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I wish this week would just end already. I wish that there wasn't a huge mess at work that I have to clean up, and PS its not MY mess. I consider the whole situation to be quite bullshit, but this just leads into the whole I wish I didn't have to work, because I can't really juggle work and school. The limits of my mind, mental stability, stress level, etc, just aren't cut out for such things.
I wish I could sleep. I haven't slept since Sunday morning. Well, I havent slept more than 2 hours an evening. It's quite the bullshit as well. Im so exhausted and my ambien isn't working either, so with the push of my mother's advice I went to the stupid voodoo clinic and got some lunesta. Hopefully tonight will be spent with sweet long dreams.
I have to work in about an hour, and I really just don't want to. I hate it. I hate when I'm pushed into too much responsibility. Im responsible for the stock room and I dont want to be. I mean it's nice cause it's mine, but I don't really want it. I just want to be able to go, work, and then leave. And if someone leaves it a mess, I shouldn't have to clean it up. Maybe they just don't understand, maybe they assume that work is my number one priority. Which is it so not.
Priorities:
1) my health
2) my happiness
3) my school work
4) family/friends
5) work.
I am willing to give up work if any of the higher 4 priorities are not getting met.
p.s. the doctor gave me a note saying I cannot work over night anymore. due to medical conditions. love it. but. AE will probably be pissed. also I need to go to the colvin center and get my back worked on.
I wish I could sleep. I haven't slept since Sunday morning. Well, I havent slept more than 2 hours an evening. It's quite the bullshit as well. Im so exhausted and my ambien isn't working either, so with the push of my mother's advice I went to the stupid voodoo clinic and got some lunesta. Hopefully tonight will be spent with sweet long dreams.
I have to work in about an hour, and I really just don't want to. I hate it. I hate when I'm pushed into too much responsibility. Im responsible for the stock room and I dont want to be. I mean it's nice cause it's mine, but I don't really want it. I just want to be able to go, work, and then leave. And if someone leaves it a mess, I shouldn't have to clean it up. Maybe they just don't understand, maybe they assume that work is my number one priority. Which is it so not.
Priorities:
1) my health
2) my happiness
3) my school work
4) family/friends
5) work.
I am willing to give up work if any of the higher 4 priorities are not getting met.
p.s. the doctor gave me a note saying I cannot work over night anymore. due to medical conditions. love it. but. AE will probably be pissed. also I need to go to the colvin center and get my back worked on.