Ugh....
This is so hard moving forth without "MAH" in my life anymore. I am having really hard days that come and go but at this point it is mostly that they are present with me for an hour or a few hours then they are off to leave me feeling ok again. I just want the sun to shine in my heart again, and I want to find that place in my heart that I used to call home prior to this person who decided to come in and steal me out of my comfy zone. My insecurities are killing me and so is the absence of this friend in my heart. I just want to retreat back to before I met them or heck even last year when things were wonderful and I felt elated and so content with life. I feel like I am dwelling in a pit in hell and I cant seem to get out for anything no matter how hard I try. My heart cringes at the thought of my life without them and I wish it would silence its self.