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I don't even know.
I can't explain what I'm feeling right now.
CONFUSED is a word. Fucking retarded is another.
I went to visit my Uncle Wayne in the hospital today.
I want a close relationship with him now..but it might be too late.
I'm such a fucking idiot. WHY THE FUCK did I ignore him this LONG?! He's been trying to make peace with the rest of his fucking family that he has left..and wtf do I do? I don't even give him a second chance.
I thought I had a good reason, but now I just wanna kick myself for this.
I told him I was sorry..I told him that I wanted to have a relationsihp with him..and he told me that if it isn't too late, he wants one too. He told me he loves me. I started to cry. How can he love me after what I have been doing? I was just scared to get close to him after he hurt my Grandpop so bad..
What is the right thing to do?
I had fun yesterday & today. I love hanging out with my friends. Zach is picking me up tomorrow and we're gonna hang at Sara's..and possibly get together with Andrew. Cool?
Pah. Can't really write much else..
I can't explain what I'm feeling right now.
CONFUSED is a word. Fucking retarded is another.
I went to visit my Uncle Wayne in the hospital today.
I want a close relationship with him now..but it might be too late.
I'm such a fucking idiot. WHY THE FUCK did I ignore him this LONG?! He's been trying to make peace with the rest of his fucking family that he has left..and wtf do I do? I don't even give him a second chance.
I thought I had a good reason, but now I just wanna kick myself for this.
I told him I was sorry..I told him that I wanted to have a relationsihp with him..and he told me that if it isn't too late, he wants one too. He told me he loves me. I started to cry. How can he love me after what I have been doing? I was just scared to get close to him after he hurt my Grandpop so bad..
What is the right thing to do?
I had fun yesterday & today. I love hanging out with my friends. Zach is picking me up tomorrow and we're gonna hang at Sara's..and possibly get together with Andrew. Cool?
Pah. Can't really write much else..