i don't know how to deal anymore except to just become numb.

[v_for_vendetta]

drunken rage is over. uncomfortable numbness has settled in. i really don't know how to deal anymore. i just wrote some shit, and then deleted it all. i can't even express myself right now. i don't know what to say anymore. i can respond to shit. but it seems so pointless. and useless. and ultimately wrong. i don't know what the answers

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[booboosnitsnit]

I can relate to everything you just said. I've spent the past 24 hours sitting in my room, angry and bitter, and lashing out at people who just a week ago were my best friends. I don't know how to cope with these feelings of anger. I've never been so passionate about something before, and I've never been so let down before. It's a new emotion that I don't know how to deal with. I'm a pre-med student at Indiana University, and I haven't even cracked open a textbook in over 24 hours. I'm THAT upset. I think having other people with your same views to confide in will make this whole process of healing go faster. I ramble in my livejournal all the time, and reading back on it, it never even comes close to expressing how I really feel. Maybe that's because if people knew how I really felt about all this election bullshit, I'd just cause even more problems in my life that I don't want to deal with. I don't have time to argue with people, I don't want to argue with people. I just want to help. I want to do something. I hate feeling helpless. This country is going to shambles and there isn't a damn thing any individual person can do about it. I have the anger of a thousand Hitlers right now. If I knew there weren't going to be such repercussions, I'd lash out right now and probably do a lot of really stupid things to a lot of really stupid people.

But instead, we're stuck bottling it all inside, hoping and wishing that there are people out there who relate to us.

-Shae