The man who makes Kool Aid say "OH YEAH!"
I feel hyper as hell; although I should feel tired by now... odd.
I should try to avoid killing spiders if I can... I killed one today.... it took awhile and I fear the death may have been painful. I honestly stopped for a moment and thought "Oh god what if it has a family?". Maybe I'm a little silly...
I think I'm starting to understand life and the world better and I see all these contradictions that flood into our lives and cause powerful yet quiet disparity. The ditchotomy between maintaining cultural identity and being unified as a human race has been bothering me the most lately. Many major conflicts bewteen groups are caused simply because one group is percieved as different from another. Take every act of genocide ever for example. Yet culture is an important part of peoples individual identities. I find myself in favor of assimilationism at the moment.
Another thing is the level of ignorance prevelant in the black community. Now normally I don't give a fuck about any cultural community; but having more contact with them now has made me realize how big an issue this really is. It's really as if being dumb is cool. Every time I show some knowledge of a subject outside of what we've learned in class there's a number of people who scoff at me and roll teir eyes. It annoys me more when people can't understand what I'm saying. There has to be a way to put an end to this.
The part of the day I find the most enjoyable lately is the walk home from college. It's just me and my thoughts and my music. The night air is quite pleasing lately and I feel as if I learn more ruminating about things in my head than I do from anything else during the day.
Speaking of college.... I have yet to buy a textbook. I've been reading them in the library. Wide screen HD Macs also make dicking around in the library quite enjoyable. Also a working comma key helps.
I find my self consciousness eating at me more than usual recently. It's not very pleasant and I'm sure anyone reading this knows what I mean by now. I feel like isolating myself and meditating on the street for awhile.
Lately I've been trying to add a bit more discipline to my life. I've been waking up at around 7:30 every day and started walking to and from school; it's about a mile and a half walk. Also it saves me money.
Did I ever mention how I skimp on "necessities" to have more money for random shit I don't need? Yeah... screw textbooks and transportation and regular meals! Daddy needs a new fedora! Although I never skimp on hydration. It's important to be hydrated *nodnod*.
I think I'm starting to get what hip hop music is about. Slowly.
God I want to see Inglourious Basterds a third time. So fucking good.
It seems that every entry I intend to write something specific but I get sidetracked and never express what I intended to. Yet I find myself still having trouble doing so after realizing this. Aye.
I should try to avoid killing spiders if I can... I killed one today.... it took awhile and I fear the death may have been painful. I honestly stopped for a moment and thought "Oh god what if it has a family?". Maybe I'm a little silly...
I think I'm starting to understand life and the world better and I see all these contradictions that flood into our lives and cause powerful yet quiet disparity. The ditchotomy between maintaining cultural identity and being unified as a human race has been bothering me the most lately. Many major conflicts bewteen groups are caused simply because one group is percieved as different from another. Take every act of genocide ever for example. Yet culture is an important part of peoples individual identities. I find myself in favor of assimilationism at the moment.
Another thing is the level of ignorance prevelant in the black community. Now normally I don't give a fuck about any cultural community; but having more contact with them now has made me realize how big an issue this really is. It's really as if being dumb is cool. Every time I show some knowledge of a subject outside of what we've learned in class there's a number of people who scoff at me and roll teir eyes. It annoys me more when people can't understand what I'm saying. There has to be a way to put an end to this.
The part of the day I find the most enjoyable lately is the walk home from college. It's just me and my thoughts and my music. The night air is quite pleasing lately and I feel as if I learn more ruminating about things in my head than I do from anything else during the day.
Speaking of college.... I have yet to buy a textbook. I've been reading them in the library. Wide screen HD Macs also make dicking around in the library quite enjoyable. Also a working comma key helps.
I find my self consciousness eating at me more than usual recently. It's not very pleasant and I'm sure anyone reading this knows what I mean by now. I feel like isolating myself and meditating on the street for awhile.
Lately I've been trying to add a bit more discipline to my life. I've been waking up at around 7:30 every day and started walking to and from school; it's about a mile and a half walk. Also it saves me money.
Did I ever mention how I skimp on "necessities" to have more money for random shit I don't need? Yeah... screw textbooks and transportation and regular meals! Daddy needs a new fedora! Although I never skimp on hydration. It's important to be hydrated *nodnod*.
I think I'm starting to get what hip hop music is about. Slowly.
God I want to see Inglourious Basterds a third time. So fucking good.
It seems that every entry I intend to write something specific but I get sidetracked and never express what I intended to. Yet I find myself still having trouble doing so after realizing this. Aye.