swaying
well from reading over my last journal post it looks like I'm pretty much still in the same boat. I cant be bothered with this confusion any more. You clearly don't feel the same way about me as I do about you, even though that's what you said - actions speak louder than words. You have no passion or desire to care for me at all. And its crazy, because I really really like you and hoped that it would go somewhere. But it doesn't look like that's what you want. That's two months now that we've been seeing each other and it feels like no progress has been made. We're still in the same place as we were then. This is so so hard for me to walk away from as I am crazy about you, but everyone keeps telling me I deserve better and I know deep down that they're right. You had a golden opportunity last week to step up to the plate and be there for me, but you were nowhere to be seen. I don't know what to say to you to make you see how this feels for me. You don't really know anything about me - big things or little things. And it's like you have no interest in getting to know those things either.
My phone just got a text and my heart nearly stopped thinking it was you. Or hoping it was.
I cant stand this anymore, but I just dont know how to stop it. I really want to talk to you about it but you never give me the opportunity. I am crazy about you but it feels like you're keeping me at arms length, so I can't let you in either. When i think about it, it seems like you just want something casual and a bit of fun, even though you did introduce me to your friends. Apparently thats not something you would normally do, and you wouldn't introduce just any girl to your friends. Then how come everything else doesnt match up with that?
I am so confused :( Wish I could just get you out of my head. Goodbye.
My phone just got a text and my heart nearly stopped thinking it was you. Or hoping it was.
I cant stand this anymore, but I just dont know how to stop it. I really want to talk to you about it but you never give me the opportunity. I am crazy about you but it feels like you're keeping me at arms length, so I can't let you in either. When i think about it, it seems like you just want something casual and a bit of fun, even though you did introduce me to your friends. Apparently thats not something you would normally do, and you wouldn't introduce just any girl to your friends. Then how come everything else doesnt match up with that?
I am so confused :( Wish I could just get you out of my head. Goodbye.