Well I did it...I'm worthless
So I did it last night. I had to! I couldn't stop myself. Then I felt like shit after I sliced my arm all up because I felt like a weak litte bitch for not being strong enough to stop. I'm tearing up just thinking about it. Not the pain, hell there is not pain anymore, but I...I don't know. GOD! I'm such a loser! But tonight I'm gonna tell James that I did it. I know he won't like it but he'll try to talk to me and all that shit. I have to wear a long sleeved shirt under my HIM shirt today because I don't want anyone to see. People think really bad shit about you, but they don't know. Well I guess thats it. I'll update later tonight maybe after I talk to James.