Trying to breakaway..
In a weird mood today. I feel overwhelmingly frustrated for no apparent reason. I wanted to get outside and go for a bike ride or walk or something, but everyone was busy and I didn't end up getting off my ass until the sun had already set and it got colder out. So here I am sitting in my room again. ALONE. again.
My mind keeps going to him.. which isn't helping.. but it's also not even the problem. I just don't want to be inside, doing NOTHING for another day. Wasted! I slept til 2:30pm AGAIN. Granted I didn't go to bed til 4am.. but I feel like I'm just wasting the last few days I have left here.. with everyone. No one is making the effort to enjoy it.. no one's making the effort PERIOD.
I feel like screaming, and throwing something.. I want to bust down these four walls that feel like they are suffocating me. I wish I was in shape because I would RUN.. run away. (which is how the bike comes in handy. haha)
UGH.. i dunno. I just am irritated and it's one of those days where nothing really caused it.. I just.. AM. Maybe that's why I keep thinking of him.. because even when I was having the WORST day.. he could make me smile. *sighs*
My mind keeps going to him.. which isn't helping.. but it's also not even the problem. I just don't want to be inside, doing NOTHING for another day. Wasted! I slept til 2:30pm AGAIN. Granted I didn't go to bed til 4am.. but I feel like I'm just wasting the last few days I have left here.. with everyone. No one is making the effort to enjoy it.. no one's making the effort PERIOD.
I feel like screaming, and throwing something.. I want to bust down these four walls that feel like they are suffocating me. I wish I was in shape because I would RUN.. run away. (which is how the bike comes in handy. haha)
UGH.. i dunno. I just am irritated and it's one of those days where nothing really caused it.. I just.. AM. Maybe that's why I keep thinking of him.. because even when I was having the WORST day.. he could make me smile. *sighs*