Whats that in the bushes? an Update!! Gasp!!
I figured it was about time for another update. That and it got mentioned in conversation today that I should update. I suppose if I had felt the motivation for livejournal I would have plenty to write about, but its just kind of like bla most of the time. But for right this second anyways, I feel the urge to update. Last year, as I predicted was a great year, and many great things happened. This year, more than fun seems like almost a transitional year. Part of this is because I will be graduating at the end of the year, but its more than that. I think I'm about to embark on one of those final stages of maturity. It seems like every few years or so I think I'm really mature and that there's not much more to go... but this is different. I feel more and more like an adult. I have always felt more mature than my peers(for those who don't know me well, you may find this hard to believe so just trust me) but even feeling more mature than my peers was just simply that. There have been many times that I have gone through things to show how I have matured or just being responsible or whatever. Pat and I have called it the "Real Life Crisis." Like a midlife crisis only it happens in your late teens or early 20s. Its that string of events that truly convinces you that one's life is not going to be the fairy tale they imagined in youth. But as I've said, this is different than all of those, now I find myself feeling almost different in how I think and I'm not sure where or when that happened. But either way I don't look at things the way I used to, not entirely anyways. In most ways I'm still the same person I have been in the past few years but there's something else inexplainable about it. Perhaps some know what I'm feeling now?
Oh well, that aside a lot of my classes I'm taking this semester really show how lucky I am. How lucky many of us are. As much as sometimes we get curveballs and unexpected tragedies just being born in America and getting the oportunities we have received is just amazing compared to what others are forced to go through in so many different countries. Amidst my Bush bashing and my distaste for how politics are done now a days, I think it is neccessary to occassionally stop and remind myself and others that we do live in the best country in the world and there is no one who can convince me otherwise. Our country has been making mistakes recently but there is no place I would rather live.
Sometimes I try to figure out what my life will be like in ten years. For the most part it is wide open with nearly limitless possibilities. But in my thoughts I would gather some of the parts of my life that I view as true consistencies. People, places or things that I believe will always be a part of my life and a part of who I am. Every now and then though, one of those consistancies gets shaken. Something I thought I would always be seeing is no longer there and I try to figure out why. But most of all I then wonder what I can say is a true consistancy. There are no guarentees in life and because of that there is much less I'm sure about now. That said, there is still much control. I do believe in fate. But I don't think our fate controls what we do. I believe what we do controls our fate. Who we are as people, what we value, etc. But it pains me when I see something I thought would remain in my life forever, and now its all but gone.
Oh well, that aside a lot of my classes I'm taking this semester really show how lucky I am. How lucky many of us are. As much as sometimes we get curveballs and unexpected tragedies just being born in America and getting the oportunities we have received is just amazing compared to what others are forced to go through in so many different countries. Amidst my Bush bashing and my distaste for how politics are done now a days, I think it is neccessary to occassionally stop and remind myself and others that we do live in the best country in the world and there is no one who can convince me otherwise. Our country has been making mistakes recently but there is no place I would rather live.
Sometimes I try to figure out what my life will be like in ten years. For the most part it is wide open with nearly limitless possibilities. But in my thoughts I would gather some of the parts of my life that I view as true consistencies. People, places or things that I believe will always be a part of my life and a part of who I am. Every now and then though, one of those consistancies gets shaken. Something I thought I would always be seeing is no longer there and I try to figure out why. But most of all I then wonder what I can say is a true consistancy. There are no guarentees in life and because of that there is much less I'm sure about now. That said, there is still much control. I do believe in fate. But I don't think our fate controls what we do. I believe what we do controls our fate. Who we are as people, what we value, etc. But it pains me when I see something I thought would remain in my life forever, and now its all but gone.