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Title: Pieces
Rating: 18
Bands: Sugizo, Miyavi as well as various others.
Pairing: Sugizo x Miyavi
Summary: What do you do when your life falls apart around you and there is nothing left but broken pieces of what was? How do you rebuild when the pieces left behind no longer create the picture from before? Will the pieces that remain ever become anything of significance? You have to hope that the pieces can become a new whole because otherwise there would be no reason to go on but who said you had to reassemble your life alone?
Previous Chapters
Chapter Fourteen
Despite having grown somewhat used to the sensation of someone inside him Miyavi realised that it never ceased to feel any less amazing. Every time Sugizo was inside him it felt like the rest of the world had disappeared leaving just the two of them and intense pleasure that filled every part of him and remained even after Sugizo was gone. He never grew tired of being with Sugizo, had never felt like he was just going along with this to please the other and was never made to feel used. It was frightening how much he adored his lover, but he felt that perhaps he had the upper hand in this relationship because as much as he needed Sugizo, the other needed him even more.
A light moan escaped Miyavi's lips as Sugizo hit his sweet spot and he reached up dragging Sugizo down into a hug, wrapping his legs around the other as he did so. They'd been in bed together for god knew how long and this was the fourth time Sugizo had been inside him. They were tiring now, their lust finally subsiding but somehow that made this time the best.
“You're so beautiful.” Sugizo whispered as he kept his pace despite how exhausted the other clearly was. “Like an angel.”
“As beautiful as you?” Miyavi asked staring at his others face hardly believing that this guy could be his.
“Almost.” came the answer Miyavi had expected. Sugizo had warned him he was narcissistic but Miyavi hadn't realised at the time how much Sugizo meant it. The other looked in the mirror and loved what he saw, if he really thought he was the most beautiful man on earth Miyavi wasn't sure, but the other really was in love with himself.
Now really wasn't the time to talk, not when their stamina was running out and so Miyavi stopped thinking and just felt the other inside him unaware of the sounds that were escaping his lips making the other smile. When Sugizo came Miyavi allowed himself to cum too loving the fact they had finished together and hardly aware that Sugizo was gone, lying on the bed beside him with the same distance he had kept on that first time.
Not wanting to ruin everything by complaining Miyavi reached down and took Sugizo hand knowing it was going to be like this forever unless he did something about it. Sugizo was clearly the type who liked his personal space and Miyavi decided he'd respect that. You couldn't have everything and not hugging after sex was only a small sacrifice.
“Sugi, are you still awake?” Miyavi asked a few minutes later after rolling over and finding Sugizo lying still with his eyes shut and a smile on his lips.
“Yes.” came the answer as Sugizo opened his eyes but made no more effort to move.
“Do you see me as your boyfriend?” Miyavi asked. “I mean, is this relationship serious to you?”
“Far more than I wanted.” Sugizo admitted. “I know it was supposed to just be a test but...”
“Don't apologise, I want it to be real.” Miyavi admitted. “My biggest worry is that you don't feel the same way.”
“Then stop worrying, idiot.” Sugizo teased. “Be my boyfriend for real if it's what you want.”
“Is it what you want?” Miyavi asked.
“Stop being an idiot.” Sugizo muttered sleepily.
“Then it's OK if I tell my Mum?” Miyavi asked this time getting Sugizo's full attention.
“You want to tell her?” He asked sitting up and staring at Miyavi with surprise.
“I don't want to hide things from her. If I tell her I'm with a man she'll know it's you. Even if I tell her it's not. She might already know, my Mother has this habit off knowing things about me before I even know them myself.” Miyavi explained thinking about how his mother had smiled knowingly when he said he was going on holiday with Sugizo for the weekend. She knew all right and if he didn't tell her soon she was going to be hurt he was keeping secrets.
“If you think your Mother can keep it secret then I won't complain.” Sugizo decided after a long moment when he looked like he would say no. Even now he didn't sound sure but he had given his consent which was enough for Miyavi.
“She'll keep it secret.” Miyavi promised with a smile.
“OK.” Sugizo replied lying back down and this time Miyavi was sure he had fallen asleep.
Morning came and Miyavi woke up surprised that he had actually fallen asleep. He'd laid awake for ages just thinking but he must have slept because it was morning now and he was alone in the bed. Not sure where Sugizo was Miyavi sat up and looked around the room once more still taken back by just how rich Sugizo's family was. That had come as a shock and he couldn't help but picture the other in his fancy school uniform surprised at just how sexy he found that. He'd never been one to have such a fetish but when it came to Sugizo anything made him appear sexy. Speak, or think, of the devil and he would appear and sure enough Sugizo returned still naked from the night before and holding a bottle of water in his hand.
“Sleep well?” Sugizo asked as he got back into the bed and opened his drink and bringing it to his lips.
“Surprisingly well.” Miyavi admitted. “Considering the distraction.” he added taking the water out of Sugizo's hand and helping himself.
“And what distraction was that?” Sugizo asked though he knew the real answer.
“There was this bird...” Miyavi began but Sugizo was kissing him now and his lie remained unfinished.
“Have you ever tried archery?” Sugizo asked. “You'd be sexy with a bow and we have archery equipment here. I used to do a bit of it sometimes, not competitive but I liked pretending the target was people who had pissed me off.”
“No I've never tried. But I'm pro.” Miyavi informed Sugizo who laughed.
“Off course you are, after my lessons.” Sugizo replied. “We can go after breakfast if you like?”
“Sounds fun.” Miyavi agreed. “But I need a shower. You made me sleep in a filthy bed all night.”
“I made you?” Sugizo repeated. “Who was it screaming “Harder” every two seconds?”
“That was you.” Miyavi replied slipping out of the bed and opening the door to what he hoped was the en-suite bathroom.
He'd been in the shower maybe two minutes before Sugizo was behind him holding him close and simply feeling him up. It was nice and Miyavi allowed the other to rub soap all over him and even shampoo his hair. He hadn't been this pampered for a long time and really there was no need for Sugizo to kneel on the floor and begin licking his erection so eagerly. Not that he was complaining, far from it and with a moan Miyavi shut his eyes resisting his urge to force Sugizo to take in his entire length all at once.
Two fingers pushed at his entrance sliding in easily lubed with shower gel and Miyavi moaned louder loving this more than words could ever explain knowing this was fuel for Sugizo's ego and not caring at all. In Sugizo's eyes he was worthy to be with him and as much as Sugizo loved himself that stood for a lot. Miyavi couldn't help wonder just how many people Sugizo had dated that he had felt so strongly about, properly not a lot, the other had admitted he hadn't truly loved many of his past partners. Was he any different? He liked to think so but he couldn't push it. Sugizo was far from ready to confess his full feelings. It had been awkward just figuring out if they were really a couple now.
Sugizo's fingers began to thrust into him and Miyavi found himself clutching onto the shower fitting for balance as his legs just didn't seem enough to support him. He could hardly stand such intense pleasure and it only took a few minutes before he was warning Sugizo he was about to cum. The other had only just moved his lips away when he did and cum landed over Sugizo's chin washed away quickly by the powerful jet stream of the shower leaving them both deceptively clean. Miyavi wanted to return the favour but the other wasn't hard and even when he reached towards him Sugizo only stepped away with a smile.
“Today is your day.” Sugizo explained and then he was grabbing a towel and leaving Miyavi alone in the bathroom in the hot water that didn't seem so nice now Sugizo was gone. Deciding the shower was over Miyavi turned off the stream and grabbed a towel of his own glad Sugizo had arranged for there too be two and finding pleasure in just how warm and soft it was. Returning to the bedroom Miyavi found the closet door open and Sugizo inside the large room opening up his suitcase. There were still clothes hanging up here and Miyavi ignored his own case that Sugizo had arranged to be brought here ready for him, and began looking through the clothes with the same unreserved curiosity he had shown the night before. He found what he was looking for quickly, the others old school uniform just as fancy as it was shown in the pictures.
“You need too model this for me one day.” Miyavi informed Sugizo who was busy pulling on a pair of jeans.
“Why is that your fetish?” Sugizo asked not even teasing, just curious.
“Somehow when it's you anything can be my fetish.” Miyavi complained making Sugizo laugh.
“Well what's your fetish when you're not with me?” Sugizo asked. “If you don't mind sharing?”
His fetish? That made Miyavi think. With Melody he had always wanted her to put on strap on and pleasure him that way but he had never asked and that wasn't really a fetish when what he had already done with Sugizo wasn't much different.
“I guess I just like seeing you in sexy outfits.” Miyavi answered.
“So no toys? Bondage? Cream?” Sugizo asked all three sounding tempting to Miyavi.
“We could try toys.” Miyavi suggested blushing slightly, he wasn't entirely comfortable admitting how much he loved things inside him though he knew Sugizo could tell.
“Later we'll go to the shops, I was going to treat you to dinner again anyway. I'll buy a few secret things for later.” Sugizo replied with a cocky grin. He was planning something but Miyavi didn't want to know, it would ruin the surprise.
“I'll buy dinner.” Miyavi corrected and Sugizo didn't argue. “Do you have a fetish?”
“Yes.” Sugizo replied. “That's really why I was asking you. I need your permission to be comfortable acting on mine.”
“Is it bad?” Miyavi asked.
“Depends.” Sugizo replied. “How do you feel about someone touching you without you knowing? I like to make my partners orgasm while they sleep, without waking them. It's like a game really and I've been told it makes people have the most erotic dreams. Some of the things people dream while I play with them. But I need your permission. So don't worry I haven't done this to you.”
“You have my permission.” Miyavi replied easily. “I trust you.”
“It'll be no more than what I did in the shower.” Sugizo promised. “But you have to tell me what you dreamed about, especially if it's erotic. People have the most interesting secret fantasies.”
“If I have a erotic dream I'll let you know.” Miyavi promised a little uncomfortable and a little excited about what Sugizo had planned for him. Sugizo was obviously far more sexually confident than he was but he kind of liked that, it somehow made it easier to admit to what he wanted, if only he could decide what that was.
Rating: 18
Bands: Sugizo, Miyavi as well as various others.
Pairing: Sugizo x Miyavi
Summary: What do you do when your life falls apart around you and there is nothing left but broken pieces of what was? How do you rebuild when the pieces left behind no longer create the picture from before? Will the pieces that remain ever become anything of significance? You have to hope that the pieces can become a new whole because otherwise there would be no reason to go on but who said you had to reassemble your life alone?
Previous Chapters
Chapter Fourteen
Despite having grown somewhat used to the sensation of someone inside him Miyavi realised that it never ceased to feel any less amazing. Every time Sugizo was inside him it felt like the rest of the world had disappeared leaving just the two of them and intense pleasure that filled every part of him and remained even after Sugizo was gone. He never grew tired of being with Sugizo, had never felt like he was just going along with this to please the other and was never made to feel used. It was frightening how much he adored his lover, but he felt that perhaps he had the upper hand in this relationship because as much as he needed Sugizo, the other needed him even more.
A light moan escaped Miyavi's lips as Sugizo hit his sweet spot and he reached up dragging Sugizo down into a hug, wrapping his legs around the other as he did so. They'd been in bed together for god knew how long and this was the fourth time Sugizo had been inside him. They were tiring now, their lust finally subsiding but somehow that made this time the best.
“You're so beautiful.” Sugizo whispered as he kept his pace despite how exhausted the other clearly was. “Like an angel.”
“As beautiful as you?” Miyavi asked staring at his others face hardly believing that this guy could be his.
“Almost.” came the answer Miyavi had expected. Sugizo had warned him he was narcissistic but Miyavi hadn't realised at the time how much Sugizo meant it. The other looked in the mirror and loved what he saw, if he really thought he was the most beautiful man on earth Miyavi wasn't sure, but the other really was in love with himself.
Now really wasn't the time to talk, not when their stamina was running out and so Miyavi stopped thinking and just felt the other inside him unaware of the sounds that were escaping his lips making the other smile. When Sugizo came Miyavi allowed himself to cum too loving the fact they had finished together and hardly aware that Sugizo was gone, lying on the bed beside him with the same distance he had kept on that first time.
Not wanting to ruin everything by complaining Miyavi reached down and took Sugizo hand knowing it was going to be like this forever unless he did something about it. Sugizo was clearly the type who liked his personal space and Miyavi decided he'd respect that. You couldn't have everything and not hugging after sex was only a small sacrifice.
“Sugi, are you still awake?” Miyavi asked a few minutes later after rolling over and finding Sugizo lying still with his eyes shut and a smile on his lips.
“Yes.” came the answer as Sugizo opened his eyes but made no more effort to move.
“Do you see me as your boyfriend?” Miyavi asked. “I mean, is this relationship serious to you?”
“Far more than I wanted.” Sugizo admitted. “I know it was supposed to just be a test but...”
“Don't apologise, I want it to be real.” Miyavi admitted. “My biggest worry is that you don't feel the same way.”
“Then stop worrying, idiot.” Sugizo teased. “Be my boyfriend for real if it's what you want.”
“Is it what you want?” Miyavi asked.
“Stop being an idiot.” Sugizo muttered sleepily.
“Then it's OK if I tell my Mum?” Miyavi asked this time getting Sugizo's full attention.
“You want to tell her?” He asked sitting up and staring at Miyavi with surprise.
“I don't want to hide things from her. If I tell her I'm with a man she'll know it's you. Even if I tell her it's not. She might already know, my Mother has this habit off knowing things about me before I even know them myself.” Miyavi explained thinking about how his mother had smiled knowingly when he said he was going on holiday with Sugizo for the weekend. She knew all right and if he didn't tell her soon she was going to be hurt he was keeping secrets.
“If you think your Mother can keep it secret then I won't complain.” Sugizo decided after a long moment when he looked like he would say no. Even now he didn't sound sure but he had given his consent which was enough for Miyavi.
“She'll keep it secret.” Miyavi promised with a smile.
“OK.” Sugizo replied lying back down and this time Miyavi was sure he had fallen asleep.
Morning came and Miyavi woke up surprised that he had actually fallen asleep. He'd laid awake for ages just thinking but he must have slept because it was morning now and he was alone in the bed. Not sure where Sugizo was Miyavi sat up and looked around the room once more still taken back by just how rich Sugizo's family was. That had come as a shock and he couldn't help but picture the other in his fancy school uniform surprised at just how sexy he found that. He'd never been one to have such a fetish but when it came to Sugizo anything made him appear sexy. Speak, or think, of the devil and he would appear and sure enough Sugizo returned still naked from the night before and holding a bottle of water in his hand.
“Sleep well?” Sugizo asked as he got back into the bed and opened his drink and bringing it to his lips.
“Surprisingly well.” Miyavi admitted. “Considering the distraction.” he added taking the water out of Sugizo's hand and helping himself.
“And what distraction was that?” Sugizo asked though he knew the real answer.
“There was this bird...” Miyavi began but Sugizo was kissing him now and his lie remained unfinished.
“Have you ever tried archery?” Sugizo asked. “You'd be sexy with a bow and we have archery equipment here. I used to do a bit of it sometimes, not competitive but I liked pretending the target was people who had pissed me off.”
“No I've never tried. But I'm pro.” Miyavi informed Sugizo who laughed.
“Off course you are, after my lessons.” Sugizo replied. “We can go after breakfast if you like?”
“Sounds fun.” Miyavi agreed. “But I need a shower. You made me sleep in a filthy bed all night.”
“I made you?” Sugizo repeated. “Who was it screaming “Harder” every two seconds?”
“That was you.” Miyavi replied slipping out of the bed and opening the door to what he hoped was the en-suite bathroom.
He'd been in the shower maybe two minutes before Sugizo was behind him holding him close and simply feeling him up. It was nice and Miyavi allowed the other to rub soap all over him and even shampoo his hair. He hadn't been this pampered for a long time and really there was no need for Sugizo to kneel on the floor and begin licking his erection so eagerly. Not that he was complaining, far from it and with a moan Miyavi shut his eyes resisting his urge to force Sugizo to take in his entire length all at once.
Two fingers pushed at his entrance sliding in easily lubed with shower gel and Miyavi moaned louder loving this more than words could ever explain knowing this was fuel for Sugizo's ego and not caring at all. In Sugizo's eyes he was worthy to be with him and as much as Sugizo loved himself that stood for a lot. Miyavi couldn't help wonder just how many people Sugizo had dated that he had felt so strongly about, properly not a lot, the other had admitted he hadn't truly loved many of his past partners. Was he any different? He liked to think so but he couldn't push it. Sugizo was far from ready to confess his full feelings. It had been awkward just figuring out if they were really a couple now.
Sugizo's fingers began to thrust into him and Miyavi found himself clutching onto the shower fitting for balance as his legs just didn't seem enough to support him. He could hardly stand such intense pleasure and it only took a few minutes before he was warning Sugizo he was about to cum. The other had only just moved his lips away when he did and cum landed over Sugizo's chin washed away quickly by the powerful jet stream of the shower leaving them both deceptively clean. Miyavi wanted to return the favour but the other wasn't hard and even when he reached towards him Sugizo only stepped away with a smile.
“Today is your day.” Sugizo explained and then he was grabbing a towel and leaving Miyavi alone in the bathroom in the hot water that didn't seem so nice now Sugizo was gone. Deciding the shower was over Miyavi turned off the stream and grabbed a towel of his own glad Sugizo had arranged for there too be two and finding pleasure in just how warm and soft it was. Returning to the bedroom Miyavi found the closet door open and Sugizo inside the large room opening up his suitcase. There were still clothes hanging up here and Miyavi ignored his own case that Sugizo had arranged to be brought here ready for him, and began looking through the clothes with the same unreserved curiosity he had shown the night before. He found what he was looking for quickly, the others old school uniform just as fancy as it was shown in the pictures.
“You need too model this for me one day.” Miyavi informed Sugizo who was busy pulling on a pair of jeans.
“Why is that your fetish?” Sugizo asked not even teasing, just curious.
“Somehow when it's you anything can be my fetish.” Miyavi complained making Sugizo laugh.
“Well what's your fetish when you're not with me?” Sugizo asked. “If you don't mind sharing?”
His fetish? That made Miyavi think. With Melody he had always wanted her to put on strap on and pleasure him that way but he had never asked and that wasn't really a fetish when what he had already done with Sugizo wasn't much different.
“I guess I just like seeing you in sexy outfits.” Miyavi answered.
“So no toys? Bondage? Cream?” Sugizo asked all three sounding tempting to Miyavi.
“We could try toys.” Miyavi suggested blushing slightly, he wasn't entirely comfortable admitting how much he loved things inside him though he knew Sugizo could tell.
“Later we'll go to the shops, I was going to treat you to dinner again anyway. I'll buy a few secret things for later.” Sugizo replied with a cocky grin. He was planning something but Miyavi didn't want to know, it would ruin the surprise.
“I'll buy dinner.” Miyavi corrected and Sugizo didn't argue. “Do you have a fetish?”
“Yes.” Sugizo replied. “That's really why I was asking you. I need your permission to be comfortable acting on mine.”
“Is it bad?” Miyavi asked.
“Depends.” Sugizo replied. “How do you feel about someone touching you without you knowing? I like to make my partners orgasm while they sleep, without waking them. It's like a game really and I've been told it makes people have the most erotic dreams. Some of the things people dream while I play with them. But I need your permission. So don't worry I haven't done this to you.”
“You have my permission.” Miyavi replied easily. “I trust you.”
“It'll be no more than what I did in the shower.” Sugizo promised. “But you have to tell me what you dreamed about, especially if it's erotic. People have the most interesting secret fantasies.”
“If I have a erotic dream I'll let you know.” Miyavi promised a little uncomfortable and a little excited about what Sugizo had planned for him. Sugizo was obviously far more sexually confident than he was but he kind of liked that, it somehow made it easier to admit to what he wanted, if only he could decide what that was.