Meet Virginia, she likes babies and surprises.
Why can't I be happy? I mean, I can ask for little things and people get jealous and then hate me for no reason. I just want to be able to be myself and let go sometimes without loosing people. I hate fights, oh boy, how I hate fights. I don't mean to cause them, believe me because I hate them with a passion. Sometimes, I don't even understand why certain people get mad at me in the first place, sometimes it's my fault, sometimes it's not, sometimes it's no one's fault. I'm fucking crying here because I hate fighting and jealousy so much. The people I fight with when I tell them I hate them, you think I mean it? No, I don't. I can't even love someone without another person getting jealous and then hating me, what the fuck is up with society today? Honestly, I want to be able to love who the fuck ever I want and when I fucking want but that's not possible. I'm confused and I just want all of this fighting, drama and hatred to stop immediately because IT doesnt make me happy, it makes me feel WORTHLESS and like NOTHING. I'm sorry if you thought I hated you because I don't and couldn't. I'm sorry if I am a worthless bitch who just hurts people's feelings and I'm sorry if I ever made you jealous. Don't worry, your jealousy is breaking me apart and I won't have that person soon, so it's okay since you want to be happy so FUCKING bad and you don't want me to be. I'm just fucking sorry in general. Sorry if I've ever hurt you. Just be sure to know that I don't hate you and I care about you unconditionally... I'm sorry that I can't be the better friend or something for Hollie, I don't even know what to call us because it doesn't feel right saying friends at all, I feel there's more and it's more. AM I JUST BEING STUPID AGAIN? I don't have a clue but I'm sorry for bringing all this drama into your life, Hollie and for the reassurance of your feelings everyday, I am TRUELY sorry. I just need to know that you love me and mean it. I know I can trust you, I just get scared of being hurt. I'm just sorry...k