don't wanna say i'm sorry..
hey friends!
so i'm in a great mood, although my day has had no shortage of FAIL.
last night at about 6pm i was walking to GenEq to help set up for Dinner at Dusk, and my foot started to hurt. first a little, then a lot. then i could barely walk. that was some bullshit lol. so i was stretching them out trying to see what's up, and found i can walk on the balls of my feet [pretending 'm wearing heels] just fine, but walking regularly hurts like a mofo. marisa told me to ice it and i did but when i got up again it still hurt.
last night i went to bed at midnight exactly, because i have class at 10 and waking up at 9 is hard. it took me ages to fall asleep, and i woke up at 5:30!!! i was displeased, indeed. at about 5:50 i got up and realized why i was awake; it was period tiem! which isn't nearly as unpleasant when i'm not curled up in a ball, whimpering from the pain. so i was cool with the fact that i couldn't go back to sleep, so long as the pain stayed in the low to mild area, which it did.
at almost 7 i got up and decided to finish reading that megahot MCR genderswap fic which was SO DAMN GOOD. i enjoyed it a lot. if you read MCR slash, or are flexible in terms of fandoms, i highly suggest you check it out. shit is good.
i had an epiphany sometime last night. why do i love genderswap fics so much? because! i love gay sex! and i love vaginas! gay sex plus vaginas without the het?!?!? YES PLS. i know that made no sense. i'm comfortable with this.
so anyway, i read that fic to the very end, had terrible gas the whole time, showered, headed to the store cuz i had no milk to go with my cinnamon toast crunch. ate, waited for the bus because i didn't feel like limping all the way to campus, and went to class. turns out Gender and Womyn's Studies is this super small department/major so i knew half the people there even though i've only ever taken two GWS classes lol. kory and sarah [monet's ex] were there, as well as emily and betty and connie [vagina monologues], as well as random other people i'd somehow met. oh and the girl i didn't like in my GWS composition class is in there too but hopefully we won't encounter each other too often.
the class is called Identities Across Difference and i'm really excited about it. the professor [TRINH T Minh-ha] seems badass and she's a quantity-not-quality person when it comes to assigning readings so i dig that.
after class it had been my intention to go straight to the tang center [the health services place] but i had forgotten my gold card, so i limped my ass home to grab it, then caught the bus back up and waited FOREVER at the urgent care center. the clinician said it didn't feel like a cyst or broken bone [yay] so she gave me a walking boot to take the pressure off my foot for a couple weeks.
said boot! it slowed me the fuck down as i got used to it. walking uphill to class wasn't so fun. i was walking so slow that i didn't get a chance to stop for lunch, but i picked up a sandwich with every intention of eating it after class. walking around cuz i couldn't figure out where my class was was quite lame as well.
but! when i was half-lost, i ran into lara, whom i didn't get a chance to say hi to this morning. perfect opportunity. i think she's so damn hot and it makes me awkward[...er] around her. and this morning kory was telling me how she totally agrees and think she's megahot too! anyway, we went to class and caitlyn [my co-fac!] is in there! as well as desiree [vagina monologues] and sarah. so it's awesome. and i don't care if that annoying chick mai is there too because there's awesome people too. maybe it will balance out.
the class is Transnational Feminisms and it has sooo much reading. if you didn't know this about me, i'm a shitty student. i'm awful with keeping up with readings, and prefer to let them pile up and overwhelm me, and do nothing about it so that i fail. this is what happened spring 2007 as well as fall 2007. last semester, i got all Bs and this was a huge accomplishment for me. i want to do it again this semester, and maybe even get an A or two.
i hate being at such a huge competitive school where everyone's all OMG I FAIL I DID SO TERRIBLE I SWEAR I ONLY GET A 'B' IN THAT CLASS I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. and yea, i know, i know. we all work at different rates. we're all good at different things. but when you hear enough of that and B's are the best you can do, it really starts to get to you. really starts to fuck with you. and that's what berkeley's all about. feeling like your best isn't enough because there are 30 billion other people that you see every fucking day that are so much better/more determined/more successful than you. you've never had an internship? you've never had a 4.0? what are you even doing here? but still i persist. because i've been given this opportunity and i will totally take advantage of it even if i'm not a cool berkeley student.
anyway, i love how depressing that paragraph was considering my good mood lmao. clearly my good moods are odd as fuck. =)
i ate my sandwich, came home and chilled, then headed back out to do the first of the Femsex Info/Application sessions with caitlyn. we both forgot our agendas though lmao so we totally winged it. i asked the intro question "so we want to get to know you a bit, so we're gonna go around and say our names, our majors, and if you were a shoe, what kind would you be? *eyebrow raise and nod*" and i got some awesome answers as usual, and caitlyn's was the freakin sweetest ever! she was all "if i were a shoe, i'd be tracie's boot, because it's strong and there to support her" and i was all ^______________^! she's going to spoil the life out of me and make me realize what a selfish co-fac i am lmao. she made me a charm!
is it not the cutest thing ever? for those of you that don't know, it's the femsex goddess, drawn by a past femsexy. caitlyn carved it for me! she's so damn sweet dude. i made it into an earring and wear it every day. ^_^
she even painted this little box for me, ♥
me caitlyn and monet, last semester
her now.
long story short, i think that we will have an amazing semester. ^_^
more photos:
picture frame i panted last night at Dinner and Dusk
awesome/amusing sign up at GenEq
a few days ago i woke up at 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, so i decided to watch the sunrise through the windows and document the changes of the sky.
5:40 through my window
me tryign to decide which setting to use to best capture it.
14 minutes later.
5 minutes after that.
10 minutes later
another ten minutes. so i think you get it. i didn't watch the sun rise. i watched the fog roll in. i still enjoyed it. and fell back asleep. =)
got home this evening and had a package!
lovers my bobo!
now i'm going to hobble off to buy licorice! {is fiending, just a bit} oh, and i'm really getting used to the boot so it's not positively awful. =)
go read my new story. it's short and totally nto my style. but i still love it.
love to the flist!
so i'm in a great mood, although my day has had no shortage of FAIL.
last night at about 6pm i was walking to GenEq to help set up for Dinner at Dusk, and my foot started to hurt. first a little, then a lot. then i could barely walk. that was some bullshit lol. so i was stretching them out trying to see what's up, and found i can walk on the balls of my feet [pretending 'm wearing heels] just fine, but walking regularly hurts like a mofo. marisa told me to ice it and i did but when i got up again it still hurt.
last night i went to bed at midnight exactly, because i have class at 10 and waking up at 9 is hard. it took me ages to fall asleep, and i woke up at 5:30!!! i was displeased, indeed. at about 5:50 i got up and realized why i was awake; it was period tiem! which isn't nearly as unpleasant when i'm not curled up in a ball, whimpering from the pain. so i was cool with the fact that i couldn't go back to sleep, so long as the pain stayed in the low to mild area, which it did.
at almost 7 i got up and decided to finish reading that megahot MCR genderswap fic which was SO DAMN GOOD. i enjoyed it a lot. if you read MCR slash, or are flexible in terms of fandoms, i highly suggest you check it out. shit is good.
i had an epiphany sometime last night. why do i love genderswap fics so much? because! i love gay sex! and i love vaginas! gay sex plus vaginas without the het?!?!? YES PLS. i know that made no sense. i'm comfortable with this.
so anyway, i read that fic to the very end, had terrible gas the whole time, showered, headed to the store cuz i had no milk to go with my cinnamon toast crunch. ate, waited for the bus because i didn't feel like limping all the way to campus, and went to class. turns out Gender and Womyn's Studies is this super small department/major so i knew half the people there even though i've only ever taken two GWS classes lol. kory and sarah [monet's ex] were there, as well as emily and betty and connie [vagina monologues], as well as random other people i'd somehow met. oh and the girl i didn't like in my GWS composition class is in there too but hopefully we won't encounter each other too often.
the class is called Identities Across Difference and i'm really excited about it. the professor [TRINH T Minh-ha] seems badass and she's a quantity-not-quality person when it comes to assigning readings so i dig that.
after class it had been my intention to go straight to the tang center [the health services place] but i had forgotten my gold card, so i limped my ass home to grab it, then caught the bus back up and waited FOREVER at the urgent care center. the clinician said it didn't feel like a cyst or broken bone [yay] so she gave me a walking boot to take the pressure off my foot for a couple weeks.
said boot! it slowed me the fuck down as i got used to it. walking uphill to class wasn't so fun. i was walking so slow that i didn't get a chance to stop for lunch, but i picked up a sandwich with every intention of eating it after class. walking around cuz i couldn't figure out where my class was was quite lame as well.
but! when i was half-lost, i ran into lara, whom i didn't get a chance to say hi to this morning. perfect opportunity. i think she's so damn hot and it makes me awkward[...er] around her. and this morning kory was telling me how she totally agrees and think she's megahot too! anyway, we went to class and caitlyn [my co-fac!] is in there! as well as desiree [vagina monologues] and sarah. so it's awesome. and i don't care if that annoying chick mai is there too because there's awesome people too. maybe it will balance out.
the class is Transnational Feminisms and it has sooo much reading. if you didn't know this about me, i'm a shitty student. i'm awful with keeping up with readings, and prefer to let them pile up and overwhelm me, and do nothing about it so that i fail. this is what happened spring 2007 as well as fall 2007. last semester, i got all Bs and this was a huge accomplishment for me. i want to do it again this semester, and maybe even get an A or two.
i hate being at such a huge competitive school where everyone's all OMG I FAIL I DID SO TERRIBLE I SWEAR I ONLY GET A 'B' IN THAT CLASS I WANT TO KILL MYSELF. and yea, i know, i know. we all work at different rates. we're all good at different things. but when you hear enough of that and B's are the best you can do, it really starts to get to you. really starts to fuck with you. and that's what berkeley's all about. feeling like your best isn't enough because there are 30 billion other people that you see every fucking day that are so much better/more determined/more successful than you. you've never had an internship? you've never had a 4.0? what are you even doing here? but still i persist. because i've been given this opportunity and i will totally take advantage of it even if i'm not a cool berkeley student.
anyway, i love how depressing that paragraph was considering my good mood lmao. clearly my good moods are odd as fuck. =)
i ate my sandwich, came home and chilled, then headed back out to do the first of the Femsex Info/Application sessions with caitlyn. we both forgot our agendas though lmao so we totally winged it. i asked the intro question "so we want to get to know you a bit, so we're gonna go around and say our names, our majors, and if you were a shoe, what kind would you be? *eyebrow raise and nod*" and i got some awesome answers as usual, and caitlyn's was the freakin sweetest ever! she was all "if i were a shoe, i'd be tracie's boot, because it's strong and there to support her" and i was all ^______________^! she's going to spoil the life out of me and make me realize what a selfish co-fac i am lmao. she made me a charm!
is it not the cutest thing ever? for those of you that don't know, it's the femsex goddess, drawn by a past femsexy. caitlyn carved it for me! she's so damn sweet dude. i made it into an earring and wear it every day. ^_^
she even painted this little box for me, ♥
me caitlyn and monet, last semester
her now.
long story short, i think that we will have an amazing semester. ^_^
more photos:
picture frame i panted last night at Dinner and Dusk
awesome/amusing sign up at GenEq
a few days ago i woke up at 5:30 and couldn't go back to sleep, so i decided to watch the sunrise through the windows and document the changes of the sky.
5:40 through my window
me tryign to decide which setting to use to best capture it.
14 minutes later.
5 minutes after that.
10 minutes later
another ten minutes. so i think you get it. i didn't watch the sun rise. i watched the fog roll in. i still enjoyed it. and fell back asleep. =)
got home this evening and had a package!
lovers my bobo!
now i'm going to hobble off to buy licorice! {is fiending, just a bit} oh, and i'm really getting used to the boot so it's not positively awful. =)
go read my new story. it's short and totally nto my style. but i still love it.
love to the flist!