One Person Team problems
Mon, then wed asked for space...
We have been seeing each other less and less.... And whenever i am around him, i feel like im interacting with someone i barely know again...like i dont feel as close, intimate or affectionate.
I tried telling him about it.... But once again...a nonreceptive audience. And the effect of that was I no longer want to continue talking to someone that makes the communication process so pointless....
Acted like a jerk...
and his apology was sorry for acting like someone witn ADHD...
He wants ask me questions when its something bad that's got me stressed up and upset.....this is when he wants to play twenty questions lol and get curious !
When I need comforting ...he ask questions... Insensitive
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Life was simpler alone.
Life was easier alone.
Last Thursday...something simple as well...got overcomplicated and turned into a prolonged annoyance all the way to today...five days...
All because I called to get a referral for a provider for a therapist and psychiatrist....
I felt the pressure cooker reaching its lid...and needed to unwind my self.... I've been hesitant since Linda...and I miss seeing Liza...:( she's so quirky...and not hard to talk to...
I know I'm really depressed....because my memory is complete and utter shit again..
And having white spots found ...stating my memory is crapping out isn't all that better lol...
Got diagnosed with afib...
I'm very overwhelmed....
Today one of my coworkers (Dan Hua) said she is leaving because she got another job..and that she's uncertain if that'll help play a role in my disposition at this time....
A month... the addiction reminds me of its presence...