you gon' find out what it really feels like to miss me
i've been putting off this post for a very long time. i doubt it's worth the wait, but still.
in oakland, a bunch of us went to eat at Lake Merritt Bakery. it fuckign rocked and we all fell in love with our waitress, we ended up writing her a love note. she was the sweetest thing ever. plus the food owned.
and there was totally a cake that looked like a giant burger. this is my impressed face.
random creepy shot of me backstage at debauchery. i am amused!
practicing, lmao.
dance tiems.
the absolute worst photo of me in existence. srsly. it's pretty hilarious.
to quote morgan: "i never thought beanie babies would make me cry." i'm the rhino. and i love last semester's facs. i'm not sure how this semester will compare.
clarawhale and morgan. ♥
clarawhale at Au Coquelet while we should have been studying.
in our defense, we had been in the library before that, but then it closed.
clara brought fruit.
jamietan brought her blanket since it was a bit chilly.
she stitched this on the back of her hoodie. she loves whales.
no, really.
she made crepes for us, one meeting. =D
and i played ~guud musik in jess's living room
and jess made us tea!
a note that lauren had to confiscate from her one of the kids at her job.
i'm dropping trufax on everyone about the world, ok.
random photo from an episode of Cooking with Jamietan and Tracie. enchiladas!
impromptu dance party at extravaganza.
missher.
srsly. lovethemsomuch.
we did mock check-ins at the beginning. (check-ins are at the beginning of every class when everyone goes around and says how they're feeling or anything they'd like to share about their day/life)
it was pretty funny; we were just fucking around.
jamietan's crying about not gettign a Hello Kitty tent and i'm like ....*squints*
at bar night. i'm all technicolor!
dancing with kory
randomly, jamietan almost ran something over in her car, and then we all got otu to investigate since we weren't sure wtf it was. they thought it was a gremlin. i didn't want to get too close.
episode one of Cooking with Jamietan and Tracie: soup and cupcakes.
my roommates left a pumpkin in the kitchen from the middle of october until well into december. disgusting, dude.
back in berkeley, my room does this awesome thing between the hours of 7 and 10am, if my blinds and curtains are open and the sun is out.
the light reflects (refracts?) in my disco ball and crystal jewelly thing and creates this.
(sound not needed; it's just pandora playing in the background)
i have star-shaped cookie cutters!!!
bored on the bus stop and wanting a better view of my new ring.
me and the bottle of lube i inherited when jeannielee cleaned out her femsex stuff.
john. there's not really a better way to caption this.
srsly.
hottub tiems!!
o hai darbrielle!
new scarf YAY.
niki watched me and was like MY TURN, so.
these came out weird though.
my baby.
other baby.
mid-howl, lmao. i love him so.
since my last real update, i've hung out with long beach friends a lot. we had dinner with caitlyn a couple weeks ago (where did my sense of time go? i don't know what's going on anymore) and that was fun.
yuki and i went to the aquarium!! i've never been before! i tell this story to everyone that will listen, because i was supposed to go on a field trip to the aquarium back in 3rd grade, but my parents were going out of town and niki and i had to go to grandma's house and thus, miss school. mom swore up and down she'd take me later but SHE NEVER DID, THE LYING BASTARD. and, considering the amount of times i've hung out downtown, it really makes no sense that i've never been. and it was fucking AWESOME, ok. there were sea lions and seals and all kind of other awesome shit, including BIRDS. (...which, yea. didn't make sense to me either, but whatever)
and, yea, my conscience was bugging me a bit, because there's all these animals and they've totally been torn from their homes and shoved into these tiny tanks to be ogled by little ass kids like that's their main purpose for existence. and, you know, fucked up. butbut,
SEAHORSES, OKAY. it is really hard to get a good photo of them, but they SO PRITTY.
and awesome.
the cookies in question, rofl! god, it was awesome. niki and i took the dogs to petco for new collars and toys, and myles decided he wanted some snackers too. so we bought them cookies and when we got home, niki went out to show dad how much the dog cookies looked like people cookies. end of story, right?
NO. the NEXT FUCKING NIGHT, ok, my dad's grumbling some shit at me (i don't know what he's so pissed about, but i'm sick of his fuckign attitude dude. and when i'm sick of how he's acting, i act how he hates for me to act, and then we're just both pissed. anyway,) about cleaning some shit up or something, and i can't really hear him because his mouth is full and i don't think it's particularly rude to talk like that. i just think it's rude to talk with your mouth full and then get pissed off when people don't understand you (asshole). i'm like 'what? i can't hear you' and as i look to see what he just can't stop eating for 5 fucking seconds, it's ONE OF THE DOG COOKIES, WHAT THE SHIT. and i'm like "those are for the dogs!!" and start rofl, literally, and he's making his angry 'wtf are you laughing at' faces and then looks at the cookie and is like WHAT. it was sooo fucking funny, dear god. i then proceeded to call niki and we rofl together on speakerphone while my dad's like SHUT UP NOT FUNNY GUYZ. good fucking tiems, dude.
niki told him he'd better ask the dogs their permission before eating all their snacks, ok.
baby sleepy. he wouldn't smile
so niki made him.
baby too sleepy to even close his mouth back all the way, lol.
new year's eve was pretty sweet. hung out with liam and cami, then cami went home cuz she wasn't feeling well. liam and i then headed to darbrielle's place and hung out with john and darbrielle. drank a lot ((monica made blowjobs [bailey's, vodka, whipped creme] for us, lmao.
darbrielle: i don't like the creme at the back of my throat!
john: *shrugs* i do.
me: *high fives john*
liam: that's what blowjobs are all about!)). had fun. oh, and darbrielle and i definitely hooked up. good fucking tiems, ok. also, drama tiems. but you know, shit happens. it is what it is. i had a great fucking night/morning.
the next day, jamietan came to pick me up and we headed out to venice to meet up with lauren and clara and clara's mom.
we watched the first sunset of 2009 on venice beach.
jamietan so cute!
kept fiddling with this photo.
after, we headed to clara's house for lovely times. and then to third street promenade and it was fun. kory came while we were at H&M and i tried to be all smooth about the happenings with darbrielle on new year's
((kory: what did you do for new year's?
me: oh, *shrugs, hung out with some friends, drank, got some head. it was fun))
but she was all OH GIRL!! and it was pretty hilarious. loveher. then she kept making head jokes all night
((we were upstairs and people were talking about going back downstairs and kory turned to me and was like "HEY TRACIE, DO YOU WANNA GO DOWN? *big eyes*" and i was all *grinblush* because i apparently have no idea how to handle these situations?))
((clara: tracie, what do you want to eat?
kory: oh i know what tracie wants to eat))
and so on.
anyway... i don't really know what else to say. except that i'm more at peace with my feelings towards louis right now. i'm actually at peace with a lot of things right now and it feels great. (contingent on the fact that i disregard every thought of the upcoming semester, of course). i hope you're all well. =)
in oakland, a bunch of us went to eat at Lake Merritt Bakery. it fuckign rocked and we all fell in love with our waitress, we ended up writing her a love note. she was the sweetest thing ever. plus the food owned.
and there was totally a cake that looked like a giant burger. this is my impressed face.
random creepy shot of me backstage at debauchery. i am amused!
practicing, lmao.
dance tiems.
the absolute worst photo of me in existence. srsly. it's pretty hilarious.
to quote morgan: "i never thought beanie babies would make me cry." i'm the rhino. and i love last semester's facs. i'm not sure how this semester will compare.
clarawhale and morgan. ♥
clarawhale at Au Coquelet while we should have been studying.
in our defense, we had been in the library before that, but then it closed.
clara brought fruit.
jamietan brought her blanket since it was a bit chilly.
she stitched this on the back of her hoodie. she loves whales.
no, really.
she made crepes for us, one meeting. =D
and i played ~guud musik in jess's living room
and jess made us tea!
a note that lauren had to confiscate from her one of the kids at her job.
i'm dropping trufax on everyone about the world, ok.
random photo from an episode of Cooking with Jamietan and Tracie. enchiladas!
impromptu dance party at extravaganza.
missher.
srsly. lovethemsomuch.
we did mock check-ins at the beginning. (check-ins are at the beginning of every class when everyone goes around and says how they're feeling or anything they'd like to share about their day/life)
it was pretty funny; we were just fucking around.
jamietan's crying about not gettign a Hello Kitty tent and i'm like ....*squints*
at bar night. i'm all technicolor!
dancing with kory
randomly, jamietan almost ran something over in her car, and then we all got otu to investigate since we weren't sure wtf it was. they thought it was a gremlin. i didn't want to get too close.
episode one of Cooking with Jamietan and Tracie: soup and cupcakes.
my roommates left a pumpkin in the kitchen from the middle of october until well into december. disgusting, dude.
back in berkeley, my room does this awesome thing between the hours of 7 and 10am, if my blinds and curtains are open and the sun is out.
the light reflects (refracts?) in my disco ball and crystal jewelly thing and creates this.
(sound not needed; it's just pandora playing in the background)
i have star-shaped cookie cutters!!!
bored on the bus stop and wanting a better view of my new ring.
me and the bottle of lube i inherited when jeannielee cleaned out her femsex stuff.
john. there's not really a better way to caption this.
srsly.
hottub tiems!!
o hai darbrielle!
new scarf YAY.
niki watched me and was like MY TURN, so.
these came out weird though.
my baby.
other baby.
mid-howl, lmao. i love him so.
since my last real update, i've hung out with long beach friends a lot. we had dinner with caitlyn a couple weeks ago (where did my sense of time go? i don't know what's going on anymore) and that was fun.
yuki and i went to the aquarium!! i've never been before! i tell this story to everyone that will listen, because i was supposed to go on a field trip to the aquarium back in 3rd grade, but my parents were going out of town and niki and i had to go to grandma's house and thus, miss school. mom swore up and down she'd take me later but SHE NEVER DID, THE LYING BASTARD. and, considering the amount of times i've hung out downtown, it really makes no sense that i've never been. and it was fucking AWESOME, ok. there were sea lions and seals and all kind of other awesome shit, including BIRDS. (...which, yea. didn't make sense to me either, but whatever)
and, yea, my conscience was bugging me a bit, because there's all these animals and they've totally been torn from their homes and shoved into these tiny tanks to be ogled by little ass kids like that's their main purpose for existence. and, you know, fucked up. butbut,
SEAHORSES, OKAY. it is really hard to get a good photo of them, but they SO PRITTY.
and awesome.
the cookies in question, rofl! god, it was awesome. niki and i took the dogs to petco for new collars and toys, and myles decided he wanted some snackers too. so we bought them cookies and when we got home, niki went out to show dad how much the dog cookies looked like people cookies. end of story, right?
NO. the NEXT FUCKING NIGHT, ok, my dad's grumbling some shit at me (i don't know what he's so pissed about, but i'm sick of his fuckign attitude dude. and when i'm sick of how he's acting, i act how he hates for me to act, and then we're just both pissed. anyway,) about cleaning some shit up or something, and i can't really hear him because his mouth is full and i don't think it's particularly rude to talk like that. i just think it's rude to talk with your mouth full and then get pissed off when people don't understand you (asshole). i'm like 'what? i can't hear you' and as i look to see what he just can't stop eating for 5 fucking seconds, it's ONE OF THE DOG COOKIES, WHAT THE SHIT. and i'm like "those are for the dogs!!" and start rofl, literally, and he's making his angry 'wtf are you laughing at' faces and then looks at the cookie and is like WHAT. it was sooo fucking funny, dear god. i then proceeded to call niki and we rofl together on speakerphone while my dad's like SHUT UP NOT FUNNY GUYZ. good fucking tiems, dude.
niki told him he'd better ask the dogs their permission before eating all their snacks, ok.
baby sleepy. he wouldn't smile
so niki made him.
baby too sleepy to even close his mouth back all the way, lol.
new year's eve was pretty sweet. hung out with liam and cami, then cami went home cuz she wasn't feeling well. liam and i then headed to darbrielle's place and hung out with john and darbrielle. drank a lot ((monica made blowjobs [bailey's, vodka, whipped creme] for us, lmao.
darbrielle: i don't like the creme at the back of my throat!
john: *shrugs* i do.
me: *high fives john*
liam: that's what blowjobs are all about!)). had fun. oh, and darbrielle and i definitely hooked up. good fucking tiems, ok. also, drama tiems. but you know, shit happens. it is what it is. i had a great fucking night/morning.
the next day, jamietan came to pick me up and we headed out to venice to meet up with lauren and clara and clara's mom.
we watched the first sunset of 2009 on venice beach.
jamietan so cute!
kept fiddling with this photo.
after, we headed to clara's house for lovely times. and then to third street promenade and it was fun. kory came while we were at H&M and i tried to be all smooth about the happenings with darbrielle on new year's
((kory: what did you do for new year's?
me: oh, *shrugs, hung out with some friends, drank, got some head. it was fun))
but she was all OH GIRL!! and it was pretty hilarious. loveher. then she kept making head jokes all night
((we were upstairs and people were talking about going back downstairs and kory turned to me and was like "HEY TRACIE, DO YOU WANNA GO DOWN? *big eyes*" and i was all *grinblush* because i apparently have no idea how to handle these situations?))
((clara: tracie, what do you want to eat?
kory: oh i know what tracie wants to eat))
and so on.
anyway... i don't really know what else to say. except that i'm more at peace with my feelings towards louis right now. i'm actually at peace with a lot of things right now and it feels great. (contingent on the fact that i disregard every thought of the upcoming semester, of course). i hope you're all well. =)