Tell me what you think is funny, is it me, is it her?
Holly and I talked today, she says I basically question her feelings too much.
I don't really mean too and I apologize for that, I will try to not do that anymore.
I miss her alot of the time and I don't know what to do with all of that, she says to call her but my shyness gets into the way of that alot of the time, but I promise I will start calling you, no matter what.
She is the one I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with and that includes: growing old and dying with her.
If anything, I am really glad she made this choice because to be one hundred percent honest, I had people asking me out.
Mike even asked me to marry him, I rejected, hoping that she would come along and realize that she really loved me and what happens?
She does come along and she does infact ask me to marry her, which shows me she loves me.
I just want her to know that I want to be with her until my dying day, I love her.
It's a deep love, really deep. I love you very much, Holly Pribula.
I want to bang you sometimes, hold you sometimes, kiss you, and cuddle you, sometimes I want to fuck you hardcore, and sometimes I just want to whisper sweet nothings in your ear. I want you to know that when you are finially with me, things will be okay, to the best of my ability. I will make you happy or atleast try, I want you. I love you.
Lets get married A.S.A.P. because I'm fucking dying when I'm waiting for this, the moment we kiss, will be PURE heaven to me. I've always been the one to want "too much" but right now, I don't care. I want you and just you, basically your personality. That's all I want, Holly.
Right now, picking my cut and it's quiet in this room.
My eyes are red and watery, Mike keeps calling.
I'm rudely ignoring his phone calls and I feel bad.
I still love him, though.
He belives I don't and that I've came across a better human being and that I totally seem to forget that he even exists.
NOT TRUE!
Yeah, I am in-love with Holly, and she seems to be a "better" human being, better then the rest of the assholes, sorry but Mike, I love you and you aren't being forgot about. I just have a lot of things to worry about with her and I told you that. I'm sorry, we will hang out soon, you know I love you.
Yeah, rambling to Mike, I'm sorry.
Apologies Apologies, do they do any good?
They should since I don't apologize every five seconds anymore.
You all should realize that I am trying my hardest and if I treated you like complete garbage or made you feel hated this past week(Holl), I really love you and I'm sorry, I'm going to try to make this never happen again.
*sigh*
They say being twenty-years old is amazing, heh what part of twenty-one is amazing?
Blah, I suck at my life, point blank.
Even though, I still have two huge cuts on my arm and I could have been put away in a ward for it, I'm not really going to do that anymore, unless something just happens and I don't intend on touching that knife again because bloody hell will break lose and I will be alone for good, if I touch it.
So, I'm just going to let myself heal, naturally and spritually and apologize for the things I've said this week.
Again, I am really sorry.
I love you all.
Especially, you Holly Pribula.
You are my angel or something.
Someone worth living for,
thanks for caring even though
when I freak out, I suddently have
a rage and think you don't care but I know you do.
I'm really sorry, you should know I want to be with you and that
I want to marry you, okay? I love you fucking alot more then I can explain into words with typing,
so on the phone, I'll possibly bring that up. I love you.
Even if now, you thnk I am a liar and I will never call *sigh*
I'm stupid and get extremely shy and I'm sorry again but I'm going to get over that shyness because I want to start talking to you.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH never forget it!
♥
I don't really mean too and I apologize for that, I will try to not do that anymore.
I miss her alot of the time and I don't know what to do with all of that, she says to call her but my shyness gets into the way of that alot of the time, but I promise I will start calling you, no matter what.
She is the one I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with and that includes: growing old and dying with her.
If anything, I am really glad she made this choice because to be one hundred percent honest, I had people asking me out.
Mike even asked me to marry him, I rejected, hoping that she would come along and realize that she really loved me and what happens?
She does come along and she does infact ask me to marry her, which shows me she loves me.
I just want her to know that I want to be with her until my dying day, I love her.
It's a deep love, really deep. I love you very much, Holly Pribula.
I want to bang you sometimes, hold you sometimes, kiss you, and cuddle you, sometimes I want to fuck you hardcore, and sometimes I just want to whisper sweet nothings in your ear. I want you to know that when you are finially with me, things will be okay, to the best of my ability. I will make you happy or atleast try, I want you. I love you.
Lets get married A.S.A.P. because I'm fucking dying when I'm waiting for this, the moment we kiss, will be PURE heaven to me. I've always been the one to want "too much" but right now, I don't care. I want you and just you, basically your personality. That's all I want, Holly.
Right now, picking my cut and it's quiet in this room.
My eyes are red and watery, Mike keeps calling.
I'm rudely ignoring his phone calls and I feel bad.
I still love him, though.
He belives I don't and that I've came across a better human being and that I totally seem to forget that he even exists.
NOT TRUE!
Yeah, I am in-love with Holly, and she seems to be a "better" human being, better then the rest of the assholes, sorry but Mike, I love you and you aren't being forgot about. I just have a lot of things to worry about with her and I told you that. I'm sorry, we will hang out soon, you know I love you.
Yeah, rambling to Mike, I'm sorry.
Apologies Apologies, do they do any good?
They should since I don't apologize every five seconds anymore.
You all should realize that I am trying my hardest and if I treated you like complete garbage or made you feel hated this past week(Holl), I really love you and I'm sorry, I'm going to try to make this never happen again.
*sigh*
They say being twenty-years old is amazing, heh what part of twenty-one is amazing?
Blah, I suck at my life, point blank.
Even though, I still have two huge cuts on my arm and I could have been put away in a ward for it, I'm not really going to do that anymore, unless something just happens and I don't intend on touching that knife again because bloody hell will break lose and I will be alone for good, if I touch it.
So, I'm just going to let myself heal, naturally and spritually and apologize for the things I've said this week.
Again, I am really sorry.
I love you all.
Especially, you Holly Pribula.
You are my angel or something.
Someone worth living for,
thanks for caring even though
when I freak out, I suddently have
a rage and think you don't care but I know you do.
I'm really sorry, you should know I want to be with you and that
I want to marry you, okay? I love you fucking alot more then I can explain into words with typing,
so on the phone, I'll possibly bring that up. I love you.
Even if now, you thnk I am a liar and I will never call *sigh*
I'm stupid and get extremely shy and I'm sorry again but I'm going to get over that shyness because I want to start talking to you.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH never forget it!
♥