must be the money
I had THE BEST time last night. On the way to bar A I was really nervous for some reason. Tayzia and I arrived and we were the only people we knew. By 11 we were the most popular girls there. My birthday shot was awesome. I only spilled one drink. I wore my $200 jeans (and they were on sale) which made me feel extra good. I don't think I've ever felt more popular in my life. I met the most fun guy ever too, but I don't kiss random people. This guy was sooo me though. It was really crazy. I think the curly hair makes me more appealing to the opposite sex. No. It makes me feel like I'm not really me anymore when I drink so I'm more confident and confidence is sexy. Jen almost got her car towed. Mike got a ticket for peeing on someone's property. My mother saw me drunk for the first time ever. Best part: I get to do it again on friday with way more people. Yes! All anyone has been talking about at work is my birthday. That's what mikey said when he called me anyway. I'm really excited and happy and yessss.
I drove jess to school today and it was the most fun ride to school. I'm really glad she's a part of my life again. We have so much in common. Things that you would think only happen to one person ever apparently happen to more than one person. That's what I learned today. We talked about liz and she's coming home soon and I am for sure, without a doubt, making it a point to be friends with her again if she'll let me. Jess is a super good motivator. She wrote me a not on my cappuccino too. Awesome.
My mom sang to me. She's cute sometimes. I got some good stuff. I didn't really do anything today because I have a crazy ass paper due tomorrow morning, but my friends made me feel special. Neither lee nor chuck called me today, but that's okay. That's something that would have bothered me a year ago, but not anymore. I don't think I'll be talking to lee anymore. He scares me now. I don't know what happened to him. He's not at all the person I remember. It's weird how someone you knew so well once can turn into a complete stranger. Very weird. Love is weird and crazy and it fucks people up in the head. I don't mean to sound like a bitch, but I just can't listen to him complain about his life and then tell me I'm just like everyone else or whatever he said, all in the same breath. I'm the same person, just more confident and if that makes me like everybody else, than so be it. I feel a lot better about myself now than I ever did and that's most important. As for chuck, he should've really called me. My birthday is the same day as his brother's so I know he knows. He's been being way too nice to me though. It's not at all in an annoying way. He's really a good guy. Hands down, the nicest guy I have ever known. Weird how I can say that but really not miss him. I can't even explain that relationship. It doesn't even make sense when I think about it real hard. Sorry about that little rant. I don't even know why I'm complaining....it's 23...who the fuck cares?
This is the year I die, just so you know. At my funeral someone can print this out and tell everyone I saw it coming. Tayzia doesn't do funerals, but she promised she'd go to mine and sing. I fucking love that girl. She's my new boyfriend because we talk evey night now. We don't cuddle though. It's a little upsetting.
Everyone keeps having dreams about bad stuff happening to me. The last month I've had about 5 people tell me they had dreams about me dying, getting pregnant, or just crying hysterically. It's weird. Something bad is going to happen though. I've been way too happy for like 3 days straight. I hate being the girl with an issue but that's what happens. It's pathetic and lame and no you're wrong...I don't feed off drama. Not at all. This is just how it works.
I miss will. I have a really good secret for him. It's not really suitable to write here in fear of who might see it. (as if anyone reads the lj anymore) I will tell anyone my secret in person though. It's the greatest story I've ever had. Everytime I tell someone they flip out. I've even heard other people telling my story. It's going to be a legend one day.
I have about 4 more pages to type and I don't feel like it at all. What happened to school?
I've been sleeping slightly better. My dreams are so vivid when I don't sleep for a long time and then I sleep a lot. No work dreams in a while which is excellent. Steve's best friend is going to work with me. That's cool because I love her and so does my whole family.
I meet my secret admirer tomorrow. Scary. I hope they don't kill me. It is my year to die....but it's in a car accident. I know.
I want to go to a psychic with lorraine molino.
I'm stupid because all day my legs hurt a lot. In my head I'm thinking, "I must've danced more than I thought last night. Damn, I'm sore!" Then I remembered that I went for a run yesterday. Silly val. I love running. Whenever I don't run for awhile and then I do...I can go on forever and then the next day I'm in pain. That's what happened.
I'm mad that I wasted my cute outfit on bar A. I sooo should've saved it for friday. What was I thinking?
Wow. I really need to write this stupid paper.
I drove jess to school today and it was the most fun ride to school. I'm really glad she's a part of my life again. We have so much in common. Things that you would think only happen to one person ever apparently happen to more than one person. That's what I learned today. We talked about liz and she's coming home soon and I am for sure, without a doubt, making it a point to be friends with her again if she'll let me. Jess is a super good motivator. She wrote me a not on my cappuccino too. Awesome.
My mom sang to me. She's cute sometimes. I got some good stuff. I didn't really do anything today because I have a crazy ass paper due tomorrow morning, but my friends made me feel special. Neither lee nor chuck called me today, but that's okay. That's something that would have bothered me a year ago, but not anymore. I don't think I'll be talking to lee anymore. He scares me now. I don't know what happened to him. He's not at all the person I remember. It's weird how someone you knew so well once can turn into a complete stranger. Very weird. Love is weird and crazy and it fucks people up in the head. I don't mean to sound like a bitch, but I just can't listen to him complain about his life and then tell me I'm just like everyone else or whatever he said, all in the same breath. I'm the same person, just more confident and if that makes me like everybody else, than so be it. I feel a lot better about myself now than I ever did and that's most important. As for chuck, he should've really called me. My birthday is the same day as his brother's so I know he knows. He's been being way too nice to me though. It's not at all in an annoying way. He's really a good guy. Hands down, the nicest guy I have ever known. Weird how I can say that but really not miss him. I can't even explain that relationship. It doesn't even make sense when I think about it real hard. Sorry about that little rant. I don't even know why I'm complaining....it's 23...who the fuck cares?
This is the year I die, just so you know. At my funeral someone can print this out and tell everyone I saw it coming. Tayzia doesn't do funerals, but she promised she'd go to mine and sing. I fucking love that girl. She's my new boyfriend because we talk evey night now. We don't cuddle though. It's a little upsetting.
Everyone keeps having dreams about bad stuff happening to me. The last month I've had about 5 people tell me they had dreams about me dying, getting pregnant, or just crying hysterically. It's weird. Something bad is going to happen though. I've been way too happy for like 3 days straight. I hate being the girl with an issue but that's what happens. It's pathetic and lame and no you're wrong...I don't feed off drama. Not at all. This is just how it works.
I miss will. I have a really good secret for him. It's not really suitable to write here in fear of who might see it. (as if anyone reads the lj anymore) I will tell anyone my secret in person though. It's the greatest story I've ever had. Everytime I tell someone they flip out. I've even heard other people telling my story. It's going to be a legend one day.
I have about 4 more pages to type and I don't feel like it at all. What happened to school?
I've been sleeping slightly better. My dreams are so vivid when I don't sleep for a long time and then I sleep a lot. No work dreams in a while which is excellent. Steve's best friend is going to work with me. That's cool because I love her and so does my whole family.
I meet my secret admirer tomorrow. Scary. I hope they don't kill me. It is my year to die....but it's in a car accident. I know.
I want to go to a psychic with lorraine molino.
I'm stupid because all day my legs hurt a lot. In my head I'm thinking, "I must've danced more than I thought last night. Damn, I'm sore!" Then I remembered that I went for a run yesterday. Silly val. I love running. Whenever I don't run for awhile and then I do...I can go on forever and then the next day I'm in pain. That's what happened.
I'm mad that I wasted my cute outfit on bar A. I sooo should've saved it for friday. What was I thinking?
Wow. I really need to write this stupid paper.