boys are confusing

[vampire_kiss14]

I dont know whats going on. We both had a great time last night, and we finally knew where we stood. I felt so excited and happy, it helped clarify my feelings and made me want to persue things. Then my friend at work put all these doubts in my head today, saying that he thinks I deserve much better and that you aren't making enough effort for me. He basically thinks you're a dick. Now I don't know what to think. Part of me thinks that because I really like you, I shouldnt listen to what other people say. But another part of me thinks there might be some truth in what he is saying, when I think back on all the things that have happened. But then you apologised for not calling me all week and said you didn't mean to be a dick but you just like to be on your own sometimes. I can understand that, and that is totally ok. But it doesn't mean you couldn't have sent me a wee text just to say hello and maintain contact. When we're together you're all over me and really want to be with me, but its a totally different story when we're apart. I need someone who is reliable and consistent, sensitive and supportive. You don't know anything about me or what I've been through, but that shouldn't be the reason to treat me right. I should be treated properly based on my personality, and then treated extra specially because of what has happened. I don't think you're capable of that, from what I've seen so far. And its a shame because I really like you and I would have cared about you so much and supported you whenever you needed it. But it looks like you'll probably never get to know. I don't want to be messed around. I've been in a relationship before where I was the one making all the effort and I swore I'd never let myself end up in that situation again. At the start of when you begin seeing someone is supposed to be when you make the most effort because you're trying to impress them. Part of me likes the fact that you are so comfortable with yourself that you don't feel the need to put on a facade, but on the other hand it makes me feel like you don't think I'm worth the effort. You are a complete fool if you can't see that, and if you don't up your game like you said you would, then you will miss out - big time. 
Sort of feels like I've answered my own dilemma.
I hate that I will have to explain to everyone what has happened. Well I suppose I don't have to, but they will want to know.
Every girl deserves to feel special. Especially this one.