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Title: Pieces
Rating: 18
Bands: Sugizo, Miyavi as well as various others.
Pairing: Sugizo x Miyavi
Summary: What do you do when your life falls apart around you and there is nothing left but broken pieces of what was? How do you rebuild when the pieces left behind no longer create the picture from before? Will the pieces that remain ever become anything of significance? You have to hope that the pieces can become a new whole because otherwise there would be no reason to go on but who said you had to reassemble your life alone?
Previous Chapters
Chapter Eleven
Sugizo felt his heart race as Miyavi waited on all fours on the bed, they'd fooled around a bit first, getting used to being together and just seeing each other naked but now they were ready for the next step and it was a big one. ~Here Miyavi was, on his bed naked and eager and Sugizo felt like the happiest man in the world. Somehow this was easier than giving Miyavi a blow job, maybe because he'd had a few girls who had bent over for him like this before. Well at least he had some idea what he was doing and so carefully he slid his lube coated middle finger into Miyavi, slowly moving it around realising already Miyavi was going to be tighter than any girl he had taken before. Well clearly the girls he had weren't anal virgins, though one had claimed as much, and Sugizo felt a thrill he hadn't had since he was a teenager, he was going to take Miyavi's virginity.
“Let me know when you're ready for more.” Sugizo whispered running his free hand lightly down Miyavi's spine smiling as the other trembled in anticipation.
“Tease.” Miyavi complained making Sugizo laugh, here he was trying to be gentle but Miyavi was having none of it. Well this was the last time he was going to treat the other like a girl and without hesitation Sugizo slid in a second finger instantly beginning to scissor his fingers apart stretching his younger partner and making him groan. Even despite his vocal protests Miyavi's hips came up craving more and so Sugizo began to thrust his fingers with quick strong movements totally hypnotised by the way Miyavi's body reacted to this intrusion.
“More... please...” Miyavi got out between gasps of pleasure and eager to please Sugizo slid in a third finger aware of just how tight Miyavi was. The other must be in pain, he was even groaning from it, and yet he seemed to love this intrusion. Sugizo could hardly understand this but if it got Miyavi going then so be it, he was damn sexy like this desperate for anal pleasure.
Sugizo too was desperate and unable to wait he stopped his preparation and pulled on a condom sensing Miyavi's eyes on him as he liberally coated his desperate erection with lube. This had been what he wanted all this time, all these years he had known he was bisexual and yet resisted his instincts, but now he was going to take it.
Feeling like a horny teenager again Sugizo slid his length into Miyavi moaning as the tight heat wet from lube surrounded his sensitive flesh making both men moan. This was it, they'd crossed a line but neither of them seemed bothered and Sugizo happily accepted the part of him that was loving this.
“mmm Sugizo, don't be too gentle.” Miyavi warned and smirking almost cruelly Sugizo grabbed Miyavi's hips and slammed into his partner making the other groan.
“I won't be gentle unless you ask.” Sugizo promised taking up a comfortable pace as he got used to being inside his friend. It took a few minutes but Sugizo found the spot which really made Miyavi lose control and he aimed for it with every forward thrust feeling the other tremble and shake, hearing his moans that now seemed to contain far more pleasure than pain. Yet it was the visuals that got him, that tanned, tattoo covered skin glistening with sweat, Miyavi's long black ponytail falling to one side, the way Miyavi's ass looked so smooth and perfect before him. All these sensations seemed to wrap around Sugizo and then he was cuming filling the condom with his seed and pulling out rather reluctantly.
“That was great.” Miyavi gasped grinning as Sugizo pulled off the rubber, his eyes lit up with a devilish glint as he pushed Sugizo down onto the bed and parted the others thighs. Now this was something he hadn't signed up for and wasn't sure he wanted. It was one thing taking Miyavi up the ass but now it was the other way round he wanted to refuse. He didn't though, that would hardly be fair and so he made no protest as Miyavi reached for the lube and began preparing him.
It felt strange at first, having a foreign object where it didn't belong, but it was strange in a nice way and Sugizo settled back deciding he kind of liked this. Sure it did feel like loosing some of his masculinity but he realised he no longer cared about that kind of thing.
His eyes shut as Miyavi worked on him and he realised he was letting out soft moans, barely audible but certainly there. This was more than nice, it was amazing and Sugizo felt like the luckiest man in the world to be here with Miyavi right now, and then Miyavi found his prostrate.
How to describe that sensation? It was like being in terrible pain only to suddenly have it been taken away, being exhausted to the point of collapse and then being rejuvenated in an instance, like being starving and then offered your favourite meal. No wonder Miyavi had loved this so much and Sugizo realised he was being as eager as Miyavi had been before.
“Is it wrong I'm jealous?” Miyavi teased.
“Totally, you had your turn.” Sugizo replied and Miyavi laughed before kissing him.
“Is that how it is?” Miyavi asked reach for the box of condoms and pulling one out. He tore open the packet with the teeth, another visual stimulator that would visit Sugizo in many long lonely showers to come.
Sugizo took the condom from Miyavi admiring the others length that was perfectly proportioned to the others height before sliding the condom on finding absolutely no embarrassment in his desire to touch Miyavi in this most intimate place. There simply were no rules or boundaries between them any more and so when Miyavi penetrated him he found no shame in his moan of pleasure.
Sugizo was a lot quieter than Miyavi had been but that didn't mean it wasn't obvious he was enjoying himself, whenever Miyavi slowed Sugizo told him to go quicker and his hands never stopped running over Miyavi's body feeling the smooth skin and realising that he was already ready to penetrate the other again.
Miyavi must have been thinking similar thoughts because his hand was reaching for the condoms and taking the last he slid it onto Sugizo's eager length before pulling out and pushing himself down over his somewhat stunned partner. Just this was enough to finish Miyavi off and he came before he could even begin moving over Sugizo taking the other slowly but with such need in his eyes Sugizo would have felt bad not to give the other exactly what he craved.
“Mmm Sugi, I swear I was born to be riding you like this.” Miyavi got out as he used Sugizo for his own pleasure, his movements slow but every one hitting his prostrate and filling him with intense pleasure that was clearly visible to Sugizo.
“Well I won't complain.” Sugizo replied laughing as he took in this scene locking it in his memory for a life time. Together they lasted a long time like this until Sugizo finally came, all his trapped desires spilling out and filling the condom as Miyavi collapsed onto the bed beside him clearly exhausted.
Gently removing the condom on his length Sugizo quickly finished Miyavi off before removing the condom that still coated the others length and threw them into his bin before laying beside Miyavi finally content to be beside the other without the constant cry to touch him, to make love to him. For once his sexual desire was sated but that wouldn't last. It never did.
“Sugi?” Miyavi asked. “Is everything OK?”
“Of course.” Sugizo replied before realising he was just lying here, grinning at the ceiling as his partner lay beside him confused, perhaps because he hadn't vocally enjoyed this in the same way Miyavi had. He never had been the type to hug someone after sex, only participating in this ritual when a girl moved against him, and he didn't really want to start doing this with Miyavi. He needed his space after such intimate contact but Miyavi was clearly hurt by this so he reached down and took Miyavi's hand in his just to let the other know he cared.
“Sugi, do you think less of me... for loving anal so much?” Miyavi asked, his confidence from before gone.
“No, I get it. I let you take me didn't I?” Sugizo asked.
“Yes but..” Miyavi began before trailing off.
“I like fucking your ass, you like taking it. To me that sounds perfect.” Sugizo described, a little too matter of fact perhaps but that was how he tended to be in such matters.
“It just feels so damn good.” Miyavi explained.
“Well it is nice.” Sugizo agreed. “I never thought I could enjoy another man inside me like that, but I was surprised at just how good it feels.”
“Can it only be you who knows I'm your girl?” Miyavi asked and Sugizo was startled to realise just how insecure Miyavi was feeling right now. “Even if we come out to the world.”
“Nothing that happens between us gets shared, not even that.” Sugizo promised rolling onto his side so he could give Miyavi a gentle kiss. “I won't do anything that risks loosing you. You're perfect in every way and don't even care about my past.”
“No I do care.” Miyavi admitted. “I worry you might relapse, that we'll both get hurt. But I decided to trust that won't happen. To not care about your past would be to not care about you. What you did was stupid, but you're not that Sugizo any more. That's why I can be with you now.”
“I'll stay this Sugizo.” Sugizo found himself promising. “For Luna and now for you.”
“But not yourself?” Miyavi asked.
“I always love myself.” Sugizo admitted.
“I wish I had that confidence.” Miyavi sighed as he sat up and stretched before realising how late it had got. “Damn, I'll have to leave to pick my girls up from school in twenty minutes.”
“So soon?” Sugizo complained but Miyavi was right, the last few hours really had just disappeared. “Well let's get you showed off.”
“Really, I don't have time for that kind of thing.” Miyavi complained but as it turned out it was possible for two men to shower and get each other off in twenty minutes, even leaving them just enough time to get dressed and rush out of the door.
So OK, Sugizo should have let Miyavi leave and get his girls but he couldn't. He wanted to be with Miyavi permanently and so he had invited himself along to collect the two girls embracing the cold wet day as if it was the most beautiful day in the world. Miyavi seemed happy to have him here and whilst he couldn't touch the other, couldn't talk to him as anything more than a friend, to Sugizo this was enough. He realised that Miyavi was his friend first, his lover second and this was rather startling to the older man who had always kept his lovers and friends separate. Perhaps it was because he'd been such good friends with Miyavi first that made the difference or maybe just because they were both guys made it so easy to just hang out.
Lovelie and Jewelie were delighted to see him, especially after Sugizo told them he was treating everyone to a trip to the shops to buy art supplies for Lovelie's school project and then a early dinner. This he hadn't shared with Miyavi and the other was bound to put up a protest about him buying him a meal but that was just tough. If you slept with Sugizo you got dinner and Miyavi would soon learn his new lover didn't take no as an answer.
Rating: 18
Bands: Sugizo, Miyavi as well as various others.
Pairing: Sugizo x Miyavi
Summary: What do you do when your life falls apart around you and there is nothing left but broken pieces of what was? How do you rebuild when the pieces left behind no longer create the picture from before? Will the pieces that remain ever become anything of significance? You have to hope that the pieces can become a new whole because otherwise there would be no reason to go on but who said you had to reassemble your life alone?
Previous Chapters
Chapter Eleven
Sugizo felt his heart race as Miyavi waited on all fours on the bed, they'd fooled around a bit first, getting used to being together and just seeing each other naked but now they were ready for the next step and it was a big one. ~Here Miyavi was, on his bed naked and eager and Sugizo felt like the happiest man in the world. Somehow this was easier than giving Miyavi a blow job, maybe because he'd had a few girls who had bent over for him like this before. Well at least he had some idea what he was doing and so carefully he slid his lube coated middle finger into Miyavi, slowly moving it around realising already Miyavi was going to be tighter than any girl he had taken before. Well clearly the girls he had weren't anal virgins, though one had claimed as much, and Sugizo felt a thrill he hadn't had since he was a teenager, he was going to take Miyavi's virginity.
“Let me know when you're ready for more.” Sugizo whispered running his free hand lightly down Miyavi's spine smiling as the other trembled in anticipation.
“Tease.” Miyavi complained making Sugizo laugh, here he was trying to be gentle but Miyavi was having none of it. Well this was the last time he was going to treat the other like a girl and without hesitation Sugizo slid in a second finger instantly beginning to scissor his fingers apart stretching his younger partner and making him groan. Even despite his vocal protests Miyavi's hips came up craving more and so Sugizo began to thrust his fingers with quick strong movements totally hypnotised by the way Miyavi's body reacted to this intrusion.
“More... please...” Miyavi got out between gasps of pleasure and eager to please Sugizo slid in a third finger aware of just how tight Miyavi was. The other must be in pain, he was even groaning from it, and yet he seemed to love this intrusion. Sugizo could hardly understand this but if it got Miyavi going then so be it, he was damn sexy like this desperate for anal pleasure.
Sugizo too was desperate and unable to wait he stopped his preparation and pulled on a condom sensing Miyavi's eyes on him as he liberally coated his desperate erection with lube. This had been what he wanted all this time, all these years he had known he was bisexual and yet resisted his instincts, but now he was going to take it.
Feeling like a horny teenager again Sugizo slid his length into Miyavi moaning as the tight heat wet from lube surrounded his sensitive flesh making both men moan. This was it, they'd crossed a line but neither of them seemed bothered and Sugizo happily accepted the part of him that was loving this.
“mmm Sugizo, don't be too gentle.” Miyavi warned and smirking almost cruelly Sugizo grabbed Miyavi's hips and slammed into his partner making the other groan.
“I won't be gentle unless you ask.” Sugizo promised taking up a comfortable pace as he got used to being inside his friend. It took a few minutes but Sugizo found the spot which really made Miyavi lose control and he aimed for it with every forward thrust feeling the other tremble and shake, hearing his moans that now seemed to contain far more pleasure than pain. Yet it was the visuals that got him, that tanned, tattoo covered skin glistening with sweat, Miyavi's long black ponytail falling to one side, the way Miyavi's ass looked so smooth and perfect before him. All these sensations seemed to wrap around Sugizo and then he was cuming filling the condom with his seed and pulling out rather reluctantly.
“That was great.” Miyavi gasped grinning as Sugizo pulled off the rubber, his eyes lit up with a devilish glint as he pushed Sugizo down onto the bed and parted the others thighs. Now this was something he hadn't signed up for and wasn't sure he wanted. It was one thing taking Miyavi up the ass but now it was the other way round he wanted to refuse. He didn't though, that would hardly be fair and so he made no protest as Miyavi reached for the lube and began preparing him.
It felt strange at first, having a foreign object where it didn't belong, but it was strange in a nice way and Sugizo settled back deciding he kind of liked this. Sure it did feel like loosing some of his masculinity but he realised he no longer cared about that kind of thing.
His eyes shut as Miyavi worked on him and he realised he was letting out soft moans, barely audible but certainly there. This was more than nice, it was amazing and Sugizo felt like the luckiest man in the world to be here with Miyavi right now, and then Miyavi found his prostrate.
How to describe that sensation? It was like being in terrible pain only to suddenly have it been taken away, being exhausted to the point of collapse and then being rejuvenated in an instance, like being starving and then offered your favourite meal. No wonder Miyavi had loved this so much and Sugizo realised he was being as eager as Miyavi had been before.
“Is it wrong I'm jealous?” Miyavi teased.
“Totally, you had your turn.” Sugizo replied and Miyavi laughed before kissing him.
“Is that how it is?” Miyavi asked reach for the box of condoms and pulling one out. He tore open the packet with the teeth, another visual stimulator that would visit Sugizo in many long lonely showers to come.
Sugizo took the condom from Miyavi admiring the others length that was perfectly proportioned to the others height before sliding the condom on finding absolutely no embarrassment in his desire to touch Miyavi in this most intimate place. There simply were no rules or boundaries between them any more and so when Miyavi penetrated him he found no shame in his moan of pleasure.
Sugizo was a lot quieter than Miyavi had been but that didn't mean it wasn't obvious he was enjoying himself, whenever Miyavi slowed Sugizo told him to go quicker and his hands never stopped running over Miyavi's body feeling the smooth skin and realising that he was already ready to penetrate the other again.
Miyavi must have been thinking similar thoughts because his hand was reaching for the condoms and taking the last he slid it onto Sugizo's eager length before pulling out and pushing himself down over his somewhat stunned partner. Just this was enough to finish Miyavi off and he came before he could even begin moving over Sugizo taking the other slowly but with such need in his eyes Sugizo would have felt bad not to give the other exactly what he craved.
“Mmm Sugi, I swear I was born to be riding you like this.” Miyavi got out as he used Sugizo for his own pleasure, his movements slow but every one hitting his prostrate and filling him with intense pleasure that was clearly visible to Sugizo.
“Well I won't complain.” Sugizo replied laughing as he took in this scene locking it in his memory for a life time. Together they lasted a long time like this until Sugizo finally came, all his trapped desires spilling out and filling the condom as Miyavi collapsed onto the bed beside him clearly exhausted.
Gently removing the condom on his length Sugizo quickly finished Miyavi off before removing the condom that still coated the others length and threw them into his bin before laying beside Miyavi finally content to be beside the other without the constant cry to touch him, to make love to him. For once his sexual desire was sated but that wouldn't last. It never did.
“Sugi?” Miyavi asked. “Is everything OK?”
“Of course.” Sugizo replied before realising he was just lying here, grinning at the ceiling as his partner lay beside him confused, perhaps because he hadn't vocally enjoyed this in the same way Miyavi had. He never had been the type to hug someone after sex, only participating in this ritual when a girl moved against him, and he didn't really want to start doing this with Miyavi. He needed his space after such intimate contact but Miyavi was clearly hurt by this so he reached down and took Miyavi's hand in his just to let the other know he cared.
“Sugi, do you think less of me... for loving anal so much?” Miyavi asked, his confidence from before gone.
“No, I get it. I let you take me didn't I?” Sugizo asked.
“Yes but..” Miyavi began before trailing off.
“I like fucking your ass, you like taking it. To me that sounds perfect.” Sugizo described, a little too matter of fact perhaps but that was how he tended to be in such matters.
“It just feels so damn good.” Miyavi explained.
“Well it is nice.” Sugizo agreed. “I never thought I could enjoy another man inside me like that, but I was surprised at just how good it feels.”
“Can it only be you who knows I'm your girl?” Miyavi asked and Sugizo was startled to realise just how insecure Miyavi was feeling right now. “Even if we come out to the world.”
“Nothing that happens between us gets shared, not even that.” Sugizo promised rolling onto his side so he could give Miyavi a gentle kiss. “I won't do anything that risks loosing you. You're perfect in every way and don't even care about my past.”
“No I do care.” Miyavi admitted. “I worry you might relapse, that we'll both get hurt. But I decided to trust that won't happen. To not care about your past would be to not care about you. What you did was stupid, but you're not that Sugizo any more. That's why I can be with you now.”
“I'll stay this Sugizo.” Sugizo found himself promising. “For Luna and now for you.”
“But not yourself?” Miyavi asked.
“I always love myself.” Sugizo admitted.
“I wish I had that confidence.” Miyavi sighed as he sat up and stretched before realising how late it had got. “Damn, I'll have to leave to pick my girls up from school in twenty minutes.”
“So soon?” Sugizo complained but Miyavi was right, the last few hours really had just disappeared. “Well let's get you showed off.”
“Really, I don't have time for that kind of thing.” Miyavi complained but as it turned out it was possible for two men to shower and get each other off in twenty minutes, even leaving them just enough time to get dressed and rush out of the door.
So OK, Sugizo should have let Miyavi leave and get his girls but he couldn't. He wanted to be with Miyavi permanently and so he had invited himself along to collect the two girls embracing the cold wet day as if it was the most beautiful day in the world. Miyavi seemed happy to have him here and whilst he couldn't touch the other, couldn't talk to him as anything more than a friend, to Sugizo this was enough. He realised that Miyavi was his friend first, his lover second and this was rather startling to the older man who had always kept his lovers and friends separate. Perhaps it was because he'd been such good friends with Miyavi first that made the difference or maybe just because they were both guys made it so easy to just hang out.
Lovelie and Jewelie were delighted to see him, especially after Sugizo told them he was treating everyone to a trip to the shops to buy art supplies for Lovelie's school project and then a early dinner. This he hadn't shared with Miyavi and the other was bound to put up a protest about him buying him a meal but that was just tough. If you slept with Sugizo you got dinner and Miyavi would soon learn his new lover didn't take no as an answer.