day 13: that's why we hear your music and press fast forward
so, bandombigbang is awesome. whoever thought this shit up was fucking golden, okay. (yes, i realize it is based on big bangs from other fandoms, but seriously. longfic. 3 or for longfics posted DAILY. with fanmixes and fanart to go with them. that is just badass. and did i mention fanmixes? i'm always looking for new music and some of these are fucking golden, okay? june, never end.
i'm fine, despite the shit from yesterday's entry. honestly, i'm just stressed about things not particularly going my way, financially. i'm actually in deeper than i'd realized yesterday, but i've gotten a loan that i can realistically pay back by november and my dad put in some money today ((no one likes a snitch, mom, but whatever)). i'll be ok, is what i'm trying to say.
got hold of some new icons! i'm in the mood for a new layout too, but i'm too lazy to make one, and i never find ones that i don't want to majorly alter. my life, so hard.
didn't get up to much today. got really (really) high and went grocery shopping. it took forever and i was nervous about taking too long to count my money so i ended up giving the cashier too much. it was kinda funny though lol. spent the rest of the day reading fic. it's kind of awesome.
i'm thinking now, about the past and what life has in store for me in the near future. lex posted a bulletin today about how excited she is about her birthday and her plans. and smack in the middle of it, she wrote & when tracie comes into Long Beach, we're going to a cantina and busting a Coyote Ugly hahahahaha :P i aim to get super smashed with lots of photographic evidence ^-^. and it made my chest all warm. i don't know why i get so caught up in how much/little i mean to people. i always put it up to narcissism but i really am starting to think that it might be more than that. i don't know.
randomly went through my old pbucket accounts and found some
this day was so much fun! i actually went through my closet and created each outfit, then set up my camera to record myself doing a little twirl in each one, and then used some gif program to set it up as one twirl. i had a lot of fun making this, lol. lyrics are from Right Said Fred's "i'm too sexy" lolll.
this day! senior year, we were hangin out in mr. bruna's class after school and i was recording a video on one of the cameras, mostly of us fuckin around. i called cami a voyeur and she didn't hear me, but knew i was talking shit and totally crept up and angry-style. it was hilarious; i couldn't stop laughing.
and i made this mid- to late 2006. gosh, i almost remember the optimism and love and warmth i was so unfamiliar with then.
this is the photo i used in the center of one of my photography class back then. this represented me as a whole, and i still have so much affection for it. the earrings, the skirt, the face, the messy hair, the yarn and crochet hook, sitting on the floor in my messy room. it's so who i was then. i don't know what a photo of me new would look like. something to consider, i suppose.
HERE HAVE A MEME i did almost exactly 4 years ago.
Name: tracie
Single or Taken: single
Sex: female
Birthday: June 29nd, 1988.
Sign: Cancer.
Siblings: Niki.
Hair color: Black
Eye color: Brown.
Height: 5'7
((okay so those haven't actually changed. whatever))
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You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: No.
How many exes do you have?: five-ish?
What is your longest relationship?: 2 years
What was your shortest relationship? Two weeks
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Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: places with 'fashion' in the title. includes but is not limited to: fashion island, fashion plaza, fashion stop, etc.
Any tattoos or piercing: hella! two lip rings, one nostril, both lobes, industrial. and Viva La Vulva is inked onto my back. ((wants more though!!))
Favorite brands?: ((lolll apparently i read this as 'favorite bands' all those years ago. fail)) i don't have a favorite brand.
What is your sexiest outfit?: so hard to choose, yo. when i wanna be hot as fuck i usually wear a black vest, and depending on the situation i won't wear a top underneath. my little pin striped shorts are hella cute, but my black skinnies do the same work if it's cold (plus they emphasize my hips). and my black boots. =D
What do you wear most the time?: skinny jeans and a random tee. preferably with my floral maddens and my yellow panic at the disco hoodie. =D but i often switch it up and wear flare jeans and my adios or my chucks. if it's warm enough, a black skirt or dress!
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Do you do drugs?: yes. i'm on the ganj. like, right now.
What are you most scared of?: Failure. (same answer)
What are you listening to right now: it's in his kiss - the shirelles
Who is the last person that called you?: my dad.
Where do you want to get married?: i don't believe in marriage.
What would you change about yourself?: My financial status! (oh, geez this is a good answer. but also, i would change the way i second-guess myself all the time)
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Colors: purple!!! and turquoise! and green!
Foods: omellettes, spaghetti, melty cookies!, party rainbow chip cupcakes!, any cupcakes, pieeeeeeeeeeee, candehhh, big ass salads, thai food.
Girls names: charlie and frankie and rae (i don't really care what they're short for; i just really like them as nicknames for girls), mahaliyah.
Boys names: Julian, Aiden
Subjects in school: uhhh femsex. and, like. I DON'T KNOW, JESUS.
Animals: dogs!! sea horses!
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Given anyone a bath?: Yes.
Smoked?: marijuana, yes.
Made yourself throw up?: No.
Skinny dipped? lol mayyyybe.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: lol maybe.
Cried when someone died?: Yes.
Lied: Yes.
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Been rejected?: Yes.
Rejected someone?: Multiple times.
Used someone?: Sorta.
Done something you regret?: fuck yes.
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Clothes/accessories: blue i heart girls tee, grey hanes panties, light blue satin pajama pants wiht stars and quarter moons on them
Annoyance: my back hurts
Smell: myself, mostly.
DVD in player: none
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You touched: i accidentally stepped on this dude's foot on the bus several hours ago.
Hugged: christa?
You IMed: john
You yelled at: been a while. don't recall.
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Understanding: yes, to an extent
Open minded? to an extent
Arrogant: much more rarely than i used to be.
Insecure: on occasion
Random: lol yea a bit.
Hungry: lol bit.
Smart: yes
Moody: not as much as i used to be.
Hard working: not really lol.
Organized: no.
Healthy: Yes
Shy: when i first meet someone, yes.
Difficult: Yes.
Attractive: uh, duh.
Obsessed: lol... on occasion
Angry: nope
Sad: not particularly
Happy: to an extent
Hyper: not rly
• ¥ • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • ¥ •
Kill?: No one.
Slap?: uhh no one i can think of.
Get really wasted with?: hm. all of my friends, really.
In the morning I: wonder what i'm doing and if i can go back to sleep (the answer, lately, has been "nothing. and yes")
All you need is: love???????
Love is: stronger than pride
I dream about: weird shit, lol.
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Makes you smile: pfft i'm easy.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him or her?: ugggggghhh briana. and i only ever see her on fbook D=
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Sit on the internet all night waiting for that special someone to get on?: no. UNLESS YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT CINDY AND SHE SURE IS SPESHUL TO MY HEART.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Only for a day.
Wish you were younger: not really. (20 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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Of scars on my body: 12-13ish i can see
• ¥ • Y O U R | T H O U G H T S • ¥ •
I am: awesome!
I want: to go write! jesus!
I have: to pee
I wish: i had a cool mil. all i need, dude.
I hear: kanye west
I hate: ignorance.
I fear: many things
i'm fine, despite the shit from yesterday's entry. honestly, i'm just stressed about things not particularly going my way, financially. i'm actually in deeper than i'd realized yesterday, but i've gotten a loan that i can realistically pay back by november and my dad put in some money today ((no one likes a snitch, mom, but whatever)). i'll be ok, is what i'm trying to say.
got hold of some new icons! i'm in the mood for a new layout too, but i'm too lazy to make one, and i never find ones that i don't want to majorly alter. my life, so hard.
didn't get up to much today. got really (really) high and went grocery shopping. it took forever and i was nervous about taking too long to count my money so i ended up giving the cashier too much. it was kinda funny though lol. spent the rest of the day reading fic. it's kind of awesome.
i'm thinking now, about the past and what life has in store for me in the near future. lex posted a bulletin today about how excited she is about her birthday and her plans. and smack in the middle of it, she wrote & when tracie comes into Long Beach, we're going to a cantina and busting a Coyote Ugly hahahahaha :P i aim to get super smashed with lots of photographic evidence ^-^. and it made my chest all warm. i don't know why i get so caught up in how much/little i mean to people. i always put it up to narcissism but i really am starting to think that it might be more than that. i don't know.
randomly went through my old pbucket accounts and found some
this day was so much fun! i actually went through my closet and created each outfit, then set up my camera to record myself doing a little twirl in each one, and then used some gif program to set it up as one twirl. i had a lot of fun making this, lol. lyrics are from Right Said Fred's "i'm too sexy" lolll.
this day! senior year, we were hangin out in mr. bruna's class after school and i was recording a video on one of the cameras, mostly of us fuckin around. i called cami a voyeur and she didn't hear me, but knew i was talking shit and totally crept up and angry-style. it was hilarious; i couldn't stop laughing.
and i made this mid- to late 2006. gosh, i almost remember the optimism and love and warmth i was so unfamiliar with then.
this is the photo i used in the center of one of my photography class back then. this represented me as a whole, and i still have so much affection for it. the earrings, the skirt, the face, the messy hair, the yarn and crochet hook, sitting on the floor in my messy room. it's so who i was then. i don't know what a photo of me new would look like. something to consider, i suppose.
HERE HAVE A MEME i did almost exactly 4 years ago.
Name: tracie
Single or Taken: single
Sex: female
Birthday: June 29nd, 1988.
Sign: Cancer.
Siblings: Niki.
Hair color: Black
Eye color: Brown.
Height: 5'7
((okay so those haven't actually changed. whatever))
• ¥ • R E L A T I O N S H I P S • ¥ •
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: No.
How many exes do you have?: five-ish?
What is your longest relationship?: 2 years
What was your shortest relationship? Two weeks
• ¥ • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • ¥ •
Where is your favorite place to shop for clothes: places with 'fashion' in the title. includes but is not limited to: fashion island, fashion plaza, fashion stop, etc.
Any tattoos or piercing: hella! two lip rings, one nostril, both lobes, industrial. and Viva La Vulva is inked onto my back. ((wants more though!!))
Favorite brands?: ((lolll apparently i read this as 'favorite bands' all those years ago. fail)) i don't have a favorite brand.
What is your sexiest outfit?: so hard to choose, yo. when i wanna be hot as fuck i usually wear a black vest, and depending on the situation i won't wear a top underneath. my little pin striped shorts are hella cute, but my black skinnies do the same work if it's cold (plus they emphasize my hips). and my black boots. =D
What do you wear most the time?: skinny jeans and a random tee. preferably with my floral maddens and my yellow panic at the disco hoodie. =D but i often switch it up and wear flare jeans and my adios or my chucks. if it's warm enough, a black skirt or dress!
• ¥ • S P E C I F I C S • ¥ •
Do you do drugs?: yes. i'm on the ganj. like, right now.
What are you most scared of?: Failure. (same answer)
What are you listening to right now: it's in his kiss - the shirelles
Who is the last person that called you?: my dad.
Where do you want to get married?: i don't believe in marriage.
What would you change about yourself?: My financial status! (oh, geez this is a good answer. but also, i would change the way i second-guess myself all the time)
¥ • F A V O R I T E S • ¥ •
Colors: purple!!! and turquoise! and green!
Foods: omellettes, spaghetti, melty cookies!, party rainbow chip cupcakes!, any cupcakes, pieeeeeeeeeeee, candehhh, big ass salads, thai food.
Girls names: charlie and frankie and rae (i don't really care what they're short for; i just really like them as nicknames for girls), mahaliyah.
Boys names: Julian, Aiden
Subjects in school: uhhh femsex. and, like. I DON'T KNOW, JESUS.
Animals: dogs!! sea horses!
• ¥ • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • ¥ •
Given anyone a bath?: Yes.
Smoked?: marijuana, yes.
Made yourself throw up?: No.
Skinny dipped? lol mayyyybe.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: lol maybe.
Cried when someone died?: Yes.
Lied: Yes.
Fallen for your best friend?: no
Been rejected?: Yes.
Rejected someone?: Multiple times.
Used someone?: Sorta.
Done something you regret?: fuck yes.
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Clothes/accessories: blue i heart girls tee, grey hanes panties, light blue satin pajama pants wiht stars and quarter moons on them
Annoyance: my back hurts
Smell: myself, mostly.
DVD in player: none
• ¥ • L A S T | P E R S O N • ¥ •
You touched: i accidentally stepped on this dude's foot on the bus several hours ago.
Hugged: christa?
You IMed: john
You yelled at: been a while. don't recall.
• ¥ • A R E | Y O U • ¥ •
Understanding: yes, to an extent
Open minded? to an extent
Arrogant: much more rarely than i used to be.
Insecure: on occasion
Random: lol yea a bit.
Hungry: lol bit.
Smart: yes
Moody: not as much as i used to be.
Hard working: not really lol.
Organized: no.
Healthy: Yes
Shy: when i first meet someone, yes.
Difficult: Yes.
Attractive: uh, duh.
Obsessed: lol... on occasion
Angry: nope
Sad: not particularly
Happy: to an extent
Hyper: not rly
• ¥ • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • ¥ •
Kill?: No one.
Slap?: uhh no one i can think of.
Get really wasted with?: hm. all of my friends, really.
In the morning I: wonder what i'm doing and if i can go back to sleep (the answer, lately, has been "nothing. and yes")
All you need is: love???????
Love is: stronger than pride
I dream about: weird shit, lol.
• ¥ • W H O • ¥ •
Makes you smile: pfft i'm easy.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him or her?: ugggggghhh briana. and i only ever see her on fbook D=
• ¥ • D O | Y O U | E V E R • ¥ •
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that special someone to get on?: no. UNLESS YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT CINDY AND SHE SURE IS SPESHUL TO MY HEART.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Only for a day.
Wish you were younger: not really. (20 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
• ¥ • N U M B E R • ¥ •
Of scars on my body: 12-13ish i can see
• ¥ • Y O U R | T H O U G H T S • ¥ •
I am: awesome!
I want: to go write! jesus!
I have: to pee
I wish: i had a cool mil. all i need, dude.
I hear: kanye west
I hate: ignorance.
I fear: many things