I don't know whats going on?
I am so glad Cole is back, but its kind've weird. I have forgiven him, but I am always wondering if he lives again if he will come back. I trust him and I love him. The last 24hrs has been wonderful, but I have felt awkward and weird. Its like nothing has changed at all, and I don't know where we stand so that makes me feel awkward. I want to talk about it but i don't want to ruin the good thing we have going at this moment.
Next on the agenda, I most likely I have to have surgery in Febuary. I am scared of the results! There is bad history in my family and I don't want to be told I can't have kids. Its scary! I don't know how to deal with it! I don't want the surgery! Grrr! it makes me feel really depressed!
Next on the agenda, I most likely I have to have surgery in Febuary. I am scared of the results! There is bad history in my family and I don't want to be told I can't have kids. Its scary! I don't know how to deal with it! I don't want the surgery! Grrr! it makes me feel really depressed!