depressed
Alright ill start with good news. I had Jesse and Becky over on Friday. We had a grand time,although i think Jesse was bored.We talked and stuff.They set up my Barbie scene and then we talked about mini bikes and Becky drew one on my wall.The we had Mr.Noodles...and then pizza came and we ate downstairs.I talked about the kids and Jesse seemes exstatic about me having a bar.Then all of a sudden...THE BONGOS!!!!!! she was playing them and we all ran out to hear them jammin!Jesse started laughing so hard i thought he was going to pee his pants!Then we started dancing and the slut yelled across the street "Yea come dance for us!"...im thinking "no you nasty old slut bag!"then we drove them home and we talked about it the whole time.Lol.Well i like Jesse again..i dont think i ever didnt...but yea. I was thinking about asking him out on this date ...but then the current events changed things..Maybe il talk about it with Jesse....mybe hell make me feel better.
Onto the current events....My mom and jim are breaking up.We have to sell the house and i have to paint over all my beautiful artwork on my walls.i feel like its all my fault ciz i used to talk bad aabout jim and the kids all the time and i dont want my mom to be unhappy anymore.But we have to sell the house...and where are we going to live?How can we pay for stuff? i dont know.....now we arent having that thanksgiving...and all the stuff we have to decide who gets....and moms not going to have enough money to get a nice house.....what if jim screws her over?What happened while i wasnt there? Did Jim hurt her? did he yell at her? did he scream "get out of my house" like he always does?Did he break anything?i huess its better i wasnt here...or i wouldve stabbed him.Literally.I feel so upset...and i just want to cry on someones shoulder....and i really want a bf or something to tell me that they love me and that theyare there for me and that everything will be okay.i really wish i was dating someone...i dunno...i just cant stand being lonely..and depressed and having no place to go.im so scared.....
Onto the current events....My mom and jim are breaking up.We have to sell the house and i have to paint over all my beautiful artwork on my walls.i feel like its all my fault ciz i used to talk bad aabout jim and the kids all the time and i dont want my mom to be unhappy anymore.But we have to sell the house...and where are we going to live?How can we pay for stuff? i dont know.....now we arent having that thanksgiving...and all the stuff we have to decide who gets....and moms not going to have enough money to get a nice house.....what if jim screws her over?What happened while i wasnt there? Did Jim hurt her? did he yell at her? did he scream "get out of my house" like he always does?Did he break anything?i huess its better i wasnt here...or i wouldve stabbed him.Literally.I feel so upset...and i just want to cry on someones shoulder....and i really want a bf or something to tell me that they love me and that theyare there for me and that everything will be okay.i really wish i was dating someone...i dunno...i just cant stand being lonely..and depressed and having no place to go.im so scared.....