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I love my new outlook on life! Work was the best thing today because I never once got yelled at by a customer and I even stayed for extra hours. I love this! Its amazing.
I miss Cole but I am dealing with it everyday. I have realized that in our relationship we have been too domestic lately and that we ha ve focused on being a couple at all, so when Cole comes back hopefully we will get time to go out and do things together and relax and enjoy each others company more. The hardest thing about Cole being gone is seeing my new roomate and her girlfriend be lovey and shit and it makes me feel more alone and miss Cole more.
Oh and since I am OFF probation at work I am going to work my hardest to transfer before my boss gets a chance to put me back on probation. That and i have tomorrow off so i am going to work hard to find a better paying job.
I feel like myself again. I am no longer lost and I am "TOLD" things will work out but that I have to be patient and not to dwell in what is wrong. I am doing really well and I am proud of myself. So proud of myself that I don't need others to assure me on how well i am doing. Whats funny is that since I am not looking for people to tell me, they are telling me anyways. Its funny how life works.
I feel healthy for once, my only issue is those damn mosquito bites. I hate the bugs, but I have been good and avoid scratching them. They just won't go away and get worse, so I hope that goes away soon also.
I guess my last note is that no matter how hard life gets try to see the good side of things, it can't be as bad as it seems. Life will even get better once you realize that.
Wow most funny thing just happened. Computer circut went out and I thought I lost this one journal before i got a chance to post it. I didn't get angry, I was patient and while the computer turned on I tried to remember what I wrote. Well I went to repost this and it asked it I wanted to open up what was saved and I clicked ok and guess what it was all here. Yay! What a sign!
I miss Cole but I am dealing with it everyday. I have realized that in our relationship we have been too domestic lately and that we ha ve focused on being a couple at all, so when Cole comes back hopefully we will get time to go out and do things together and relax and enjoy each others company more. The hardest thing about Cole being gone is seeing my new roomate and her girlfriend be lovey and shit and it makes me feel more alone and miss Cole more.
Oh and since I am OFF probation at work I am going to work my hardest to transfer before my boss gets a chance to put me back on probation. That and i have tomorrow off so i am going to work hard to find a better paying job.
I feel like myself again. I am no longer lost and I am "TOLD" things will work out but that I have to be patient and not to dwell in what is wrong. I am doing really well and I am proud of myself. So proud of myself that I don't need others to assure me on how well i am doing. Whats funny is that since I am not looking for people to tell me, they are telling me anyways. Its funny how life works.
I feel healthy for once, my only issue is those damn mosquito bites. I hate the bugs, but I have been good and avoid scratching them. They just won't go away and get worse, so I hope that goes away soon also.
I guess my last note is that no matter how hard life gets try to see the good side of things, it can't be as bad as it seems. Life will even get better once you realize that.
Wow most funny thing just happened. Computer circut went out and I thought I lost this one journal before i got a chance to post it. I didn't get angry, I was patient and while the computer turned on I tried to remember what I wrote. Well I went to repost this and it asked it I wanted to open up what was saved and I clicked ok and guess what it was all here. Yay! What a sign!