just one little thought...
I have a million things to say, but one issue keeps looming over my head.
Okay. So I go this scholarship for taking this test that basically tells me I'm sort of smart. I have a whole year of free school now. The problem is this..
I never, ever, ever, EVER go to class. When I mean never, I mean that I go for tests and to hand in homework. That's it. I have some exceptional professors this semester, but I feel like school is really a waste of time. I know it sounds really conceited, but I'd rather spend my time doing other things. I have yet to get back any grades other than A's. I feel like when I sit there in class I could be doing so many more productive things with my time. It feels wrong. I see these people freaking out before exams that I know they've studied weeks for and I just walk in, sit down, and rock it out. I'm getting all the glory without any of the work. That's math though. I feel nearly invincible when it comes to math. That's a pretty horrible attitude. All I know is that I could spend 80 minutes in transit and 16 hours in class every week. I don't at all. I feel ridiculously advanced for every one of my classes and it really doesn't make sense. I'm at the end of the road. The super hard classes, I guess. I'm just coasting through like it's nothing. I know it's more good than bad. It just feels wrong. I'm getting things I didn't earn. I don't know why this feels like such a dilemma to me. Whatever. This is like complaining about winning the lottery. I just feel a little bad knowing that my school is paid for and I'm not going to class.
PS I got the internship at trump marina working in the finance department. It doesn't start until the summer and I have until march 31st to decide if I want to take it. I am going to take it though. I'm pretty sure. Unless I find something closer with similar pay. Say word.
Okay. So I go this scholarship for taking this test that basically tells me I'm sort of smart. I have a whole year of free school now. The problem is this..
I never, ever, ever, EVER go to class. When I mean never, I mean that I go for tests and to hand in homework. That's it. I have some exceptional professors this semester, but I feel like school is really a waste of time. I know it sounds really conceited, but I'd rather spend my time doing other things. I have yet to get back any grades other than A's. I feel like when I sit there in class I could be doing so many more productive things with my time. It feels wrong. I see these people freaking out before exams that I know they've studied weeks for and I just walk in, sit down, and rock it out. I'm getting all the glory without any of the work. That's math though. I feel nearly invincible when it comes to math. That's a pretty horrible attitude. All I know is that I could spend 80 minutes in transit and 16 hours in class every week. I don't at all. I feel ridiculously advanced for every one of my classes and it really doesn't make sense. I'm at the end of the road. The super hard classes, I guess. I'm just coasting through like it's nothing. I know it's more good than bad. It just feels wrong. I'm getting things I didn't earn. I don't know why this feels like such a dilemma to me. Whatever. This is like complaining about winning the lottery. I just feel a little bad knowing that my school is paid for and I'm not going to class.
PS I got the internship at trump marina working in the finance department. It doesn't start until the summer and I have until march 31st to decide if I want to take it. I am going to take it though. I'm pretty sure. Unless I find something closer with similar pay. Say word.