day 13: i love you, but what are we going to do?
weather.yahoo.com says that it is currently partly cloudy in berkeley. the high is 81F. i was just outside. not fucking so. it's 95 at the very least, and i'm dying.
yesterday wasn't so bad. we didn't talk all that much, mostly cuz i had little to say to her, which probably made her feel awkward but meh. i'll survive, somehow. oh! and we ended up walking almost to the end of the pier at the marina, so that be item 28 off teh lifelist, grins. oh and darbrielle wants to do item 30 this weekend, but i'm not sure i'll be able to.
the whole deal about plagiarism is bothering me so much, and i can't seem to articulate just why. i mean, it's a fucked up thing to do, and it's a fucked up thing to do to my friends, but something is just plain unsettling about it all. how does one justify stealing another's work and taking credit for it? surely there are reasons out there, ones i haven't thought of, that make sense to other people. but i just... i don't know.
today has been alright, thus far. our fac meeting went well, a lot of laughs, a lot of shit got done, etc. after doing the sustainability and longevity meetings, taking over the program doesn't seem like such a great feat. even if it's only the 3 of us, who are totally new at this. we can do it. =)
yesterday i went to the fabric store and bought this beautiful light blue fabric, and plan to make a skirt out of it. you know, start off slow. i be very excited, friends. i love making things. =)
wendy-o matik came to speak for femsex on friday and it was amazing as per usual. i absolutely love that womyn, and all her talk about radical love and redefining relationships in whatever way you please. her talk about choices and embracing all love... she always makes me feel so happy and i'm always so filled with love every time i see her. every time i see her talk, i just want to embrace all of my relationships and give so much love, because the world will never have too much of that. her talk makes me want to embrace my relationship with louis, but that notion is very complicated, because whenever i do that, i just want more. and that causes more problems, because i can't stop talking to him just because he can't give me everything i want/need. and i can't pretend he doesn't give me a lot of other things i want and need, because he definitely does. so, as per usual, i'm stuck. or something. i don't know.
i'm not looking forward to being on a bus for 8 hours, twice, this weekend.
also, my mom said i'm bipolar when i told her i want to shave my head. she said i need help and asked if i'm having an identity crisis.
yesterday wasn't so bad. we didn't talk all that much, mostly cuz i had little to say to her, which probably made her feel awkward but meh. i'll survive, somehow. oh! and we ended up walking almost to the end of the pier at the marina, so that be item 28 off teh lifelist, grins. oh and darbrielle wants to do item 30 this weekend, but i'm not sure i'll be able to.
the whole deal about plagiarism is bothering me so much, and i can't seem to articulate just why. i mean, it's a fucked up thing to do, and it's a fucked up thing to do to my friends, but something is just plain unsettling about it all. how does one justify stealing another's work and taking credit for it? surely there are reasons out there, ones i haven't thought of, that make sense to other people. but i just... i don't know.
today has been alright, thus far. our fac meeting went well, a lot of laughs, a lot of shit got done, etc. after doing the sustainability and longevity meetings, taking over the program doesn't seem like such a great feat. even if it's only the 3 of us, who are totally new at this. we can do it. =)
yesterday i went to the fabric store and bought this beautiful light blue fabric, and plan to make a skirt out of it. you know, start off slow. i be very excited, friends. i love making things. =)
wendy-o matik came to speak for femsex on friday and it was amazing as per usual. i absolutely love that womyn, and all her talk about radical love and redefining relationships in whatever way you please. her talk about choices and embracing all love... she always makes me feel so happy and i'm always so filled with love every time i see her. every time i see her talk, i just want to embrace all of my relationships and give so much love, because the world will never have too much of that. her talk makes me want to embrace my relationship with louis, but that notion is very complicated, because whenever i do that, i just want more. and that causes more problems, because i can't stop talking to him just because he can't give me everything i want/need. and i can't pretend he doesn't give me a lot of other things i want and need, because he definitely does. so, as per usual, i'm stuck. or something. i don't know.
i'm not looking forward to being on a bus for 8 hours, twice, this weekend.
also, my mom said i'm bipolar when i told her i want to shave my head. she said i need help and asked if i'm having an identity crisis.