me.

I don't understand how he sleeps at night